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m\u0103 chemau la o petrecere \u00een alt ora\u0219. nu \u0219tiam ce s\u0103 fac, nu eram hot\u0103r\u00e2t, a\u0219a c\u0103 te-am \u00eentrebat. mi-ai spus c\u0103 e bine s\u0103 m\u0103 duc, dar c\u0103 a\u0219 putea \u0219i s\u0103 nu m\u0103 duc. la petrecerea pe care o vedeam \u00eenainte de a \u00eencepe, era un fel de competi\u021bie. o \u00eencordare m\u0103 \u00eenconjura. cei din jur m\u0103 sf\u0103tuiau s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n \u0219i asta m\u0103 \u00eengrozise. spectatorii erau a\u0219eza\u021bi \u00een tribune ca la un meci de fotbal \u0219i, dintr-o dat\u0103, soarele le lumin\u0103 capetele care se transformar\u0103 \u00een superbe obiecte aurii.<\/p>\n
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de-acum nu voi mai face nimic, doar voi \u00eendr\u0103zni s\u0103 pip\u0103i cuvinte. suspicioas\u0103, vei fi mai pesimist\u0103 dec\u00e2t mine \u0219i m\u0103 vei deprima. te sim\u021bi mediocr\u0103 \u0219i te admir. numai din vise mai aflu ce vorbim. ar fi bine s\u0103 m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc \u0219i la desp\u0103r\u021birea de mine. m-ai crede \u00een stare de orice nu sunt \u00een stare, \u0219i asta e bine.<\/p>\n
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\u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103ri care nu vor s\u0103 fie uitate s-au \u0219ters ca \u0219i cum nu s-ar fi \u00eent\u00e2mplat. identit\u0103\u021bile tremur\u0103 \u0219i-s sc\u00e2rbit nu de singur\u0103tate. vei fi o \u00een\u0219iruire de vorbe care va mai a\u0219tepta o ploaie. voi fi ajutat de limbu\u021bia celor dou\u0103 doamne de l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine. \u00eemi spuneai c\u0103 dialogul \u0103sta va fi un fiasco. \u0219i-apoi ne vom lini\u0219ti.<\/p>\n
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efortul de-a nu face nimic m\u0103 deruteaz\u0103. nu fac nimic \u0219i-apoi m\u0103 trezesc c\u0103 tu\u0219esc, cu o dezn\u0103dejde f\u0103r\u0103 scrupule. eroziunea lucrurilor altfel se z\u0103re\u0219te de pe biciclet\u0103. fusesem un
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am ap\u0103sat un buton ca s\u0103 m\u0103 plimb \u00een zadar. de tine mi-am amintit sub un bec. un animal mi-a dat un cesule\u021b cu numele t\u0103u. intrase \u00een mine \u0219i se destr\u0103mase. cuvintele m\u0103-nnebunesc, prive\u0219te-m\u0103 doar.<\/p>\n
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\u00eenainte de criz\u0103 creierul se masturbeaz\u0103. lumini intermitente intr\u0103 \u00een mine cu mine \u00eempreun\u0103. imaginile revin la suprafa\u021b\u0103. e-o dependen\u021b\u0103 de dragul st\u0103rii de dependen\u021b\u0103. aura explodeaz\u0103 \u00eentr-un orgasm. \u0219i-apoi niciun cuv\u00e2nt \u0219i nimicul. \u0219i niciun sens al niciunui cuv\u00e2nt \u0219i niciun cuv\u00e2nt. o groaz\u0103 pe care n-am cum s-o controlez. un animal care a uitat ce sunt cuvintele, sensurile lor ame\u021bitoare sau nu. \u0219i-apoi, din nimic \u0219i de la sine apar, fluctueaz\u0103 intermitent, sensuri \u00een valuri. \u0219i le pip\u0103i. nu \u0219tiu nici cine sunt \u0219i de ce sunt \u0219i unde sunt. \u00eenvelit \u00eentr-o groaz\u0103 generalizat\u0103, de nest\u0103p\u00e2nit. te-a\u0219 lua de m\u00e2n\u0103 dac\u0103 ai fi l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine, te-a\u0219 \u00eentreba cine e\u0219ti \u0219i cine sunt \u0219i unde sunt, de ce te iau de m\u00e2n\u0103 \u0219i de ce mi-e fric\u0103. dup\u0103 ce voi visa \u00eemi vei aduce aminte.<\/p>\n
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aburii se formeaz\u0103 din suprimarea spiritelor imaginare, din tremur\u0103turi \u0219i inflama\u021bii, din contrac\u021bia cavit\u0103\u021bilor dezordonate. mu\u0219chii bra\u021belor, ai gambelor \u0219i-ai fe\u021bei agit\u0103 bine aerul \u0103sta clocit. ar mai fi \u0219i-o somnolen\u021b\u0103 predispus\u0103 la m\u00e2nie, chiar dac\u0103 nu mai r\u0103m\u00e2ne dec\u00e2t o flegm\u0103 \u0219i niciun sens logic nu \u021b\u00e2\u0219ne\u0219te de-aici.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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