{"id":12291,"date":"2018-08-13T07:55:43","date_gmt":"2018-08-13T05:55:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=12291"},"modified":"2018-08-11T11:58:39","modified_gmt":"2018-08-11T09:58:39","slug":"imbaldin","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=12291","title":{"rendered":"Imbaldin"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>[text \u00een care am inclus un fragment din Florin Bratu cu acordul acestuia]<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right;\">de Gorun Manolescu<\/p>\n<ul style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<li>Vorbe\u015fte lumea\u2026<\/li>\n<li>Da, c-a\u015f fi \u00een realitate o t\u00e2rfuli\u0163\u0103. Tu ce spui?<\/li>\n<li>Da, e\u015fti o t\u00e2rf\u0103. At\u00e2t de real\u0103! E\u015fti chiar <em>Realitatea<\/em>!<\/li>\n<li>C\u00e2nd schimb\u0103m instantaneu \u00eentr-o schimbare fantastic\u0103 de neimaginat\u2026<\/li>\n<li>Ce?<\/li>\n<li>Pozi\u0163iile.<\/li>\n<li>Pare c\u0103 ne juc\u0103m. Ce joc! Sunt dependent. Am devenit dependent. Mai dependent dec\u00e2t de orice joc de noroc\u2026<\/li>\n<li>\u015ei ajungem am\u00e2ndoi p\u00e2n\u0103 la cer\u2026mereu altfel.<\/li>\n<li>Dar \u00eentotdeauna la fel \u015fi nu. Dar dac\u0103 nu ne-am mai juca?<\/li>\n<li>Ceee\u2026?<\/li>\n<li>\u00cencepi s\u0103 te sperii?<\/li>\n<li>Ei a\u015fi! Dar poate c\u0103 da\u2026<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p><!--more--><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Am ajuns \u00a0am\u00e2ndoi acolo. Era o vreme c\u00e2inoas\u0103. Ne refugiasem \u00een cafeneaua-bibliotec\u0103 cu c\u00e2te un \u015fvar\u0163 \u00een fa\u0163\u0103 aburind. Am luat o carte pr\u0103fuit\u0103 \u015fi am \u00eenceput s\u0103 o r\u0103sfoim \u00eempreun\u0103. Din raftul l\u00e2ng\u0103 care st\u0103team \u00een lini\u015ftea des\u0103v\u00e2r\u015fit\u0103 se auzea ceva ca un fo\u015fnet \u00a0un fel de mi\u015fcare abia perceptibil\u0103 carii torceau o crim\u0103 perfect\u0103 uitat\u0103 \u00een sc\u00e2ndurile vechi de brad. A venit patronul ne-a rugat s\u0103 ne mut\u0103m la alt\u0103 mas\u0103 era masa Lui. \u00a0\u00cel a\u015ftepta. Am dat s\u0103 ne ridic\u0103m. Atunci a ap\u0103rut. Ne-a f\u0103cut semn s\u0103 st\u0103m lini\u015fti\u0163i s-a a\u015fezat \u015fi El calm \u00eembr\u0103cat \u00eentr-un fel de anteriu mai degrab\u0103 o c\u0103ma\u015f\u0103 imens\u0103 de lucru\u00a0 era \u00eenalt, foarte \u00eenalt cu\u00a0 barb\u0103 \u015fi must\u0103\u0163i cu \u0163easta ras\u0103. \u00cel vedeam ca prin cea\u0163\u0103. Era El cu acel <em>imbaldin<\/em> \u00een jurul capului. <em>Imbaldin<\/em>?! A\u015fa \u00eei ziceam noi \u00een copil\u0103rie colegi de clas\u0103, printr-a patra s\u0103 fi fost, se ascundea \u00een dul\u0103piorul de sub fereastr\u0103 unde ne \u0163ineam hainele pe care le dezbr\u0103cam c\u00e2nd era frig afar\u0103 \u015fi r\u0103m\u00e2neam \u00een uniformele de \u015fcoal\u0103 \u015fi unde \u00eel g\u0103seam dup\u0103 ore c\u00e2nd d\u0103deam la o parte u\u015file glisante \u015fi ne preg\u0103team s\u0103 ie\u015fim \u00eembr\u0103ca\u0163i mai gros pe strad\u0103. <em>Imbaldin<\/em>? A\u015fa \u00eei ziceam eu f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 \u015ftiu de ce la ceea ce-i \u00eenconjura capul ca o coroan\u0103 vaporoas\u0103 \u00a0pe care doar pu\u0163ini o vedeau \u015fi eu eram printre ei. N-am stat mult. Ne-am b\u0103ut cafelele. El o t\u0103rie dubl\u0103. F\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 scoatem nici o vorb\u0103. I-a f\u0103cut semn patronului a achitat nota pentru to\u0163i ne-a zis s\u0103-l urm\u0103m \u00a0\u015fi a\u015fa am ajuns \u00een atelierul lui de la mansard\u0103 unde \u00eel a\u015ftepta un model o femeie dezbr\u0103cat\u0103 lasciv\u0103 cu forme pline \u00a0zvelt\u0103 de\u015fi p\u0103rea \u00a0plin\u0103 \u015fi a\u0163\u00e2\u0163\u0103toare. \u00a0A \u00eenceput cu o anumit\u0103 frenezie calm\u0103 s-o picteze parc\u0103 \u00een joac\u0103 un joc care nu se mai termina. La sf\u00e2r\u015fit f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-i spun\u0103 nimic a privit-o lung dar absent. Parc\u0103 am auzit-o spun\u00e2nd sau mi s-a p\u0103rut mi\u015fc\u00e2ndu-se abia sim\u0163it pe scaunul pe care st\u0103tea cu picioarele de aceast\u0103 dat\u0103 din ce \u00een ce mai \u00a0desf\u0103cute p\u00e2n\u0103 atunci le \u0163inuse unul peste altul. Am auzit-o, chiar am auzit-o: acum face\u0163i cu mine ce vre\u0163i\u2026. \u00cen ochii Lui a ap\u0103rut un fel de z\u00e2mbet. Nu pervers. Nu juc\u0103u\u015f. Nu\u2026I-a zis calm: \u00cembrac\u0103-te \u015fi du-te\u2026A \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103 lini\u015ftit lacr\u0103mile-i curgeau pe obrajii ei nefarda\u0163i expresivi\u00a0 plini de triste\u0163e. Hai, du-te. Te a\u015fteptai s\u0103 fi violat\u0103? Ea \u015fi-a \u00een\u0103bu\u015fit un suspin. A \u00eenceput s\u0103 vorbeasc\u0103\u00a0 \u00eencet ca pentru ea\u2026 nu \u015ftiu dar atunci c\u00e2nd o femeie vrea s\u0103 fie violat\u0103 \u015fi nu este e\u00a0 mai r\u0103u de un milion de ori mai r\u0103u ca atunci c\u00e2nd e violat\u0103 \u015fi nu vrea \u015fi nu \u015ftiu dac\u0103 am vrut sau nu s\u0103 fiu violat\u0103 dar este trist\u2026 Lacrimile au \u00eenceput s\u0103-i curg\u0103 apoi \u015firoaie. Am avut senza\u0163ia c\u0103 tu cea de l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine e\u015fti \u00a0cea de pe podiumul pe care pozase\u015fi. \u00a0Te-am str\u00e2ns puternic l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine ai vibrat din toat\u0103 fiin\u0163a\u2026\u00a0 Atunci te-am iubit necondi\u0163ionat. Orice joc \u00eencetase. El plecase s\u0103 se spele pe m\u00e2ini de vopsea dup\u0103 ce acoperise p\u00e2nza pictat\u0103. Te-ai furi\u015fat tiptil \u015fi m-ai tras \u015fi pe mine de m\u00e2n\u0103 d\u00e2nd la o parte un col\u0163 de \u00eenvelitoare s\u0103 privim ce pictase. \u00centr-adev\u0103r surpriza a fost\u2026 da, pentru c\u0103 acolo era \u00een pozi\u0163ie vertical\u0103 un cactus cilindric un adev\u0103rat falus \u00een v\u00e2rf \u00eei \u00eenflorise \u00eei \u00eenflorea o ciudat\u0103 \u015fi pl\u0103p\u00e2nd\u0103 floare \u00eembobocit\u0103 care miraculos se desf\u0103cea rotitor etal\u00e2ndu-\u015fi petalele de un roz diafan vir\u00e2nd\u00a0 spre violet \u015fi al\u0103turi\u00a0 \u00een p\u00e2rg o splendid\u0103 floare carnivor\u0103 de un ro\u015fu intens \u00eentunecat.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Am auzit apoi peste c\u00e2teva s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni c\u0103 el disp\u0103ruse pur \u015fi simplu f\u0103r\u0103 urm\u0103. Fusese c\u0103utat peste tot. Inclusiv de poli\u0163ie. Inutil.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Ne-m strecurat am\u00e2ndoi \u00eentr-un amurg c\u00e2nd lumina se juca cu \u00eentunericul \u00een atelierul de la mansard\u0103 lucrurile erau a\u015fa cum le l\u0103sasem prin geamul din tavanul mansardei plin de praf se filtra acea lumin\u0103 a amurgului bl\u00e2nd ucis de sear\u0103 ca un ecou ne-am oprit \u00een fa\u0163a unui tablou \u00eencastrat \u00een perete care reprezenta o por\u0163iune de zid de c\u0103r\u0103mid\u0103 \u015fi care parc\u0103 spunea \u201eAcesta nu-i un zid!\u201d Am \u00eenceput s\u0103-l pip\u0103im deodat\u0103 s-a deschis am v\u0103zut alt tablou cu El pict\u00e2ndu-ne pe noi str\u00e2ns \u00eembr\u0103\u0163i\u015fa\u0163i. Am p\u0103truns am\u00e2ndoi \u00een tabloul pictat, de\u015fi am r\u0103mas \u015fi \u00een mansard\u0103, \u015fi de acolo \u00een altul unde \u00eembr\u0103\u0163i\u015farea noastr\u0103 continua cu mai mult\u0103 fervoare \u015fi autenticitate \u015fi de acolo \u00een altul \u015fi \u00een altul \u015fi \u00een altul\u2026p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd \u00een fa\u0163a Pictorului s-a deschis un h\u0103u de \u00eentunecime care lumina nefiresc, o lumin\u0103 neagr\u0103 puternic\u0103 a unui Rumi de suflet \u00eemp\u0103cat, \u00a0\u00een care am intrat continu\u00e2nd s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2nem \u015fi \u00een mansard\u0103&#8230; lini\u015ftea, acea lini\u015fte \u00a0ne-a\u00a0 \u00eenf\u0103\u015furat trupurile integrate \u00eentr-un tot transparent micile particule din jurul nostru s-au aprins rotindu-se cu viteze n\u0103ucitoare aura str\u0103lucea ca un blitz str\u0103lucea se curba \u00eenfrico\u015f\u0103tor de tare mansarda \u00eempingea c\u0103ldura emanat\u0103 de corpurile noastre \u00eentr-unul singur\u00a0 tot mai aproape din ce \u00een ce mai aproape sim\u0163eam cum zg\u00e2rciurile str\u00e2ng oasele p\u00e2n\u0103 se sparg\u00a0 m\u00e2inile ne-au c\u0103zut \u00a0pe podea am trecut \u00a0prin pere\u0163i am ie\u015fit \u00een mijlocul str\u0103zii au r\u0103mas \u00een urm\u0103 mici g\u0103uri \u00een jurul c\u0103rora limfa c\u0103p\u0103ta culori vine\u0163ii celulele\u00a0 s-au\u00a0 dizolvat de fericire sfere minuscule ni\u00a0 s-au \u00a0insinuat sub piele umfl\u0103turi mici ca ni\u015fte insecte ce urcau dar acum ne \u00eencordam c\u00e2t puteam\u00a0 \u015fi razele \u0163\u00e2\u015fneau \u00een jurul nostru ne ascundeau \u00eentr-un halou pluteam f\u0103r\u0103 opreli\u015fti \u00eentr-un cocon \u00eenchis deschiz\u00e2ndu-se al\u00a0 unei alte Realit\u0103\u0163i care era chiar Real\u0103 at\u00e2ta de Real\u0103 eram tot una cu aceast\u0103 Realitate\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>[text \u00een care am inclus un fragment din Florin Bratu cu acordul acestuia] de Gorun Manolescu Vorbe\u015fte lumea\u2026 Da, c-a\u015f fi \u00een realitate o t\u00e2rfuli\u0163\u0103. Tu ce spui? Da, e\u015fti o t\u00e2rf\u0103. At\u00e2t de real\u0103! E\u015fti chiar Realitatea! C\u00e2nd schimb\u0103m instantaneu \u00eentr-o schimbare fantastic\u0103 de neimaginat\u2026 Ce? Pozi\u0163iile. Pare c\u0103 ne juc\u0103m. Ce joc! 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