de Simona Climescu <\/p>\n
\nNu m\u0103 pot hot\u0103r\u00ee.
\nE\u0219ti o \u00eent\u00e2mplare sau te-a chemat cineva? Te-am atras cumva eu, cu povestea mea amar\u0103? Ai sim\u021bit vreun miros de putregai \u0219i ai venit s\u0103 verifici, ca nu cumva s\u0103 se r\u0103sp\u00e2ndeasc\u0103? Nu de alta, dar \u0219tiu c\u00e2t de nelalocul ei \u00een ziua de azi e o persoan\u0103 cu sufletul muceg\u0103it. Nu, nu pentru c\u0103 a stat pe vreun raft l\u00e2ng\u0103 un perete cu igrasie \u0219i a tras umezeal\u0103. Nu avea cum. A muceg\u0103it din cauza lor. A at\u00e2tor \u0219i at\u00e2tor \u2018ei\u2019, care au intrat ca \u00een propria lor buc\u0103t\u0103rie \u0219i \u0219i-au l\u0103sat aiurea pe mas\u0103 resturile ce le prisoseau. Frust\u0103ri m\u0103cinate nop\u021bi de-a lungul \u00een paturi tari \u0219i l\u00e2ng\u0103 trupuri cump\u0103rate, am\u0103gite cu doua promisiuni \u0219i un pachet de \u021big\u0103ri bune, fructe stricate care-\u0219i las\u0103 zeama s\u0103 se scurga printre cr\u0103p\u0103turile fiin\u021bei mele, vise \u00eenvelite \u00een cear\u0219afuri groase \u0219i negre, ca nu cumva cineva s\u0103 le vad\u0103 \u0219i s\u0103 r\u00e2d\u0103 de ele, sau poate s\u0103 le ia \u0219i s\u0103 le scuture bine p\u00e2n\u0103 ar ie\u0219i din ele \u0219i cea mai mic\u0103 urm\u0103 de speran\u021ba, ce\u0219ti pline de za\u021b, \u00eentins ciudat pe albul lor, ca atunci c\u00e2nd bunica incerca s\u0103 ghiceasc\u0103 ceva foarte important \u0219i tot inv\u00e2rtea ce\u0219cu\u021ba ca s\u0103 se iveasca ceva-ul, urm\u0103rind parc\u0103 blestemele \u0219i mor\u021bile ce nu se l\u0103sau \u00eenca descoperite \u00een nenorocita aia de cafea, regrete \u00eembibate cu o\u021betul transpira\u021biilor \u0219i vlaga aproape interminabil\u0103 cu care habar n-aveau c\u0103 au fost lasa\u021bi, dar care nu cumva s\u0103 poat\u0103 fi folosit\u0103 \u00een vreun scop moral sau cel pu\u021bin legitim, nu, ci doar pentru a-\u0219i \u00eent\u0103r\u00e2ta mon\u0219trii, scrumiere cu \u021big\u0103ri fumate pe jumatate, ca via\u021ba asta a ta care \u021bi se pare tr\u0103ita pe jum\u0103tate, fiindc\u0103 pe cealalt\u0103 ai anulat-o din start, zic\u00e2ndu-\u021bi ca prostul c\u0103 nu meri\u021bi inc\u0103 s\u0103 tr\u0103ie\u0219ti pe de-a-ntregul, fiindc\u0103 a\u0219a ai v\u0103zut tu \u00een reclamele celor ce te \u00eenva\u021b\u0103 c\u0103 via\u021ba adevarat\u0103 \u0219i intreag\u0103 e doar dac\u0103 ai X sau Y \u0219i tu nu te ai dec\u00e2t pe tine, pove\u0219ti am\u0103r\u00e2te \u0219i schimonosite de vorbe str\u00e2mbe \u0219i oarbe \u0219i surde, c\u0103ci nimeni n-a \u0219tiut vreodat\u0103 s\u0103 le pun\u0103 \u00een gura cui trebuia ca s\u0103 le scoat\u0103 a\u0219a cum meritau; \u0219i o pereche de ochelari…sunt ochelarii t\u0103i, prin care \u00eens\u0103 nu m-ai privit niciodat\u0103, de fiecare dat\u0103 \u00eemi spuneai c\u0103 m\u0103 vezi mai bine nev\u0103z\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 bine \u0219i doar ascult\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 perfect \u0219i apuc\u00e2ndu-mi ne\u00eencrederea de m\u00e2n\u0103 \u0219i m\u00e2ng\u00e2indu-mi orgoliul t\u0103v\u0103lit at\u00e2ta timp \u0219i z\u00e2mbindu-le ochilor mei aproape \u00eenchi\u0219i.<\/p>\n
\nAcum spune-mi, ai venit s\u0103 admiri toate astea, s\u0103 le studiezi ca \u00eentr-un muzeu grotesc, al vreunui artist care se crede marele descoperitor al orice sau ai venit s\u0103 te minunezi cum de pot toate hoiturile at\u00e2tor circumstan\u021be s\u0103 \u00eencap\u0103 la un loc \u00een mine? Sau poate ai venit s\u0103 vezi doar ce-\u021bi lipse\u0219te \u021bie. Nu, tu le spuneai lor c\u0103 la tine e curat..ah, sau poate \u00eei min\u021beai, poate i\u021bi era doar fric\u0103 s\u0103 nu afle c\u0103 ai \u0219i tu colec\u021bia ta de duhori mirositoare a e\u0219ec \u0219i-a dezam\u0103giri \u0219i nu cumva s\u0103 dea buzna-n tine, a\u021b\u00e2\u021ba\u021bi de veste. Spune-mi, ai venit s\u0103 r\u00e2zi? Sau ai venit s\u0103 stai?…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
de Simona Climescu Nu m\u0103 pot hot\u0103r\u00ee. E\u0219ti o \u00eent\u00e2mplare sau te-a chemat cineva? Te-am atras cumva eu, cu povestea mea amar\u0103? Ai sim\u021bit vreun miros de putregai \u0219i ai venit s\u0103 verifici, ca nu cumva s\u0103 se r\u0103sp\u00e2ndeasc\u0103? Nu de alta, dar \u0219tiu c\u00e2t de nelalocul ei \u00een ziua de azi e o persoan\u0103 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1042,15],"tags":[1053,1115,1067],"class_list":["post-10474","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-egophobia42","category-proza","tag-egophobia-42","tag-proza","tag-simona-climescu"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6DakB-2IW","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10474","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10474"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10474\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10475,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10474\/revisions\/10475"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10474"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10474"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10474"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}