de Csoma Roxana<\/p>\n
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\n-Ai \u00eent\u00e2rziat, \u00eemi spuse ea, z\u00e2mbind juc\u0103u\u015f.<\/p>\n
-\u00cemi pare r\u0103u.<\/p>\n
M-am a\u015fezat la umbra unui copac, iar ea\u00a0 s-a a\u015fezat cu capul in bra\u0163ele mele. Cerul era senin, iarba era de un verde electrizant. \u00cei m\u00e2ng\u00e2iam parul blond ca spicul gr\u00e2ului. L\u00e2ng\u0103 ea aveam un sentiment de pace interioar\u0103. M\u0103 sim\u0163eam fericit.<\/p>\n
-\u015ei ce ai f\u0103cut ast\u0103zi?<\/p>\n
-Lucruri obi\u015fnuite. plictisitoare. Tu ce ai f\u0103cut ast\u0103zi?<\/p>\n
-Te-am a\u015fteptat s\u0103 vii l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine.<\/p>\n
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Pentru c\u00e2teva momente, am stat am\u00e2ndoi cufunda\u0163i \u00eentr-o lini\u015fte total\u0103, ascult\u00e2nd c\u00e2ntecul p\u0103s\u0103rilor. Era pl\u0103cut, era pace. De\u015fi \u015ftiam c\u0103 nu va dura mult, trebuia s\u0103 o \u00eentreb.<\/p>\n
-De ce ne \u00eent\u00e2lnim mereu aici? Ce reprezint\u0103 acest loc?<\/p>\n
-Nu \u015ftii?<\/p>\n
-Nu.<\/p>\n
-Prive\u015fte \u00een jur. Spune-mi de ce \u00ee\u0163i aminte\u015fte acest loc.<\/p>\n
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Am f\u0103cut cum a zis ea. Am privit \u00een jur. Livada verde, cu pomii \u00eenflori\u0163i. Era prim\u0103var\u0103. Meri, peri chiar \u015fi c\u00e2\u0163iva pruni. Casa veche din spatele gr\u0103dinii parc\u0103 \u00eemi era cunoscut\u0103. De unde?<\/p>\n
-Nu \u00eemi amintesc.<\/p>\n
-\u015etii c\u0103 nu \u00ee\u0163i pot spune.<\/p>\n
-De ce?<\/p>\n
-Pentru c\u0103 magia o s\u0103 dispar\u0103. Eu o s\u0103 dispar.<\/p>\n
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M-am ridicat \u015fi am \u00eenceput s\u0103 m\u0103 plimb, poate poate \u00eemi voi aminti ceva. Mi s-a al\u0103turat \u015fi ea.<\/p>\n
-Prive\u015fti, dar nu sim\u0163i. Prive\u015fte, dar cu inima.<\/p>\n
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Am \u00eenchis ochii pentru c\u00e2teva clipe, iar c\u00e2nd i-am deschis, eram \u00een patul meu, \u00een casa mea. De c\u00e2nd muriser\u0103 p\u0103rin\u0163ii mei, m-am mutat la ora\u015f. \u00cemi duceam existen\u0163a f\u0103c\u00e2nd mereu acelea\u015fi lucruri: mers la munc\u0103, vechea cafenea de la col\u0163ul str\u0103zii unde locuiam, cas\u0103, \u015fi tot a\u015fa. Un ciclu ce se repeta. Iar noaptea m\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2lneam cu fata visurilor mele. Asta pentru c\u0103 eu chiar visam. O visam \u00een fiecare noapte, \u00een acea\u015fi livad\u0103, sub acela\u015fi copac, \u00een acela\u015fi anotimp. Nu \u015ftiam cine e, nu \u015ftiam unde sunt \u015fi cel mai important lucru, nu \u015ftiam de ce o visez.<\/p>\n
-Ai venit.<\/p>\n
-Da. \u015etii c\u0103 \u00eemi face pl\u0103cere s\u0103 vorbim, dar a\u015f vrea s\u0103 \u015ftiu cine e\u015fti \u015fi unde e locul acesta.<\/p>\n
-\u00ce\u0163i voi spune, apoi voi disp\u0103rea. Nu le po\u0163i avea pe toate.<\/p>\n
-Nu. Trebuie s\u0103 fie o cale.<\/p>\n
-\u0162i-am mai explicat. Nu se poate altfel.<\/p>\n
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M-am resemnat. Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 \u00eemi doresc s\u0103 dorm c\u00e2t mai mult. Chiar \u00eencepusem s\u0103 iau somnifere, doar s\u0103 pot prelungi timpul cu ea. \u00cen vis, totul mergea mirific. \u00cen realitate, pe de alt\u0103 parte, totul se n\u0103ruia \u00een jurul meu. Mi-am pierdut locul de munc\u0103, nu mai ie\u015feam din cas\u0103, facturile \u00eencepuser\u0103 s\u0103 se adune, \u015fi nici nu puteam s\u0103 \u00eemi amintesc c\u00e2nd fusese ultima oar\u0103 c\u0103nd m\u00e2ncasem ceva. Toate acestea p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00eentr-o zi. Sau noapte.<\/p>\n
-Nu po\u0163i s\u0103 o mai duci a\u015fa.<\/p>\n
-\u015etiu. Dar a\u015f renun\u0163a la tot, doar s\u0103 stau cu tine.<\/p>\n
-M\u0103 iube\u015fti,\u015ftiu. Dar nu\u00a0 \u00ee\u0163i po\u0163i petrece via\u0163a dormind. O s\u0103 mori.<\/p>\n
-Nu \u00eemi pas\u0103.<\/p>\n
-Opre\u015fte-te.<\/p>\n
Se ridica, \u015fi puteam vedea clar c\u00e2t de sup\u0103rat\u0103 era.<\/p>\n
-Nu po\u0163i s\u0103 continui a\u015fa. Trebuie s\u0103 iei o pauz\u0103. Ia-\u0163i un concediu. Pleac\u0103 departe de locul \u00een care stai. Promite-mi.<\/p>\n
-O s\u0103 m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc la asta.<\/p>\n
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Ne-am \u00eembr\u0103\u0163i\u015fat \u015fi am alunecat \u00eenapoi spre realitatea crud\u0103, unde ea nu mai era. Ajunsesem s\u0103 fiu obsedat de atingerea ei, de clipele in care eram doar noi doi \u015fi gr\u0103dina care ajunsese s\u0103 fie ca Raiul pentru mine.<\/p>\n
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Dup\u0103 o s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103 de chinuri \u00een care m\u0103 g\u00e2ndeam cum s\u0103 fac s\u0103 revin la o via\u0163\u0103 normal\u0103, am ajuns la decizia de a pleca la casa p\u0103rinteasc\u0103. Odat\u0103 ajuns acolo, am r\u0103mas stupefiat. Casa era \u00een paragin\u0103. Gr\u0103dina cu livada \u00een care petreceam timpul pe c\u00e2nd eram copil era plin\u0103 de m\u0103r\u0103cini. P\u0103rea \u00eentunecat\u0103, genul de livad\u0103 care o vezi \u00een filmele horror \u015fi te a\u015ftep\u0163i ca cineva s\u0103 ias\u0103 cu un topor dup\u0103 tine. \u00cencet \u00eencet, am \u00eenceput s\u0103 m\u0103 ocup de cas\u0103 de livad\u0103, de\u015fi \u00eemi scurtam singur timpul cu fata visurilor mele, o vedeam din ce \u00een ce mai fericit\u0103, iar dac\u0103 ea era fericit\u0103, la fel eram \u015fi eu.<\/p>\n
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Am petrecut mult timp lucr\u00e2nd la cas\u0103. Dup\u0103 ce mi s-au terminat banii str\u00e2n\u015fi am decis s\u0103 \u00eemi v\u00e2nd apartamentul de la ora\u015f. Bine\u00een\u0163eles c\u0103 nu s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat a\u015fa repede pe c\u00e2t m\u0103 a\u015fteptam. Trecuse ceva timp p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd am fost sunat s\u0103 ma \u00eentorc \u00eenapoi \u00een ora\u015f. Se g\u0103sise un cump\u0103rator. \u00cen seara dinaintea plec\u0103rii mele, am visat-o din nou. Era mai frumoas\u0103 ca oric\u00e2nd. P\u0103rul ei blond \u00eei curgea pe umeri ca o cascad\u0103 de bucle m\u0103t\u0103soase. Iar ea \u00eemi z\u00e2mbea din toat\u0103 inima. P\u0103rea mai fericit\u0103 ca oric\u00e2nd.<\/p>\n
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Nu \u00een\u0163elegeam de ce. Cu toate acestea, am plecat spre ora\u015f, cu z\u00e2mbetul ei \u00eentip\u0103rit \u00een mintea mea. C\u00e2nd am v\u0103zut cump\u0103r\u0103torul, era s\u0103 cad \u00eemtr-o stare de le\u015fin. Era ea. Fata visurilor mele. Era real\u0103.<\/p>\n
-\u00cemi pari cunoscut de undeva.<\/p>\n
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Nu puteam crede a\u015fa ceva. Orice ar fi fost, nu \u00eei puteam spune c\u0103 ea \u00eemi ap\u0103rea in vise. C\u0103 ea, era fata viselor mele.<\/p>\n
-\u015etiu. Am crescut \u00eempreun\u0103. Am fost vecini.<\/p>\n
-Stai, ai crescut \u00een Stupini?<\/p>\n
-Da.<\/p>\n
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Atunci am \u00eenceput s\u0103 \u00eemi amintesc. Livada era cea din spatele casei mele. Acolo ne jucam de-a ascunselea c\u00e2nd eram la gr\u0103dini\u0163\u0103. Cum am putut s\u0103 uit a\u015fa ceva?<\/p>\n
-Ce zici dac\u0103 te invit la cafeneaua de la col\u0163, \u015fi a\u015fa putem vorbi despre ce am f\u0103cut de c\u00e2nd nu ne-am mai v\u0103zut.<\/p>\n
-Sun\u0103 perfect.<\/p>\n
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Era mai frumoas\u0103 dec\u00e2t \u00een visele mele. Avea o privire bl\u00e2nd\u0103 care pur \u015fi simplu putea s\u0103 fac\u0103 orice om dur s\u0103 par\u0103 un c\u0103\u0163elu\u015f. Ajun\u015fi la cafenea am lasat-o pe ea s\u0103 comande prima, apoi am comandat \u015fi eu. Nu \u00een\u0163elegeam de ce tot timpul oamenii se uitau insistent la noi. Credeam c\u0103 era r\u00e2sul ei molipsitor care atr\u0103gea aten\u0163ia. P\u00e2n\u0103 ce am realizat c\u0103 pe m\u0103sur\u0103 ce discu\u0163ia avansa, ea disp\u0103rea. \u00cen urma ei nu r\u0103m\u0103sese dec\u00e2t o vag\u0103 amintire. Am pl\u0103tit nota \u015fi \u00een drum spre cas\u0103 m\u0103 g\u00e2ndeam la ea. Cred c\u0103 mi-am dorit at\u00e2t de mult s\u0103 o \u00eent\u00e2lnesc, \u00eenc\u00e2t mi-am imaginat-o. Nu am mai visat-o de atunci, dar am \u00eenceput s\u0103 simt pentru prima dat\u0103 c\u0103 tr\u0103iesc.<\/p>\n
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