Abia c\u00e2nd se trezi diminea\u0163a urm\u0103toare \u00ee\u015fi d\u0103du seama c\u00e2t de mult avusese nevoie de pu\u0163in\u0103 odihn\u0103 impermeabil\u0103 la vise \u015fi de c\u00e2t de pu\u0163in\u0103 avusese parte \u00een ciuda tuturor eforturilor sale de a-\u015fi \u00een\u015furuba ochii \u00een cap c\u00e2t mai ermetic posibil. Din p\u0103cate, nu reu\u015fise s\u0103 \u00eenchid\u0103 un ochi toat\u0103 noaptea, chiar dac\u0103 practic \u015fi-l sigilase \u015fi pe cel\u0103lalt sub ad\u00e2ncul sub\u0163ire al pleoapei. Efortul a fost inutil \u015fi risipa de energie chiar mai mare dec\u00e2t \u00een lupta cu realitatea. Ar fi vrut s\u0103 fi dormit bu\u015ftean, dar \u00een schimb abia schi\u0163ase c\u00e2teva rotiri involuntare ale ochilor \u00een orbite, a\u015fa c\u0103 mai bine nu s-ar fi str\u0103duit at\u00e2ta s\u0103 atrag\u0103 somnul \u00een mintea lui, c\u00e2nd e foarte posibil ca el s\u0103 fi fost acolo tot timpul \u015fi \u00eencordarea continu\u0103 de a nu le da drumul ochilor din orbite s\u0103 \u00eei fi perturbat somnului toate inten\u0163iile de a-l adormi. Dar e prea nu \u015ftiu cum s\u0103 fie chiar a\u015fa, \u00ee\u015fi spuse \u00eencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103 \u00eendep\u0103rteze din cap o astfel de ipotez\u0103 fantastic\u0103. Nu tr\u0103iesc doar \u00eentr-o lume fic\u0163ional\u0103, \u00een care orice e posibil, se hot\u0103r\u00ee el s\u0103 cread\u0103 a\u015fa. Totu\u015fi m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc c\u0103 poate nu ar fi trebuit s\u0103 \u00eemi dau silin\u0163a at\u00e2t de mult. Poate ar fi trebuit s\u0103 \u00eencerc mai pu\u0163in \u015fi s\u0103 reu\u015fesc mai mult. \u015ei poate \u00eentocmai voi \u015fi face disear\u0103, trase concluzia savantul din el, profit\u00e2nd de momentul \u00een care ie\u015fise temporar din antrenamentul oniric pentru a \u00eencepe s\u0103 \u00eei fie dor de ea.<\/p>\n
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Tot \u00een pat era \u00eentins \u015fi nu ar fi vrut s\u0103 fac\u0103 nimic azi. Parc\u0103 nici s\u0103 se \u00eent\u00e2lneasc\u0103 cu ea, de\u015fi \u015ftia c\u0103 cina era tot \u00een schimbul ei. Sim\u0163ea c\u0103 are de terminat ceva \u00eenceput asear\u0103, dar nu prea \u00ee\u015fi d\u0103dea seama ce anume. Nu era dec\u00e2t un sentiment vag al responsabilit\u0103\u0163ii de a termina ceva c\u0103ruia nu ar fi vrut totu\u015fi s\u0103 \u00eei dea \u015fi contururile datoriei \u00eemplinite. Era oarecum lene\u015f \u015fi, dac\u0103 trupul s\u0103u ar fi fost \u00een stare s\u0103 \u00eel ajute, ar fi trecut \u015fi peste cele trei mese ale zilei, numai s\u0103 nu \u00ee\u015fi iroseasc\u0103 for\u0163ele f\u0103c\u00e2nd ceva nu neap\u0103rat necesar. Dar corpul \u00eei d\u0103duse deja primele semne c\u0103 a m\u00e2nca era mai mult dec\u00e2t necesar. A m\u00e2nca este ceea ce \u00eemi salveaz\u0103 corpul de evidenta lui indezirabilitate, dar, \u00een acela\u015fi timp, este \u015fi ceea ce m\u0103 va pierde pe mine \u00een toate aceste am\u0103nunte intestinale, \u00ee\u015fi spuse cu o umbr\u0103 de regret \u00een glas, dar f\u0103r\u0103 a-\u015fi masca pofta de \u00eenc\u0103 trei etaje de pr\u0103jitur\u0103. Dilema nu \u00eel \u0163inu mult suspendat \u00een nehot\u0103r\u00e2re \u015fi cur\u00e2nd ie\u015fi din ea cu foamea \u00een g\u00e2t \u015fi fiindu-i nebune\u015fte dor de ea.<\/p>\n
Decise s\u0103 am\u00e2ne pentru mai t\u00e2rziu ce avea de terminat, c\u00e2nd cel pu\u0163in va \u015fti precis ce are de dus la bun sf\u00e2r\u015fit.<\/p>\n
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