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(antifilosofie)<\/span><\/p>\n

de Mihai Pavel<\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>\u00a0\u00a0 Cei doi so\u021bi au p\u0103r\u0103sit restaurantul la pu\u021bin timp dup\u0103 miezul nop\u021bii. Niciunul dintre ei nu agrea lipsa inten\u021bionat\u0103 a somnului sau \u00eent\u00e2lnirile lungite absurd la nesf\u00e2r\u0219it. Oboseala, alcoolul \u0219i furia le \u00eengreunau pleoapele am\u00e2ndurora. Corpurile lor \u00eencovoiate p\u0103reau dou\u0103 umbre obscure r\u0103t\u0103cind prin bezn\u0103, gata s\u0103 cad\u0103 \u00een uitarea somnului. Din cauza ame\u021belii, nu se puteau orienta s\u0103 \u00ee\u0219i g\u0103seasc\u0103 drumul c\u0103tre apartament. Bulevardul era sc\u0103ldat \u00een luminile fierbin\u021bi \u0219i electrizante ale reclamelor stradale, fiecare \u00eencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103 m\u00e2ng\u00e2ie pupila trec\u0103torului \u00een felul ei ame\u021bitor. Printre aburii vinului b\u0103ut peste m\u0103sur\u0103 Bucure\u0219tiul sem\u0103na cu un labirint omogen, al c\u0103rui iz de morm\u00e2nt \u00ee\u021bi p\u0103trundea printre toate fluidele corpului \u0219i \u00een care te puteai pierde nu \u00ee\u021bi \u00eendreptai aten\u021bia c\u0103tre fiecare cotitur\u0103. Cerul sidefiu urla \u00eengropat sub straturi \u00eentregi de beton armat. Au r\u0103t\u0103cit o vreme printre blocuri \u0219i alei pustiite. Odat\u0103 ce ame\u021beala a \u00eenceput s\u0103 se evapore sub mirosul insuportabil al noxelor, iar fiorii unei lucidit\u0103\u021bi cusute cu a\u021b\u0103 alb\u0103, se instalau treptat au reu\u0219it s\u0103 g\u0103seasc\u0103 imobilul \u00een care \u00ee\u0219i \u00eenchiriaser\u0103 cu pu\u021bin timp \u00een urm\u0103 un apartament spa\u021bios, cu ferestre \u00eenalte \u0219i mobil\u0103 aproape nou\u0103. Acesta se afla pe o strad\u0103 neluminat\u0103, ferit\u0103 de privirile trec\u0103torilor curio\u0219i. P\u0103\u0219ind pe trotuarul acestei artere se putea observa un \u00eentreg r\u00e2nd de pubele de culoarea g\u0103lbenu\u0219ului aliniate ca pentru un mar\u0219 militar. Peste crestele \u0219ifonate ale sacilor menajeri ce se ridicau din gurile \u00eentredeschise ale containerelor mi\u0219unau neobosi\u021bi g\u00e2ndaci ar\u0103mii sc\u0103lda\u021bi \u00een razele lunii. L\u00e2ng\u0103 una dintre aceste pubele z\u0103cea corpul unui c\u00e2ine, \u00eenf\u0103\u0219urat \u00een propriile ma\u021be, cu ochii bulbuca\u021bi p\u0103r\u0103sind orbitele \u0219i coloana vertebral\u0103 r\u0103sucit\u0103. Fusese strivit sub ro\u021bile vreunui camion de mare tonaj. Peste pieptul dul\u0103ului \u00ee\u0219i \u00eencovoiaser\u0103 g\u00e2turile doi \u0219obolani, ce savurau cu poft\u0103 din resturile animalului. Matei \u0219i Ilinca au gr\u0103bit pasul atunci c\u00e2nd mirosul hoitului le-a p\u0103truns \u00een n\u0103ri. Priveau doar \u00een fa\u021b\u0103. Sentimentul pulsator al nevrozei ce se \u00eenchegase \u00een creierul lui Matei st\u0103tea s\u0103 erup\u0103 precum un abces. \u00cent\u00e2lnirea sa cu cei doi afaceri\u0219ti str\u0103ini decursese oribil. Momentele \u00een care Matei \u00ee\u0219i pierdea controlul din cauza nervilor se repetau cu o regularitate mecanic\u0103. El era unul dintre acei indivizi ale c\u0103ror crize \u00eencep pa\u0219nic, oarecum reflexiv, iar c\u00e2nd frustr\u0103rile interioare atingeau paroxismul, ar fi fost \u00een stare s\u0103 \u00ee\u0219i smulg\u0103 hainele \u00een care trupul s\u0103u zvelt \u0219i p\u0103ros era \u00eenf\u0103\u0219urat, r\u0103m\u00e2n\u00e2nd dezbr\u0103cat sub privirile oripilate ale celorlal\u021bi oameni. Maxilarul \u00eencle\u0219tat zv\u00e2cnea precum o ran\u0103 deschis\u0103. Ar fi dorit ca \u00een acele clipe por\u021bile ruginite ale iadului s\u0103 se deschid\u0103 larg, s\u0103 fie absorbit de fl\u0103c\u0103ri \u0219i mizerie, unde \u0219i-ar fi g\u0103sit o patrie numai a sa, urm\u00e2nd s\u0103 tr\u0103iasc\u0103 printre viermi \u0219i alte t\u00e2r\u00e2toare.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0 Ajun\u0219i \u00een apartament, Ilinca se arunc\u0103 obosit\u0103 \u00eentre pernele canapelei. Notele melancolice ale mi\u0219c\u0103rilor ei se topeau pe sticla geamului, iar moartea lor parc\u0103 d\u0103dea tonul suspinului. Nuan\u021bele lucioase ale pielii se aprindeau acum sub lumina becului din sufragerie. Cu gesturi re\u021binute \u00ee\u0219i deschise ca prin vis fermoarul rochiei, dezgolindu-\u0219i umerii albi \u0219i curbura coloanei vertebrale. Pa\u0219ii lui Matei se auzeau din buc\u0103t\u0103rie, printre sunetul metalic produs de tac\u00e2murile ce se ciocnesc \u00een sertar, r\u0103scolite de acesta. \u00ce\u0219i lu\u0103 un pahar cu ap\u0103, dup\u0103 care se \u00eendrept\u0103 c\u0103tre sufrageria unde Ilinca z\u0103cea \u00eentre realitate \u0219i vis. O admir\u0103 c\u00e2teva secunde, apoi \u00eei v\u0103rs\u0103 paharul cu ap\u0103 peste fa\u021b\u0103 \u0219i clavicul\u0103 apoi \u00eei strig\u0103 \u00een fa\u021b\u0103:<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u2013 E\u0219ti o \u021b\u0103ranc\u0103 lipsit\u0103 de educa\u021bie sau cultur\u0103, o vit\u0103 cinic\u0103 \u0219i gre\u021boas\u0103 \u00eembr\u0103cat\u0103 precum o mare doamn\u0103. Oamenii ca tine \u00ee\u0219i g\u0103sesc cu u\u0219urin\u021b\u0103 sf\u00e2r\u0219itul \u00een acest ora\u0219. Uite-te \u00een ochii mei c\u00e2nd vorbesc cu tine \u0219i nu \u00ee\u021bi mai feri privirea. Voi sunte\u021bi strivi\u021bi precum d\u0103un\u0103toarele, apoi resturile voastre sunt cur\u0103\u021bate de pe talp\u0103. \u00cemi e sc\u00e2rb\u0103 s\u0103 te privesc. Te \u00eembraci ur\u00e2t \u0219i te machiezi strident, iar mirosul t\u0103u de scroaf\u0103 se simte de la o po\u0219t\u0103! Nu meri\u021bi s\u0103 tr\u0103ie\u0219ti!<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u2013 Ai \u00eennebunit de tot!, spuse ea dezorientat\u0103, \u00een timp ce se \u0219tergea fa\u021ba cu o pern\u0103. Str\u0103inii \u0103ia \u0219i-au pierdut interesul pentru mizeriile tale c\u00e2nd au v\u0103zut c\u0103 nu au cu cine s\u0103 vorbeasc\u0103. Au sim\u021bit c\u0103 e\u0219ti o scursur\u0103 \u0219i c\u0103 scopul t\u0103u era s\u0103 \u00eei storci de bani. Joci cartea asta de fiecare dat\u0103, apoi banii \u00ee\u021bi scap\u0103 printre degete \u0219i \u00eei faci uita\u021bi. Nu ai nici pic de minte! Dac\u0103 afacerea a picat din cauza cuiva, este din cauza ta \u0219i a geloziei tale. Eu am fost doar politicoas\u0103, i-am tratat cum am \u0219tiut eu mai bine, am r\u00e2s la glumele lor proaste, le-am \u00eenghi\u021bit ironiile nes\u0103rate \u0219i i-am f\u0103cut s\u0103 capete \u00eencredere. Seara s-ar fi terminat minunat dac\u0103 nu f\u0103ceai o criz\u0103…<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u2013 Atunci po\u021bi s\u0103 pleci! Mergi s\u0103 te culci cu unul dintre ei. Dac\u0103 ai putea i-ai lua pe am\u00e2ndoi \u00een acela\u0219i timp! E\u0219ti otrav\u0103! C\u00e2rp\u0103 \u00eemb\u00e2csit\u0103!<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0 \u00ce\u0219i termin\u0103 ultima propozi\u021bie, iar furia \u00eei f\u0103cea ca m\u00e2inile \u0219i genunchii s\u0103 tremure incontrolabil, ca \u0219i cum o entitate luciferic\u0103 \u00ee\u0219i instala toate resorturile necesare pentru a-l s\u0103lb\u0103tici. Orgoliul s\u0103u r\u0103nit se preschimb\u0103 treptat \u00een cel mai negru sadism. Matei se arunc\u0103 la g\u00e2tul Ilinc\u0103i precum un uliu \u00eenfometat ce \u00ee\u0219i \u00een\u0219fac\u0103 prada. Greutatea corpului s\u0103u o dobor\u00ee instantaneu. S\u00e2nul \u0219i sternul \u00eei erau strivite sub ap\u0103sarea genunchiului. M\u00e2inile \u00eei deveniser\u0103 cle\u0219tii rugini\u021bi ai unui mecanic, ce \u00eencearc\u0103 din r\u0103sputeri s\u0103 \u00eendoaie o pies\u0103 metalic\u0103. Lini\u0219tea camerei era inundat\u0103 de groh\u0103iturile \u00eennebunite ale Ilinc\u0103i, care \u00eencerca f\u0103r\u0103 succes s\u0103 scape din str\u00e2nsoarea so\u021bului ei. V\u0103z\u00e2nd c\u0103 Ilinca d\u0103 semne de oboseal\u0103 \u00ee\u0219i duse gura l\u00e2ng\u0103 urechea ei \u0219i \u00eencepu s\u0103 strige:<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u00ce\u021bi place a\u0219a? Implor\u0103-m\u0103 s\u0103 te las \u00een pace. Eu sunt st\u0103p\u00e2nul \u0219i tu sclava mea. Pot s\u0103 fac ce vreau cu tine. Spune ceva odat\u0103, javr\u0103!<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Extazul b\u0103rbatului se termin\u0103 c\u00e2nd privi chipul schimonosit al Ilinc\u0103i. O ridic\u0103 \u00een picioare pe jum\u0103tate moart\u0103, o tr\u00e2nti de podea, iar corpul ei inert se rostogoli l\u00e2ng\u0103 bibliotec\u0103. Se sim\u021bea m\u00e2ndru, eliberat, odihnit. Apropiindu-se de ea \u00ee\u0219i arcui piciorul \u0219i o lovi \u00een fa\u021b\u0103 cu talpa pantofului. Un \u0219uierat fantomatic se \u00eentinse p\u00e2n\u0103 la urechea lui Matei. \u00cennebunit, acesta nu auzi nimic. Urm\u0103 o alt\u0103 lovitur\u0103, de data aceasta \u00een stomac. Ilinca nu schi\u021b\u0103 nici un gest. St\u0103tea \u00eentins\u0103 acolo, cu pupilele dilatate, privind str\u0103lucirea becului. \u00ce\u0219i \u00eentoarse spatele \u0219i se \u00eendrept\u0103 c\u0103tre pervazul geamului, unde \u00ee\u0219i aprinse o \u021bigar\u0103 g\u00e2f\u00e2ind. Criza i se risipise \u00een aerul \u00eenc\u0103perii, precum fumul de \u021bigar\u0103 \u00een r\u0103coarea nop\u021bii.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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