versiunea rom\u00e2n\u0103<\/a><\/p>\n\n
Don\u2019t close your eyes, always keep the light\u00a0on.<\/p>\n
\u201cBut I\u2019m trying to do just that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMaybe you are not trying hard enough.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHow do you know that?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI didn\u2019t say I know, but are you sure that you\u2019ve tried enough?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know how to answer to that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut when you close your eyes, what do you see?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI see nothing, but I feel.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd what do you feel?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI feel the darkness inside me, I feel like a worm is growing inside of me, a worm that consumes me and at the same time consumes itself.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you have any idea why you are in this situation?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat do you mean? I thought we\u2019re talking about light and darkness.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes, the darkness, you\u2019re right. How do you think that worm was born?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m not sure, I think that I was actually born with it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh, you believe that someone may have planted it?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat do you mean by that? What are you insinuating?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m not sure, do you believe God exists, you think we\u2019re cursed?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI never thought about it, until now.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDon\u2019t you think you should do it?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m scared\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOf what?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOf finding an answer\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut didn\u2019t you hear?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou didn\u2019t hear that the truth will set you free?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFor real?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes, that\u2019s what wise men say.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNot sure what to say. The only thing I\u2019m sure about right now is that I feel devoured.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI think we\u2019re going back where we started\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes, where we started.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHave you tried to accept the worm inside of you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut I can\u2019t reach it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat do you mean?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWell\u2026it doesn\u2019t answer to me.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSo what do you propose we do?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t think I\u2019ll do anything about it. I\u2019m starting to accept this condition.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHow long do you believe you\u2019ll last without closing your eyes.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019ve managed to do it for days.\u201d (not sure)<\/p>\n
\u201cDon\u2019t you feel the need to sleep?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI do, but I have no time for that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cListen, what do you think about the dark? Who invented it?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI believe this question is absurd.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAbsurd yes\u2026that\u2019s right. But the curse that\u2019s upon you, what do you think about it?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t believe it\u2019s a curse. I think it\u2019s a trial.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat kind of trial?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s testing me to see how long I can last without blinking.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd you don\u2019t think that\u2019s absurd?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI do, but there\u2019s nothing I can do about it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHave you tried to kill yourself?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI can\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy not?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t have the guts to do it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSo, you\u2019re a coward?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, but I just don\u2019t have the guts to do it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cListen, so what do you think it will happen if you don\u2019t open your eyes anymore?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI think I\u2019ll die.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy\u2019s that?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWith every blink and every moment my eyes are open, the worm inside of me consumes me.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat do you think he wants from you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDon\u2019t know how to answer to that, what do you think?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI think he wants to be no more, it seems like he wants to die as well.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen, why did he choose me as his utero?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI tend to believe that you\u2019ve been condemned\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut I\u2019ve done nothing.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cProbably that\u2019s the reason. But is there something that would you like to do?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNot sure what I could do. I\u2019ve been fighting for a while not to close my eyes and had no time to think about something else.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you think the worm is irrational?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy would you say that?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy would he want to consume you and himself at the same time?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s how he acts?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWould you consider this something rational?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI want to believe it is.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cLet me ask you something. You think that you\u2019d be better off without him?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMaybe not.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy is that?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s who I am. That\u2019s how I\u2019ve always been. This is my way of being.\u201d<\/p>\n
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