{"id":15833,"date":"2025-07-13T16:39:49","date_gmt":"2025-07-13T14:39:49","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=15833"},"modified":"2025-07-13T16:40:49","modified_gmt":"2025-07-13T14:40:49","slug":"poeme-de-alina-monica-turlea","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=15833","title":{"rendered":"poeme de Alina Monica Turlea"},"content":{"rendered":"

(Lecturi potrivite\/recomandate de Alexandra)<\/span><\/p>\n

manual de adaptare<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

nu mai \u021bip\u0103 nimeni.<\/p>\n

e semn c\u0103 programul func\u021bioneaz\u0103.<\/p>\n

t\u0103cerea a fost votat\u0103 majoritar.<\/p>\n

s-a decis: prea multe opinii<\/p>\n

vor afecta digestia colectiv\u0103.<\/p>\n

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femeile \u00ee\u0219i \u00eenchid zilnic gura<\/p>\n

cu fermoarul invizibil al decen\u021bei,<\/p>\n

z\u00e2mbesc pe sub glug\u0103, pe sub piele,<\/p>\n

\u00ee\u0219i injecteaz\u0103 \u00een limb\u0103<\/p>\n

o doz\u0103 mic\u0103 de: acum nu e momentul.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

copiii \u00eenva\u021b\u0103 de la trei ani<\/p>\n

c\u0103 \u00eentreb\u0103rile obosesc adul\u021bii.<\/p>\n

c\u0103 nu \u0219tiu e r\u0103spunsul ideal<\/p>\n

la orice \u00eentrebare grea.<\/p>\n

c\u0103 dragostea se ofer\u0103<\/p>\n

\u00een func\u021bie de program.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

psihologii sunt pl\u0103ti\u021bi s\u0103 calmeze.<\/p>\n

pre\u021bul unei \u0219edin\u021be dep\u0103\u0219e\u0219te salariul mediu.<\/p>\n

pacien\u021bii \u00ee\u0219i a\u0219teapt\u0103 r\u00e2ndul<\/p>\n

\u021bin\u00e2nd \u00een bra\u021be pliante despre mindfulness<\/em><\/p>\n

ca ni\u0219te copii cu certificate de vaccinare.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

cei care simt prea mult<\/p>\n

sunt diagnostica\u021bi cu sensibilitate acut\u0103.<\/p>\n

li se prescriu sedative<\/p>\n

\u0219i o carier\u0103 lini\u0219tit\u0103 \u00een marketing.<\/p>\n

\u00eenva\u021b\u0103 s\u0103 respire \u00een patru timpi<\/p>\n

\u0219i s\u0103 accepte c\u0103 trauma<\/p>\n

e doar un moft poetic.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

to\u021bi \u0219tiu c\u0103 ceva e putred,<\/p>\n

dar au uitat cum se nume\u0219te mirosul.<\/p>\n

\u00eel numesc rutin\u0103<\/p>\n

\u0219i se \u00eembrac\u0103 \u00een el<\/p>\n

ca \u00eentr-un halat curat de spital<\/p>\n

\u00een care nu se moare \u2014<\/p>\n

doar se supravie\u021buie\u0219te cu gra\u021bie.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u00een fiecare ora\u0219 exist\u0103 o camer\u0103 alb\u0103, steril\u0103,<\/p>\n

unde po\u021bi intra s\u0103 taci legal.<\/p>\n

t\u0103cerea se m\u0103soar\u0103 \u00een secunde<\/p>\n

\u0219i se salveaz\u0103 \u00een cloud<\/em>.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u00eentr-o via\u021b\u0103 \u00eentreag\u0103,<\/p>\n

n-ai strigat niciodat\u0103: ajutor.<\/p>\n

ai spus doar: e ok,<\/p>\n

p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd \u021bi s-a blocat maxilarul.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

la sf\u00e2r\u0219it,<\/p>\n

c\u00e2nd \u021bi se cere o ultim\u0103 reac\u021bie,<\/p>\n

z\u00e2mbe\u0219ti, semnezi<\/p>\n

\u0219i pleci lini\u0219tit \u00een direc\u021bia indicat\u0103 de al\u021bii:<\/p>\n

felicit\u0103ri. te-ai adaptat perfect.<\/p>\n

ce-ar mai putea fi de salvat?<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

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nu mai \u0219tiu cine spunea povestea asta<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00eentr-o vreme, tr\u0103iam<\/p>\n

ca \u0219i cum totul s-ar termina vineri seara.<\/p>\n

cump\u0103ram vin prost \u0219i t\u0103ceri scumpe,<\/p>\n

\u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219am oameni ca pe ni\u0219te balize<\/p>\n

care clipeau rar,<\/p>\n

numai c\u00e2nd se rupea curentul \u00een mine.<\/p>\n

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eram membr\u0103 \u00eentr-o st\u00e2ng\u0103 bl\u00e2nd\u0103<\/p>\n

cu pie\u021bele de vechituri,<\/p>\n

aveam playlist-uri pentru triste\u021be<\/p>\n

\u0219i aplica\u021bii de respira\u021bie lent\u0103<\/p>\n

care-mi aminteau c\u0103 exist \u2014<\/p>\n

la ore fixe,<\/p>\n

ca ni\u0219te pastile pentru o boal\u0103<\/p>\n

pe care o negam.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

acum lumea merge f\u0103r\u0103 mine.<\/p>\n

\u00eemi aud numele doar \u00een vocile altora,<\/p>\n

\u00een fraze cu imperfect \u0219i condi\u021bional:<\/p>\n

\u00eei pl\u0103cea s\u0103 scrie.<\/p>\n

spunea c\u0103 \u00eentr-o zi va fugi.<\/p>\n

ar fi vrut s\u0103 dispar\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 dram\u0103.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc dac\u0103 nu cumva<\/p>\n

ceea ce numim fric\u0103<\/p>\n

e doar un geamantan cu lucruri netr\u0103ite<\/p>\n

care ne urmeaz\u0103 peste tot \u2014<\/p>\n

o dublur\u0103 mut\u0103 a alegerilor noastre.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u00eentr-o zi, le voi spune:<\/p>\n

nu sunt nebun\u0103.<\/p>\n

doar c\u0103 am ajuns prea devreme<\/p>\n

\u00eentr-un loc unde nimeni nu era preg\u0103tit<\/p>\n

s\u0103 m\u0103 primeasc\u0103.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

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mo\u0219tenirea t\u0103cut\u0103<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

de la mama am mo\u0219tenit<\/p>\n

felul \u00een care \u00eenv\u00e2rt lingura f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 gust.<\/p>\n

de la tata, frica de sunete prea mari<\/p>\n

\u0219i t\u0103cerea dus\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 la cap\u0103t.<\/p>\n

bunica mergea descul\u021b\u0103 prin cas\u0103<\/p>\n

ca s\u0103 nu supere duhurile.<\/p>\n

de la ea am mo\u0219tenit mersul u\u0219or<\/p>\n

\u0219i o voce care se aude doar \u00een g\u00e2nd.<\/p>\n

n-am primit nimic scris,<\/p>\n

doar felul \u00een care \u00eemi \u021bin m\u00e2inile<\/p>\n

c\u00e2nd simt c\u0103 m\u0103 sf\u0103r\u00e2m pe din\u0103untru<\/p>\n

\u0219i nu vreau s\u0103 se vad\u0103.<\/p>\n

de la toate femeile din s\u00e2ngele meu<\/p>\n

am \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat s\u0103 nu cer, s\u0103 nu deranjez,<\/p>\n

s\u0103-mi str\u00e2ng dorin\u021bele \u00een batist\u0103,<\/p>\n

s\u0103 le sp\u0103l duminica,<\/p>\n

s\u0103 le pun la uscat<\/p>\n

printre cear\u0219afuri.<\/p>\n

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nu \u0219tiu s\u0103 fiu altfel.<\/p>\n

mo\u0219tenirea mea e un \u0219ir de gesturi \u2014<\/p>\n

sap\u0103 \u00eencet,<\/p>\n

las\u0103 fisuri ad\u00e2nci<\/p>\n

exact acolo unde credeam c\u0103 sunt \u00eentreag\u0103.<\/p>\n

uneori, c\u00e2nd \u00eemi privesc m\u00e2inile,<\/p>\n

nu mai \u0219tiu ale cui sunt.<\/p>\n

\u0219tiu doar c\u0103 \u021bin \u00een ele toate lucrurile<\/p>\n

care n-au fost spuse niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

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 <\/p>\n

manual de func\u021bionare \u00een caz de supravie\u021buire<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

m\u0103 trezesc f\u0103r\u0103 nume \u0219i f\u0103r\u0103 chef.<\/p>\n

e prea devreme pentru mil\u0103<\/p>\n

\u0219i prea t\u00e2rziu pentru repara\u021bii.<\/p>\n

corpul merge singur,<\/p>\n

ca un animal antrenat s\u0103 nu mu\u0219te.<\/p>\n

dac\u0103 doare, nu recunosc.<\/p>\n

dac\u0103 simt, resetez.<\/p>\n

ap\u0103 rece pe fa\u021b\u0103, apoi cafeaua \u2014<\/p>\n

neagr\u0103 \u0219i t\u0103cut\u0103.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

diminea\u021ba \u00eencepe cu liste.<\/p>\n

lucruri de f\u0103cut.<\/p>\n

lucruri de uitat.<\/p>\n

lucruri care dor,<\/p>\n

f\u0103r\u0103 martori.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u00eemi prind p\u0103rul ca pe o decizie.<\/p>\n

\u00eembrac hainele ca pe un scut.<\/p>\n

nu z\u00e2mbesc.<\/p>\n

nu urlu.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

pe strad\u0103, v\u0103d oameni<\/p>\n

care s-au anulat \u00een timp ce z\u00e2mbeau.<\/p>\n

\u00eei recunosc dup\u0103 felul \u00een care \u021bin telefonul:<\/p>\n

str\u00e2ns, ca pe un colac de salvare<\/p>\n

\u00eentr-o mare f\u0103r\u0103 coast\u0103.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

la birou, cuvintele se lovesc de pere\u021bi.<\/p>\n

niciun sunet nu supravie\u021buie\u0219te<\/p>\n

mai mult de o secund\u0103.<\/p>\n

trupurile lucreaz\u0103,<\/p>\n

dar g\u00e2ndurile fug prin cr\u0103p\u0103turi.<\/p>\n

o femeie str\u00e2nge din maxilare.<\/p>\n

un b\u0103rbat se uit\u0103 lung la peretele alb.<\/p>\n

nimeni nu respir\u0103 profund.<\/p>\n

nu e voie.<\/p>\n

nu e timp.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

seara, mi se scurge din piept<\/p>\n

o t\u0103cere grosolan\u0103.<\/p>\n

nu mai vreau nimic,<\/p>\n

dar trebuie.<\/p>\n

\u00eenc\u0103 o cin\u0103.<\/p>\n

\u00eenc\u0103 un z\u00e2mbet.<\/p>\n

\u00eenc\u0103 o via\u021b\u0103<\/p>\n

care n-a \u00eenceput niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

sting lumina.<\/p>\n

dau restart<\/em>.<\/p>\n

poate m\u00e2ine o s\u0103 doar\u0103 mai pu\u021bin.<\/p>\n

sau o s\u0103 doar\u0103 altfel.<\/p>\n

o accept \u0219i pe asta.<\/p>\n

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 <\/p>\n

simptom f\u0103r\u0103 cauz\u0103<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

nu mai plec nic\u0103ieri.<\/p>\n

m\u0103 rotesc \u00een jurul unei t\u0103ceri solide,<\/p>\n

cu genunchii tra\u0219i la piept<\/p>\n

\u0219i maxilarul \u00eencle\u0219tat pe o idee:<\/p>\n

totul e repetabil,<\/p>\n

inclusiv singur\u0103tatea.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

trupul meu \u2014 un halat vechi,<\/p>\n

purtat de al\u021bii \u00een visele mele.<\/p>\n

mi se lipe\u0219te de coapse<\/p>\n

o fric\u0103 sterilizat\u0103,<\/p>\n

cu miros de betadin\u0103 \u0219i scrum.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

aerul nu se las\u0103 respirat,<\/p>\n

doar \u00eempins afar\u0103 din piept<\/p>\n

ca un animal slab,<\/p>\n

care nu \u0219tie s\u0103 moar\u0103 decent.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u00een c\u0103utarea unui sens<\/p>\n

ajung \u00een col\u021burile mele obscure,<\/p>\n

acolo unde nu m-a g\u0103sit nimeni.<\/p>\n

s\u00e2ngele nemi\u0219cat \u2014<\/p>\n

o reveren\u021b\u0103 ironic de lung\u0103.<\/p>\n

m\u0103 dor t\u00e2mplele<\/p>\n

de la at\u00e2ta acceptare.<\/p>\n

nimeni nu vindec\u0103<\/p>\n

ceea ce tace \u00een vertebre.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

azi am stat neclintit\u0103<\/p>\n

p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd podeaua a uitat c\u0103 exist.<\/p>\n

doar o umbr\u0103 \u2014<\/p>\n

aspr\u0103, ca o cicatrice vie \u2014<\/p>\n

a plecat.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

mi-am pus m\u0103nu\u0219i sterile<\/p>\n

cu care ating ceea ce doare,<\/p>\n

f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 infectez<\/p>\n

de mine.<\/p>\n

#<\/p>\n

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Alina Monica Turlea este traduc\u0103toare, publicist\u0103 \u0219i poet\u0103. A absolvit Facultatea de Litere \u0219i Filosofie \u00een cadrul Universit\u0103\u021bii \u201eLa Sapienza\u201d din Roma, sec\u021bia Limbi \u0219i Literaturi Str\u0103ine. De\u021bine un master \u00een Literatur\u0103, Lingvistic\u0103 \u0219i Traducere \u00een cadrul aceleia\u0219i universit\u0103\u021bi \u0219i a beneficiat, de asemenea, de o burs\u0103 de studii la Universitatea Paris IV-Paris-Sorbonne. A publicat volumele de poezie La mia <\/em>Quintessenza<\/em> (Aletti, 2019) \u0219i Academia \u00censingura\u021bilor<\/em> (Eikon, 2022), precum \u0219i proz\u0103 scurt\u0103 \u00een volume colective, printre care Lingua Madre. Racconti di donne straniere in Italia <\/em>(SEB 27). A tradus \u00een limba italian\u0103 opere semnate de Liviu Rebreanu, Mihail Sebastian, Petre Ispirescu, Thanas Medi, iar \u00een limba rom\u00e2n\u0103, un roman semnat de scriitoare italian\u0103 Sara di Furia. Colaboreaz\u0103 cu reviste literare precum Orizonturi culturale italo-rom\u00e2ne<\/em> \u0219i OltArt<\/em>, dar \u0219i cu publica\u021bii online, printre care Abitare<\/em> a Roma<\/em>. Activeaz\u0103 ca traduc\u0103toare \u0219i interpret\u0103, iar timpul liber \u0219i-l dedic\u0103 poeziei \u0219i literaturii.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

(Lecturi potrivite\/recomandate de Alexandra) manual de adaptare \u00a0 nu mai \u021bip\u0103 nimeni. e semn c\u0103 programul func\u021bioneaz\u0103. t\u0103cerea a fost votat\u0103 majoritar.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1800,1279,13],"tags":[1216,1803,1801,1280,1114],"class_list":["post-15833","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-egophobia-86","category-lecturi-potrivite","category-poezie","tag-alexandra-medaru","tag-alina-monica-turlea","tag-egophobia-86","tag-lecturi-potrivite","tag-poezie"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6DakB-47n","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15833","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=15833"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15833\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15835,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15833\/revisions\/15835"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=15833"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=15833"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=15833"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}