de Leonard Ancu\u0163a<\/p>\n
eu investesc \u00een mine 17 lei, un Triumpf plus
\nun pachet de \u0163ig\u0103ri \u00een fumul c\u0103ruia s\u0103-mi ascund fa\u0163a, patul, viitorul
\nea a investit \u00eentr-un tratat de psihiatrie, Predescu
\nprecum \u015fi concluzia c\u0103 s\u00eent histrionic, isteric, combinate cu teatralitate,
\nmanifest\u0103ri zgomotoase, superficialitate, infantilism, somatizare, exprimare excentric\u0103,
\nexagerat\u0103 \u015fi ridicol\u0103 \u2013 ve\u015fnica \u201cvictim\u0103\u201d
\noare a\u015f putea fi a\u015fa, c\u00eend stau cu fa\u0163a de mas\u0103 verde galben \u015fi negru \u00een obraz
\na\u015ftept\u00eend s\u0103-i absorb culorile, textura, dorin\u0163a de a acoperi pe cineva,
\nnu \u015ftiu, de aceea \u00eemi las m\u00eeinile libere s\u0103 c\u00eente la un instrument imaginar
\no melodie de leg\u0103tur\u0103 \u00eentre mine \u015fi lume, dansul fluturilor \u00een varianta Diary of Dreams
\nc\u00eet s\u0103 nu-mi pese c\u0103 nop\u0163ile fac de gard\u0103 la fereastr\u0103. dorin\u0163a mea acut\u0103 e
\ns\u0103 bat\u0103 un v\u00eent c\u00eet mai rece, iar degetele lui pe geam s\u0103 interpreteze ca la o harp\u0103 nebun\u0103
\nmuzica aceea care face s\u00eengele s\u0103 fug\u0103 din vene cum alearg\u0103 oamenii din case
\nla cutremur.<\/p>\n
ochii ei \u00eenc\u0103 umbl\u0103 pe pielea mea, un soi de m\u00eenc\u0103rime care \u00eemi intr\u0103 \u00een trup
\naici e raiul zoo, spunea, \u015fi mi-a trimis un rinocer s\u0103-\u015fi fac\u0103 de cap cu mine
\nstau cu cornul lui \u00eenc\u0103 \u00eenfipt \u00een cap dar nu simt nimic, acolo e Triumpful
\nprobabil e un rinocer isteric, insist\u0103, insist\u0103 mi-a ajuns \u00eentre sistol\u0103 \u015fi diastol\u0103
\n\u015fi e cum m-a\u015f \u00eeneca \u00een s\u00eengele ei \u00eenainte de a atinge dorin\u0163a
\n\u00een afar\u0103 de asta mai e mirosul acela de transpira\u0163ie trandafirie \u015fi dragoste
\nde dup\u0103 dragoste, te \u00eennebune\u015fte, te despic\u0103 \u00een f\u00ee\u015fii multicolore ajungi
\nm\u0103car pentru c\u00eeteva clipe s\u0103 fii un bici al iubirii care sf\u00eertec\u0103 cerul la fel
\nca un curcubeu. stai nemi\u015fcat, doar \u00ee\u0163i aduci aminte c\u0103 spunea c\u00eendva \u00eentr-un e-mail,
\nmind & spirit you got, nu te-au interesat dec\u00e2t banii \u2013 poate doar mici investi\u0163ii \u00een mine
\n\u015fi \u00een Triumpf \u2013 c\u0103 de fapt de aia nu-mi pas\u0103 &
\nlumina din ochii ei picur\u0103 la a\u015fa cum picur\u0103 ceara.<\/p>\n
e trecut de miezul nop\u0163ii, al vie\u0163ii \u015fi al mor\u0163ii,
\nstau suspendat, un actor prins \u00een sforile invizibile ale orgoliului, juc\u00eend propria durere
\nact\u00eend at\u00eet de bine \u00eenc\u00eet nu mai \u015ftie s\u0103 deosebeasc\u0103 un galben fantastic al obrazului drept
\nde ro\u015ful real care-i topea obrazul st\u00eeng, buza mea spart\u0103, ochii \u00eennegri\u0163i de lucr\u0103tor \u00een min\u0103
\nde acolo de unde scoteam c\u0103rbunii din ea \u015fi \u00eei ardeam \u00een mine s\u0103 ne fie cald \u00eempreun\u0103
\nda, c\u00eeteodat\u0103 ea se deforma \u015fi \u00ee\u015fi pierdea propriet\u0103\u0163ile \u00eens\u0103 \u00eembr\u0103\u0163i\u015farile o aduceau
\n\u00een forma ini\u0163ial\u0103. era f\u0103cut\u0103 din acel material cu memoria formei, iar eu ajunsesem
\no ruf\u0103 oarecare, f\u0103r\u0103 elegan\u0163\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 culoare,
\nca atunci c\u00eend le aduni pe toate \u00een ma\u015fina de sp\u0103lat \u015fi pui hipoclorit din bel\u015fug,
\nau toate aceea\u015fi nuan\u0163\u0103 c\u00eend le sco\u0163i, de culoarea norilor de furtun\u0103
\ncu ele pe tine semeni cu un ansamblu de cl\u0103diri proiectate de un arhitect nebun
\nagresiv \u015fi posedat ca un m\u0103r biblic proscris. probabil singurul m\u0103r care se mu\u015fc\u0103 singur.<\/p>\n
cineva \u0163ip\u0103 s\u0103 ma mi\u015fc mai \u00een fa\u0163\u0103, nu pot s\u0103-mi trag picioarele dup\u0103 mine, inima pompeaz\u0103 mercur
\na\u015f vrea s\u0103 avansez fiindc\u0103 \u00eenainte e ea, dar probabil c\u0103 a aruncat deja piept\u0103nul\u2026
\ns\u00eent aruncat \u015fi eu pe aici, pe undeva, nici nu-mi dau seama
\ns\u00eent multe tuburi de medicamente, pe toate scrie mi-e bine
\n\u00eenc\u0103rca\u0163i torpilele 1 \u015fi 2, fixa\u0163i target mi-e bine, apoi m-am pierdut
\nm\u0103 scufundam ca un vapor \u00een apele ei teritoriale, de fapt disp\u0103rusem de pe radar
\n\u00eentr-un soi de triunghi al bermudelor. bip. bip. biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
\nm\u0103 voi reg\u0103si probabil dup\u0103 mul\u0163i ani \u015fi voi fi minunat. ca atunci c\u00eend descoperi
\ndincolo de praf, \u00een debara, o cutie cu casetele din liceu. le ascult cu un soi de sfin\u0163enie
\nbenzile demagnetizate \u00eemi las\u0103 o emo\u0163ie care se pierde cur\u00eend, e prima dat\u0103 c\u00eend cred
\nc\u0103 \u015fi la oameni e la fel dup\u0103 o vreme.<\/p>\n
dar chiar \u015fi a\u015fa e un loc secret \u00een fiecare pies\u0103, acolo e ascuns un mesaj
\ngata s\u0103 rezoneze cu locul acela intim, \u00een care st\u0103 un sentiment-vierme
\npl\u0103p\u00eend \u015fi ad\u00eenc \u00eenfipt \u00een carnea ce-mi aduce aminte de mine,
\ne singurul lucru pe care nimeni nu l-a v\u0103zut niciodat\u0103, \u00een s\u00eengele lui p\u0103strez
\nc\u00eeteva lucruri importante, un copil nen\u0103scut, un dar ce nu l-am oferit niciodat\u0103
\nc\u00eet de mult \u00eei iubeam nebunia, lacrimile nepl\u00eense la moartea tatei
\napoi g\u00eendul acela simplu la vederea acestor comori
\ncum c\u0103 a\u015f putea s\u0103-i fac cel mai frumos cadou, firesc a\u015fa ca un du\u015f \u00eempreun\u0103
\nnoi veseli, schimb\u00eend becuri \u00een cer \u015fi to\u0163i mor\u0163ii z\u00eembind la un pahar de Triumpf
\n\u00eempreun\u0103 cu tata.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
de Leonard Ancu\u0163a eu investesc \u00een mine 17 lei, un Triumpf plus un pachet de \u0163ig\u0103ri \u00een fumul c\u0103ruia s\u0103-mi ascund fa\u0163a, patul, viitorul ea a investit \u00eentr-un tratat de psihiatrie, Predescu precum \u015fi concluzia c\u0103 s\u00eent histrionic, isteric, combinate cu teatralitate, manifest\u0103ri zgomotoase, superficialitate, infantilism, somatizare, exprimare excentric\u0103,<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[436,13],"tags":[1145,473,1114],"class_list":["post-3052","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-egophobia-25","category-poezie","tag-egophobia-25","tag-leonard-ancuta","tag-poezie"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6DakB-Ne","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3052","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3052"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3052\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3053,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3052\/revisions\/3053"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3052"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3052"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3052"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}