{"id":1302,"date":"2009-08-26T20:41:11","date_gmt":"2009-08-26T18:41:11","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=1302"},"modified":"2009-10-12T14:28:12","modified_gmt":"2009-10-12T12:28:12","slug":"viata-trista-n-puscarie","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=1302","title":{"rendered":"Via\u0163\u0103 trist\u0103-n pu\u015fc\u0103rie"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>[scrisoare cu adresant necunoscut]<\/strong><br \/>\n<font color=green>(jidovul r\u0103t\u0103citor)<\/font><\/p>\n<p align=right>de Paul Belce<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nObserv c\u0103 am abandonat \u00een ultima lun\u0103 preocup\u0103rile literare de anvergur\u0103. Mai retu\u015fez ici-colo o sintagm\u0103 folosit\u0103 impropriu, dar pofta de a scrie mi-a pierit.<br \/>\nAceste \u00eensemn\u0103ri fragmentare, generate de for\u0163e antagoniste, la grani\u0163a dintre jurnal \u015fi eseu, \u00eemi servesc ca m\u0103rturie, reflec\u0163ie asupra acestor zile tulburi. Numai spiritul este liber s\u0103 se deta\u015feze, \u00eens\u0103 uneori se risipe\u015fte prea mult \u00een cotidianul deten\u0163iei. \u00cencerc s\u0103 consemnez c\u00e2t mai mult din tr\u0103iri, fiind con\u015ftient c\u0103 \u00eemi vor deveni str\u0103ine pe viitor.<!--more--><br \/>\nPentru \u00eenceput, am r\u0103mas singur, ceea ce e bine. Sunt un convalescent sub semnul eliber\u0103rii care se apropie, \u015fi m\u0103 ocup cu trasarea unei linii de demarca\u0163ie \u00eentre ceea ce apar\u0163ine definitiv universului carceral \u015fi ceea ce voi lua cu mine dincolo. La ie\u015fire se predau lenjeria de pat, farfuria, lingura de plastic \u015fi alte afecte care mi-au fost \u00eencredin\u0163ate. Tot acolo voi depozita amintirea zidurilor goale, a paturilor de fier \u015fi a gratiilor de la ferestre. Chiar dac\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eendoiesc de toate, spun\u00e2nd c\u0103 am tr\u0103it un vis ur\u00e2t, nu pot anula chipurile colegilor de deten\u0163ie, \u015fi nici povara vinei pe care o port, stigmatul unei societ\u0103\u0163i c\u0103reia i-am nesocotit legile.<br \/>\nCe pot spune despre ultima s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103 de \u00eenchisoare? Au existat precedente c\u00e2nd ultima a devenit prima dintr-un nou mandat. Totu\u015fi, ceva \u00eemi spune c\u0103 de data asta va fi altfel.<br \/>\nEste asemenea ultimelor zece ridic\u0103ri de greut\u0103\u0163i, c\u00e2nd durerea devine sf\u00e2\u015fietoare \u015fi doar voin\u0163a, gardian ne\u00eenduplecat, comand\u0103 mu\u015fchilor obosi\u0163i s\u0103 p\u0103streze ritmul.<br \/>\nSau asemenea ultimilor metri de \u00eenot p\u00e2n\u0103 la mal, c\u00e2nd nu te mai \u0163in puterile \u015fi \u00ee\u0163i d\u0103 t\u00e2rcoale g\u00e2ndul c\u0103 S-AR PUTEA S\u0102 NU MAI REZI\u015eTI.<br \/>\nAtunci inspiri ad\u00e2nc, \u00ee\u0163i gole\u015fti mintea de g\u00e2nduri \u015fi continui netulburat.<br \/>\nNu s-a schimbat nimic.<br \/>\nP\u0103m\u00e2ntul a efectuat c\u00e2teva revolu\u0163ii inutile \u00een jurul Soarelui. Am lipsit la s\u0103rb\u0103toarea naturii, \u00een schimb am reu\u015fit s\u0103-mi omor timpul. L-am disecat \u00een obi\u015fnuin\u0163e \u015fi l-am f\u0103cut s\u0103 musteasc\u0103 de sens prin scris, citit, \u015fah, sport, filmele d\u00e8ja-vu de la TV. Mi-am risipit frenetic propriul capital de zile \u00een beneficiul unui timp liber care va s\u0103 vie. Pe parcurs, am c\u00e2\u015ftigat ataraxia \u015fi \u00eemp\u0103carea cu Dumnezeu.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>[scrisoare cu adresant necunoscut] (jidovul r\u0103t\u0103citor) de Paul Belce Observ c\u0103 am abandonat \u00een ultima lun\u0103 preocup\u0103rile literare de anvergur\u0103. Mai retu\u015fez ici-colo o sintagm\u0103 folosit\u0103 impropriu, dar pofta de a scrie mi-a pierit. Aceste \u00eensemn\u0103ri fragmentare, generate de for\u0163e antagoniste, la grani\u0163a dintre jurnal \u015fi eseu, \u00eemi servesc ca m\u0103rturie, reflec\u0163ie asupra acestor zile [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[55,315,75],"tags":[1120,1132,1122,76],"class_list":["post-1302","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-articole","category-egophobia-23","category-jidovul-ratacitor","tag-articole","tag-egophobia-23","tag-jidovul-ratacitor","tag-paul-belce"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6DakB-l0","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1302","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1302"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1302\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1900,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1302\/revisions\/1900"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1302"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1302"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1302"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}