English version<\/a><\/p>\nNu \u00eenchide ochii, p\u0103streaz\u0103 mereu lumina in fa\u021ba ochilor.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Dar \u00eencerc s\u0103 fac acest lucru.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Poate nu \u00eencerci \u00eendeajuns.<\/p>\n
\u2013 De unde \u0219tii asta?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Dar n-am spus c\u0103 \u0219tiu, dar sigur ai \u00eencercat \u00eendeajuns?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Nu \u0219tiu s\u0103 r\u0103spund, dar c\u00e2nd \u00eenchizi ochii ce vezi?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Nu v\u0103d nimic, dar simt.<\/p>\n
\u2013 P\u0103i \u0219i ce sim\u021bi?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Simt \u00eentunericul din mine, simt precum ar cre\u0219te un vierme \u00een mine, un vierme ce m\u0103 consum\u0103 \u0219i-n acela\u0219i timp se consum\u0103 \u0219i pe el.<\/p>\n
\u2013 \u0218i de ce crezi c\u0103 ai ajuns \u00een aceast\u0103 situa\u021bie?<\/p>\n
\u2013 La ce te referi? Parc\u0103 discutam despre lumin\u0103 sau \u00eentuneric.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Da, despre \u00eentuneric, ai dreptate, \u0219i cum a ap\u0103rut acel vierme?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Nu \u0219tiu sigur, cred c\u0103 m-am n\u0103scut cu el.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Aha, crezi c\u0103 a plantat cineva acel vierme?<\/p>\n
\u2013 La ce te referi c\u00e2nd spui asta? Ce insinuezi prin aceast\u0103 afirma\u021bie?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Nu \u0219tiu sigur, crezi c\u0103 exist\u0103 un D-zeu, crezi c\u0103 suntem blestema\u021bi?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Nu m-am g\u00e2ndit la asta p\u00e2n\u0103 acum.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Nu crezi c\u0103 ar trebui s\u0103 o faci?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Mi-e fric\u0103…<\/p>\n
\u2013 De ce?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Mi-e fric\u0103 s\u0103 caut un r\u0103spuns…<\/p>\n
\u2013 Dar nu ai auzit?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Ce s\u0103 aud?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Nu ai auzit c\u0103 adev\u0103rul elibereaz\u0103?<\/p>\n
\u2013 E\u0219ti sigur?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Da, a\u0219a spun marii \u00een\u021belep\u021bi.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Nu \u0219tiu ce s\u0103 spun, singurul lucru de care sunt sigur este c\u0103 m\u0103 simt devorat.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Se pare c\u0103 ne \u00eentoarcem \u00een acela\u0219i punct…<\/p>\n
\u2013 Da, acela\u0219i punct.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Ai \u00eencercat s\u0103 te \u00eempaci cu viermele din tine?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Dar nu reu\u0219esc s\u0103 ajung la el.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Ce vrei s\u0103 spui cu asta?<\/p>\n
\u2013 P\u0103i… nu-mi r\u0103spunde.<\/p>\n
\u2013 \u0218i ce ai de g\u00e2nd s\u0103 faci?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Nu cred c\u0103 am de g\u00e2nd s\u0103 fac ceva. \u00cencep s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eempac cu aceast\u0103 condi\u021bie.<\/p>\n
\u2013 C\u00e2t crezi c\u0103 po\u021bi rezista f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eenchizi ochii?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Am rezistat \u0219i zile \u00eentregi. (nu \u0219tiu)<\/p>\n
\u2013 Nu sim\u021bi nevoia s\u0103 dormi?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Ba da, dar nu am timp s\u0103 fac asta.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Auzi, cine crezi c\u0103 a inventat \u00eentunericul?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Cred c\u0103 \u00eentrebarea ta este absurd\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Absurd\u0103 da… a\u0219a este. Dar blestemul care se afl\u0103 asupra ta, ce crezi despre el?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Dar nu cred c\u0103 este un blestem. Cred c\u0103 este o \u00eencercare.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Ce fel de \u00eencercare?<\/p>\n
\u2013 O \u00eencercare \u00een a vedea c\u00e2t pot rezista f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 clipesc.<\/p>\n
\u2013 \u0218i nu crezi c\u0103 aceast\u0103 condi\u021bie este absurd\u0103?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Ba da, este absurd\u0103, dar n-am ce s\u0103 fac.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Ai \u00eencercat s\u0103 te sinucizi?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Nu pot.<\/p>\n
\u2013 De ce nu po\u021bi?<\/p>\n
\u2013 N-am curajul s\u0103 fac asta.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Deci e\u0219ti un la\u0219?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Nu, doar nu am curajul s\u0103 o fac.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Auzi, \u0219i ce crezi c\u0103 se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 dac\u0103 nu mai deschizi ochii?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Cred c\u0103 am s\u0103 mor.<\/p>\n
\u2013 De ce spui asta?<\/p>\n
\u2013 \u00cen fiecare clipire \u0219i fiecare moment \u00een care \u00eemi \u021bin ochii \u00eenchi\u0219i, viermele din interiorul meu m\u0103 consum\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Dar ce crezi c\u0103 vrea de la tine?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Nu \u0219tiu s\u0103 r\u0103spund, tu ce crezi?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Cred c\u0103 vrea s\u0103 nu mai fie, pare c\u0103 vrea s\u0103 moar\u0103 \u0219i el.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Atunci, de ce a luat na\u0219tere \u00een mine?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Tind s\u0103 cred c\u0103 e\u0219ti condamnat…<\/p>\n
\u2013 Dar n-am f\u0103cut nimic.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Poate din acest motiv. Dar ai vrea s\u0103 faci ceva?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Nu \u0219tiu sigur ce a\u0219 putea s\u0103 fac, m-am luptat mereu s\u0103 nu \u00eenchid ochii, n-am avut timp s\u0103 m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc \u0219i la altceva.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Crezi c\u0103 viermele este ira\u021bional?<\/p>\n
\u2013 De ce spui asta?<\/p>\n
\u2013 De ce ar vrea s\u0103 te consume pe tine \u0219i pe el \u00een acela\u0219i timp?<\/p>\n
\u2013 A\u0219a se manifest\u0103 el.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Este aceast\u0103 manifestare ra\u021bional\u0103?<\/p>\n
\u2013 A\u0219 vrea s\u0103 cred c\u0103 da.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Crezi c\u0103 \u021bi-ar fi mai bine f\u0103r\u0103 el?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Probabil c\u0103 nu.<\/p>\n
\u2013 Dar de ce spui asta?<\/p>\n
\u2013 Acesta sunt eu. A\u0219a am fost mereu. Acesta este felul meu de a fi.<\/p>\n
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