{"id":13324,"date":"2021-01-17T07:56:34","date_gmt":"2021-01-17T05:56:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=13324"},"modified":"2021-01-18T12:40:38","modified_gmt":"2021-01-18T10:40:38","slug":"poeme-de-grande-rieux","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=13324","title":{"rendered":"poeme de Grande Rieux"},"content":{"rendered":"

(debut)<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

Voices of a Digital Lover<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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**<\/b><\/p>\n

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je veux que tu me veux<\/em>,<\/p>\n

un alt mod de a spune c\u0103 lately<\/em><\/p>\n

nu suport \u021bigara f\u0103r\u0103 o umbr\u0103 de melancolie.<\/p>\n

viciile nu mai au sens c\u00e2nd e\u0219ti gol.<\/em><\/p>\n

(\u0219i \u0219tiu c\u0103 sunt gol)<\/p>\n

mama \u00eemi scrie mai des dec\u00e2t de obicei,<\/p>\n

\u0219i chiar taic\u0103-miu sun\u0103 la ore fixe, zi de zi,<\/p>\n

la 11 am s\u0103 vad\u0103 ce fac.<\/p>\n

nu te-a sunat o via\u021b\u0103, \u0219i o face acum.<\/em><\/p>\n

cu toate astea, cred \u00een continuare c\u0103 sunt bine.<\/p>\n

c\u0103 at\u00e2t timp c\u00e2t pot z\u00e2mbi v\u00e2nz\u0103toarei la Mega Image<\/p>\n

sunt bine.<\/p>\n

ploile te fac uneori s\u0103 z\u00e2mbe\u0219ti.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u0219tiu c\u0103 nu dureaz\u0103 mult. \u0219tiu c\u0103 r\u00e2njesc<\/p>\n

doar pentru a fuma \u00een ploaie,<\/p>\n

cu melancolia clipei ce tocmai<\/p>\n

a trecut.<\/p>\n

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***<\/strong><\/p>\n

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un trup \u2223<\/p>\n

m\u0103 pot lega de tine,<\/p>\n

de mine, de lume<\/p>\n

pentru c\u0103 am un trup \u2223 fragil<\/p>\n

cu un psihic fragil de care<\/p>\n

sper<\/p>\n

s\u0103 nu te mai legi<\/p>\n

niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n

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i think i`m moving on<\/strong><\/p>\n

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ora 9:57 am,<\/p>\n

cafeaua se r\u0103ce\u0219te odat\u0103<\/p>\n

cu mine. doar \u021big\u0103rile \u00eemi dau un fior c\u0103ldu\u021b.<\/p>\n

buricele degetelor \u00eemi amor\u021besc \/<\/p>\n

aproape scap chi\u0219tocul \u00een cad\u0103.<\/p>\n

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un condens ciudat – transpir<\/p>\n

(i think i`m moving on<\/em>)<\/p>\n

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the less i know the better<\/strong><\/p>\n

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am crezut c\u0103 i-ai dat block<\/p>\n

& c\u0103 de asta te compor\u021bi distant cu mine.<\/p>\n

era o distan\u021b\u0103 pl\u0103cut\u0103 gen suferi pu\u021bin<\/em><\/p>\n

dar desp\u0103r\u021birea e definitiv\u0103.<\/em><\/p>\n

v-am scotocit profilele de fb<\/p>\n

s\u0103 g\u0103sesc ultima r\u0103m\u0103\u0219i\u021b\u0103 din rela\u021bia voastr\u0103.<\/p>\n

din nou, m\u0103 ia o melancolie. \u00eemi fumez<\/p>\n

\u021bigara scurt\u0103, pe marginea pervazului de la<\/p>\n

etaju` unu – v\u0103 avea\u021bi la prieteni,<\/p>\n

ascun\u0219i,<\/p>\n

excita\u021bi<\/p>\n

exact ca \u00een imaginile cu voi de la mare pe care nu<\/p>\n

vreau s\u0103 le v\u0103d vreodat\u0103. exact ca pozele<\/p>\n

tale goal\u0103 f\u0103cute de el pe plaj\u0103. exact ca iubirea<\/p>\n

pe care nu am v\u0103zut-o niciodat\u0103, dar la care<\/p>\n

am visat toat\u0103 vara.<\/p>\n

\u00een camer\u0103.<\/p>\n

\u00een pat.<\/p>\n

cu scrumiera pe gur\u0103.<\/p>\n

(pe atunci nu ie\u0219eam dec\u00e2t s\u0103 iau \u021big\u0103ri, s\u0103<\/p>\n

beau cafea & s\u0103 ridic comanda de m\u00e2ncare)<\/p>\n

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…. & da, a\u0219 vrea s\u0103 nu v\u0103 v\u0103d niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n

a\u0219a cum nu v\u0103 pot vedea nici pe fb.<\/p>\n

s\u0103 fi\u021bi str\u0103ini pt mine &<\/p>\n

s\u0103 se \u00eent\u00e2mple cumva nu \u0219tiu cum<\/p>\n

de s\u0103 nu v\u0103 fi cunoscut.<\/p>\n

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doar pt mine.<\/p>\n

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Din joaca de-a<\/em> \u201eamantul\u201d nu scap\u0103 nimeni teaf\u0103r<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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mi-ar fi pl\u0103cut s\u0103 nu-mi spui<\/p>\n

c\u0103 m\u0103 \u201eiube\u0219ti\u201d<\/p>\n

ar fi u\u0219urat lucrurile<\/p>\n

& mesajele schimbate excesiv<\/p>\n

\u00eentr-o singur\u0103 zi.<\/p>\n

a\u0219 fi fost mai pu\u021bin \u201efericit\u201d. mai pu\u021bin \u201eliber\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201ein love<\/em>\u201d (sau alte cuvinte zoologice<\/p>\n

umplute cu firimituri de p\u00e2ine & popcorn)<\/p>\n

mai pu\u021bin din toat\u0103 limba asta corupt\u0103 a<\/p>\n

aman\u021bilor.<\/p>\n

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am l\u0103sat \u201eadev\u0103rul\u201d \u00een urm\u0103 c\u00e2nd ne-am \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at.<\/p>\n

prima oar\u0103 a fost autentic. a doua oar\u0103 nu a mai r\u0103mas nimic.<\/p>\n

m\u0103 priveai atunci & nu m\u0103 luminam. m\u0103 atingeai &<\/p>\n

\u0219i nu sim\u021beam. am obosit am\u00e2ndoi & era prea t\u00e2rziu.<\/p>\n

zorii dimine\u021bii nu admiteau suicidul.<\/p>\n

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dup\u0103 am \u00eenceput s\u0103 ne spunem cuvinte goale.<\/p>\n

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am continuat a\u0219a vreo 8 luni<\/p>\n

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& nimeni nu poate sc\u0103pa viu din asta.<\/p>\n

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