{"id":14701,"date":"2023-03-07T14:07:47","date_gmt":"2023-03-07T12:07:47","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=14701"},"modified":"2023-03-15T14:09:24","modified_gmt":"2023-03-15T12:09:24","slug":"poems-by-robert-beveridge-6","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=14701","title":{"rendered":"poems by Robert Beveridge"},"content":{"rendered":"

Blockage<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

this feels like a lot more<\/p>\n

than ninety-eight point<\/p>\n

six but there’s always<\/p>\n

something to be said<\/p>\n

for moderation or is<\/p>\n

there never something<\/p>\n

to be said for moderation<\/p>\n

i can’t remember but<\/p>\n

here i am and i can’t<\/p>\n

find a cool side to any<\/p>\n

of these pillows feels<\/p>\n

like this whole bed<\/p>\n

is made of buffalo<\/p>\n

chicken and pickle juice<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

The Lie Is Always in the Tone<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

sleep<\/p>\n

does<\/p>\n

not come<\/p>\n

anymore<\/p>\n

the pills stopped being<\/p>\n

effective years ago. lie there.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Pornography<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u201cHe’d have you believe otherwise; the pornographer’s orgasm is ordinary, ordinary.\u201d–Robert Nagler<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Ia<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Depth of illusion draws us<\/p>\n

into its fold, the thought that one<\/p>\n

breast can be universal, perfect,<\/p>\n

and it will be revealed to us<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Ib<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

and do all the men in the booths<\/p>\n

auspicious viewers<\/p>\n

of that perfect breast<\/p>\n

just wish to escape their jobs?<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Ic<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

the Word does not only suggest<\/p>\n

petty sexuality. The Word suggests<\/p>\n

all one finds offensive. Holy books<\/p>\n

reflect, in some respects, the Word.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Id<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

One poor misguided fool, maybe,<\/p>\n

will find satiety in the release<\/p>\n

he chooses through the Word,<\/p>\n

and will find his own true happiness.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

IIa<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

The door shuts, the bomb drops<\/p>\n

a second self becomes a second self.<\/p>\n

She oils herself and you find glory.<\/p>\n

Look deep into her eyes as she comes<\/p>\n

to you, to you.<\/p>\n

Robert Beveridge<\/p>\n

Pornography, 2, break<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

IIb<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Fingers grind against flesh, oil slicks<\/p>\n

a smooth stomach, her eyes close<\/p>\n

you are immersed in her oil, in her closed<\/p>\n

eyes. She throws her arms out<\/p>\n

to you, to you.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

IIc<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

the Word, again and again<\/p>\n

but you block it out.<\/p>\n

You find endless depth in the oil<\/p>\n

of her stomach that glistens<\/p>\n

for you, for you.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

IId<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

The bittersweet tinge comes, you know<\/p>\n

you will never see her again, not<\/p>\n

this beautiful, not oiled<\/p>\n

but you have found solace<\/p>\n

for you, for you.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Siren<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

You no longer hear the noises<\/p>\n

outside your window, the police<\/p>\n

cars, motorcycles, streetcorner<\/p>\n

preachers. The tones<\/p>\n

of their various sounds<\/p>\n

evade your song. Your every word<\/p>\n

soprano honey, the drip<\/p>\n

that dangles from the jar’s rim,<\/p>\n

teases in a \u201cyes\u201d<\/p>\n

or pours, heated,<\/p>\n

in a mouthed \u201cI love you\u201d<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

20th<\/sup> Century Zeus, Looking Down<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I watch a pretty girl<\/p>\n

in a shapeless grey dress<\/p>\n

wander through<\/p>\n

a shapeless grey desert<\/p>\n

out of time<\/p>\n

monotonous rhythms<\/p>\n

of heatwaves<\/p>\n

fog her brain<\/p>\n

into a thrum<\/p>\n

a single beat<\/p>\n

again and again<\/p>\n

the whine<\/p>\n

of a stockcar motor<\/p>\n

at 150mph<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

a whumph<\/p>\n

as the car crashes<\/p>\n

into an infinite wall<\/p>\n

the girl vanishes<\/p>\n

into the sand<\/p>\n

shapeless grey enveloped<\/p>\n

into the landscape<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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