{"id":13364,"date":"2021-02-18T07:52:47","date_gmt":"2021-02-18T05:52:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=13364"},"modified":"2021-02-15T22:56:38","modified_gmt":"2021-02-15T20:56:38","slug":"poeme-de-rebeca-oanta","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=13364","title":{"rendered":"poeme de Rebeca Oan\u021b\u0103"},"content":{"rendered":"

at\u00e2t voiam s\u0103-\u021bi spun take care<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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poate c\u0103 \u00eentr-adev\u0103r ne credem centrul lumii<\/p>\n

nu mai \u00een\u021beleg<\/p>\n

cum a \u00eendr\u0103znit cineva s\u0103-mi d\u0103ruiasc\u0103 at\u00e2ta con\u0219tiin\u021b\u0103<\/p>\n

v\u0103 mul\u021bumesc dar nu mul\u021bumesc<\/p>\n

m\u0103 seac\u0103<\/p>\n

s\u0103 m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc c\u0103 sunt at\u00e2t de departe de cas\u0103<\/p>\n

departe de nucleul c\u0103ldu\u021b membrana catifelat\u0103 care<\/p>\n

obi\u0219nuia s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219eze<\/p>\n

am pl\u00e2ns zile \u0219i zile<\/p>\n

am ascultat the sisters of mercy<\/p>\n

ca o adolescent\u0103 plin\u0103 de sentimentalism<\/p>\n

uneori c\u00e2nd m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc la ma\u0219ini sau la serpentine<\/p>\n

\u00eemi vine r\u0103u<\/p>\n

nu m\u0103 mai intereseaz\u0103 minun\u0103\u021biile de pe transf\u0103g\u0103r\u0103\u0219an<\/p>\n

nu m\u0103 mai intereseaz\u0103 vehiculele scumpe<\/p>\n

care iau vie\u021bile fetelor<\/p>\n

ce n-au apucat s\u0103 mearg\u0103 la facultate<\/p>\n

sau s\u0103 danseze la bal<\/p>\n

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d. s\u0103 \u0219tii c\u0103 lumea e super nasoal\u0103 acum<\/p>\n

\u00eentr-un fel \u00eemi pare bine c\u0103 nu o vezi<\/p>\n

dar tot mi-ar pl\u0103cea s\u0103 o vezi<\/p>\n

s\u0103 dansezi f\u0103r\u0103 inhibi\u021bii<\/p>\n

s\u0103 planifici un chef ascuns<\/p>\n

s\u0103 fumezi pe ner\u0103suflate<\/p>\n

\u0219i s\u0103 \u021bipi ca o fat\u0103 din filme americane atunci c\u00e2nd ne \u00eent\u00e2lnim<\/p>\n

totul avea sens<\/p>\n

c\u00e2nd eram mici vr\u0103jitoare<\/p>\n

care-\u0219i g\u0103seau instrumentele \u00een spatele cur\u021bii<\/p>\n

c\u00e2nd ne ascundeam l\u00e2ng\u0103 transformatorul d\u0103r\u0103p\u0103nat<\/p>\n

casa de nuiele \u0219i electricitate scoas\u0103 parc\u0103<\/p>\n

din cernob\u00eel<\/p>\n

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d. s\u0103 \u0219tii c\u0103 uneori \u00eemi doresc s\u0103 iubesc<\/p>\n

la fel cum \u00eei iubeai tu pe to\u021bi pr\u0103p\u0103di\u021bii t\u0103i<\/p>\n

\u0219i \u00eei postai pe net<\/p>\n

uneori a\u0219 vrea s\u0103-\u021bi \u00een\u021beleg sinceritatea<\/p>\n

acea stare a ta carpe-diem-neironic\u0103<\/p>\n

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ora\u0219ul nu mai are farmec<\/p>\n

nucleul care m-a n\u0103scut m-a scuipat afar\u0103<\/p>\n

ca o lupoaic\u0103 \u00eens\u00e2ngerat\u0103<\/p>\n

m\u0103 dor oasele \u00eencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103 fac primii mei pa\u0219i<\/p>\n

vei r\u0103m\u00e2ne cu mine c\u00e2nd privesc cu speran\u021b\u0103 \u00eenapoi<\/p>\n

\u00een acea atemporalitate acolo e\u0219ti<\/p>\n

suspendat\u0103 \u00een pa\u0219i de dans<\/p>\n

d. mereu mi-a pl\u0103cut s\u0103 te v\u0103d dans\u00e2nd mai ales c\u00e2nd<\/p>\n

o f\u0103ceai cu toate celulele din corpul t\u0103u c\u00e2nd te<\/p>\n

combinai cu muzica \u0219i \u00eei l\u0103sai pe al\u021bii s\u0103-\u021bi vad\u0103 unduirile<\/p>\n

s\u0103 \u0219tii c\u0103 atunci erai nepre\u021buit\u0103 to\u021bi te iubeam \u0219i<\/p>\n

ochii no\u0219tri salivau pentru tine<\/p>\n

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destination unknown<\/strong><\/p>\n

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lumina unui cer fad<\/p>\n

pe care stau tatuate inscrip\u021bii neon<\/p>\n

e frumos dar<\/p>\n

uneori v\u0103d ora\u0219ul printr-o pung\u0103 de plastic<\/p>\n

\u00een\u0103l\u021bimile cenzurate ale inimii transilvane<\/p>\n

ce prostie este s\u0103 calc pe aceste str\u0103zi<\/p>\n

care nu au fost concepute pentru mine<\/p>\n

sunt doar un copil sensibil<\/p>\n

\u00een interior<\/p>\n

am abia cin\u0219pe \u0219i iubesc lumea<\/p>\n

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a\u0219 vrea s\u0103-i trimit o carte po\u0219tal\u0103 lui dumnezeu s\u0103 vad\u0103<\/p>\n

locurile astea care nu-mi apar\u021bin care m\u0103 alieneaz\u0103 ca<\/p>\n

o pictur\u0103 \u00een care ochii animalului te urm\u0103resc<\/p>\n

\u00eengerii biblici au milioane de fe\u021be \u0219i ochi<\/p>\n

ro\u021bi umbl\u0103toare mii de capete<\/p>\n

nu exist\u0103 reprezenta\u021biile de om \u00eenaripat semi-z\u00e2n\u0103 magic\u0103<\/p>\n

asta am f\u0103cut noi cu toate<\/p>\n

am estetizat p\u00e2n\u0103 n-a mai r\u0103mas nimic real<\/p>\n

am sterilizat reconceput<\/p>\n

lumea noastr\u0103 e prefabricat\u0103 de un ochi al estetului americanizat<\/p>\n

\u00eencercare de sitcom \u0219i black mirror<\/p>\n

nici eu nu mai \u00een\u021beleg ce spun<\/p>\n

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ideea e c\u0103 am \u00eencercat s\u0103-i trimit o nenorocire de carte po\u0219tal\u0103<\/p>\n

lui dumnezeu<\/p>\n

ca s\u0103 vad\u0103 cum e afar\u0103 c\u00e2t de<\/p>\n

umed incandescent mov e cerul<\/p>\n

dar \u00eenc\u0103 nu mi-a r\u0103spuns<\/p>\n

cumva simt c\u0103 nu m\u0103 crede<\/p>\n

nimeni nu m\u0103 mai crede<\/p>\n

crede c\u0103 am decorat iar ca un om<\/p>\n

c\u0103 am f\u0103cut o ferfeni\u021b\u0103 frumoas\u0103<\/p>\n

c\u0103 am luat ceva din stare pur\u0103 \u0219i ca<\/p>\n

un chimist am ob\u021binut un diamant<\/p>\n

care tot ce \u0219tie este s\u0103 str\u0103luceasc\u0103<\/p>\n

\u0219i s\u0103 m\u0103 lase rece \u0219i trist\u0103<\/p>\n

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te po\u021bi compune dintr-o multitudine de sufle\u021bele<\/p>\n

la fel ca ingredientele din supa la plic<\/p>\n

milioane de chimicale care abia a\u0219teapt\u0103 s\u0103 locuiasc\u0103 \u00een stomacul t\u0103u<\/p>\n

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o triste\u021be \u021bi-a r\u0103mas impregnat\u0103 \u00een piele<\/p>\n

ai \u00eencercat s\u0103 o tunzi<\/p>\n

s\u0103 o acoperi cu decolorant \u0219i c\u00e2teva poeme<\/p>\n

dar nici p\u00e2n\u0103 ast\u0103zi nu a func\u021bionat<\/p>\n

un psihanalist te-ar defini ca o fat\u0103 b\u0103tr\u00e2n\u0103<\/p>\n

cu mai multe fa\u021bete de personalitate<\/p>\n

intacta figurin\u0103 a purit\u0103\u021bii nedorite<\/p>\n

p\u0103pu\u0219a cu bucle \u021bepene controlat\u0103 de magnitudinea unei traume<\/p>\n

\u00een mine se tot r\u0103stoarn\u0103<\/p>\n

un trenule\u021b de juc\u0103rie cu milioane de figurine<\/p>\n

poate c\u0103 am fost \u0219i eu odat\u0103<\/p>\n

o pies\u0103 lego \u00eenfipt\u0103 \u00eentr-o talp\u0103<\/p>\n

pentru cineva<\/p>\n

pentru p\u0103rin\u021bii mei \u0219i lacrimile lor<\/p>\n

pentru pumnii tat\u0103lui meu \u00een peretele nostru perfect zugr\u0103vit<\/p>\n

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a\u0219 vrea s\u0103 fiu la patru sute de kilometrii<\/p>\n

dep\u0103rtare de cerul molatec<\/p>\n

aproape de<\/p>\n

c\u00e2mpiile aflate \u00een proces de de\u0219ertificare<\/p>\n

atmosfera sudist\u0103<\/p>\n

filosofia de via\u021b\u0103 a celor ar\u0219i de soare<\/p>\n

un bandaj pentru durerile mele de cap<\/p>\n

sunt oglinjoara fiec\u0103rui om pe care l-am \u00eent\u00e2lnit<\/p>\n

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ur\u0103sc s\u0103 fiu mironosi\u021ba strict\u0103<\/p>\n

care nu dep\u0103\u0219e\u0219te ora patru diminea\u021ba<\/p>\n

nu-mi place s\u0103 fiu mai pu\u021bin uman\u0103<\/p>\n

nu-mi place s\u0103 r\u0103sar ca un mugure \u00eent\u00e2rziat<\/p>\n

printre femei poete mature din toate punctele de vedere<\/p>\n

nu \u00een\u021beleg constr\u00e2ngerile formale<\/p>\n

nu \u00een\u021beleg st\u0103rile de spirit care nu reflect\u0103 interiorul<\/p>\n

vreau s\u0103-l cunosc \u0219i pe fabricat \u0219i pe fabricant poate po\u021bi<\/p>\n

s\u0103-mi dai o adres\u0103<\/p>\n

cineva care s\u0103 m\u0103 cure\u021be<\/p>\n

ca pe un baraj inundat de sticle de neumarkt<\/p>\n

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at\u00e2t voiam s\u0103-\u021bi spun take care   poate c\u0103 \u00eentr-adev\u0103r ne credem centrul lumii nu mai \u00een\u021beleg cum a \u00eendr\u0103znit cineva s\u0103-mi d\u0103ruiasc\u0103 at\u00e2ta con\u0219tiin\u021b\u0103 v\u0103 mul\u021bumesc dar nu mul\u021bumesc<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1452,13],"tags":[1453,1114,1473],"class_list":["post-13364","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-egophobia-66","category-poezie","tag-egophobia-66","tag-poezie","tag-rebeca-oanta"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6DakB-3ty","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13364","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=13364"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13364\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":13365,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13364\/revisions\/13365"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=13364"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=13364"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=13364"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}