de Anca Negru<\/p>\n
\nS\u0103 m\u0103 sp\u0103l pe fa\u0163\u0103 \u015fi s\u0103-mi fac o cafea. E diminea\u0163\u0103. Oare ce zi o fi azi? Ieri a fost duminic\u0103, \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 azi e luni. E cam lini\u015fte pe str\u0103zi, nu se poate s\u0103 fie luni! Trebuia s\u0103 fie forfot\u0103 \u015fi agita\u0163ie, lumea merge la servici… O fi duminic\u0103, totu\u015fi?! Ieri s\u0103 fi fost s\u00e2mb\u0103t\u0103?… Hai s\u0103 deschid televizorul, arat\u0103 ora acolo, ceasurile mele nu sunt de \u00eencredere… Mai vine lume pe la mine, vecinii poate au dat ora mai \u00eenainte sau mai \u00een urm\u0103! Sunt r\u0103i, foarte r\u0103i! Josnici \u015fi meschini, ni\u015fte ipocri\u0163i to\u0163i! Auzi s\u0103 \u00eemi schimbe mie ceasurile, cu ce drept?! Nu au nici un drept asupra mea, e imoral! Ce etic\u0103 s\u0103 aib\u0103, nu \u00eei v\u0103d, nu \u00eei aud \u00een fiecare zi f\u0103c\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 s\u0103 suf\u0103r?! Da, suf\u0103r \u00een fiecare zi de c\u00e2nd… chiar de c\u00e2nd iau medicamentele? S\u0103 fie trei, patru sau cinci ani? Pare o ve\u015fnicie… Poate a fost \u015fi mai demult… Dac\u0103 a\u015f \u015fti, a\u015f \u015fti \u015fi \u00een ce zi suntem azi! Televizorul \u0103sta, nu am \u00eencredere c\u0103 e ora 9,30 de diminea\u0163a, cum zic ei, doar \u015ftiu c\u0103 totul e luat \u00een b\u0103\u015fc\u0103lie, vor s\u0103 \u00eemi fac\u0103 \u00een ciud\u0103, s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eencerce!… Sunt convins, totul se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 pentru ca eu s\u0103 nu fiu niciodat\u0103 sigur, niciodat\u0103 sigur, dar las\u2019 c\u0103 le g\u0103sesc eu ac de cojoc… S\u0103 m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc, sunt n\u0103scut \u00een 67, de asta sunt sigur!… Cum f\u0103ceau oamenii \u00een vechime c\u00e2nd nu erau ceasuri?!? Se uitau dup\u0103 soare, da, s\u0103 m\u0103 uit pe fereastr\u0103, poate aflu c\u00e2t e ceasul acum… Of, e un bloc de 13 etaje \u00een fa\u0163\u0103, am uitat complet de el, cum s\u0103 mai v\u0103d ceva?!?… Timpul \u0103sta trece \u00eengrozitor de greu, totul se mi\u015fc\u0103 alene \u015fi \u00eenceti\u015for, e incredibil! \u00cemi aduc aminte c\u0103 \u00eenainte trecea at\u00e2t de repede… totul \u00eentr-o clipit\u0103, totul o sc\u00e2nteie, cr\u00e2mpeie de clipe erau zilele, viteza luminii… S\u0103 cobor \u00een fa\u0163a sc\u0103rii blocului, poate v\u0103d mai bine cerul de acolo… \u0102\u015ftia cu televizorul, ni\u015fte imbecili, de unde s\u0103 \u015ftie ei exact \u00een ce an, zi, lun\u0103 ne afl\u0103m?! \u015ei dac\u0103 ar \u015fti, nu cred c\u0103 ne-ar spune, ar p\u0103stra secretul ca s\u0103 ne aduc\u0103 \u00een fa\u0163a televizoarelor \u00een fiecare zi! Cine s\u0103 \u015ftie? Aaa, e \u00eennorat, nu v\u0103d nimic! Va ploua! Ce m\u0103 fac acum? E duminic\u0103 sau luni? E totul foarte greu, ciudat de greu… Cum pot s\u0103 \u00eemi dau seama c\u00e2nd s\u0103 ajung la programare?… Stai pu\u0163in, facem un calcul… Eram \u00een 2000 c\u00e2nd m-am \u00eembon\u0103vit… Da, \u00eemi aduc aminte, sunt sigur de asta, a fost mare tam-tam cu anul \u0103sta… Hai s\u0103 zicem, presupunem, c\u0103 au trecut cinci ani de atunci, cam at\u00e2t, da, au fost cinci ierni, de asta sunt sigur… Cinci ani de c\u00e2nd iau medicamente, at\u00e2t de mult?! Asta \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 suntem \u00een 2005… 2005 minus 1967… C\u00e2t fac oare? Ia s\u0103 iau un creion \u015fi s\u0103 calculez un picule\u0163… Da, 38 de ani, at\u00e2t am, maxim! \u015ei cum verific?… S\u0103 m\u0103 uit \u00een oglind\u0103 dac\u0103 am \u00eentr-adev\u0103r at\u00e2t, nu e mare lucru, imediat \u00eemi dau seama… Hmm, poate un an mai pu\u0163in, s\u0103 fi fost patru ierni de atunci, deci suntem \u00een 2004! \u00cen sf\u00e2r\u015fit am aflat anul! \u0102sta e anul adev\u0103rat, nu ce zic ei, a\u015fa la mi\u015fto, ca s\u0103 ne \u0163in\u0103 \u00een fa\u0163a televizoarelor! Eram sigur c\u0103 mint sau poate nu \u015ftiu nici ei, e greu de caculat! Ar trebui s\u0103 \u00eei anun\u0163 cumva c\u0103 se \u00een\u015feal\u0103, c\u0103 e gre\u015fit, suntem \u00een 2004, nu \u00een 2009, de asta m-am convins! \u015etiin\u0163a nu gre\u015feste. Niciodat\u0103…. Dar totu\u015fi cum ajung la programare? S\u0103 m\u0103 uit c\u00e2nd e… 6 octombrie… am vreun calendar?! La ce s\u0103 \u00eemi trebuiasc\u0103, doar am aflat acum tot ce am nevoie? Ce rost s\u0103 mai aib\u0103? Da, dar trebuie s\u0103 m\u0103 prezint la programare dup\u0103 timpul lor, ei doar a\u015fa \u015ftiu sau \u015ftiu de fapt \u015fi m\u0103 \u00eencearc\u0103? Asta e \u00eentrebarea, poate ar fi mai bine s\u0103 m\u0103 duc dup\u0103 timpul meu, a\u015fa vor vedea c\u0103 sunt bine \u015fi s\u0103n\u0103tos, c\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc singur, c\u0103 iau decizii, c\u0103 sunt capabil s\u0103 fac fa\u0163\u0103 oric\u0103rei situa\u0163ii?! Doar am fost afar\u0103… Totu\u015fi, nu pare octombrie, e destul de cald. Plou\u0103 afar\u0103, s-ar putea s\u0103 fie toamn\u0103. O toamn\u0103 la \u00eenceput! Sau un sf\u00e2r\u015fit de august.. Nu \u015ftiu ce s\u0103 zic… Va trebui s\u0103 urm\u0103resc vremea, dar cred, cu toate astea, c\u0103 e septembrie, da! Duminic\u0103! Cam pe la mijloc, vreo 15-16 septembrie… S\u0103 \u00eemi scriu \u00een carnet \u00een fiecare zi \u015fi s\u0103 \u00eemi fixez ceasurile din cas\u0103. A\u015fa e cel mai sigur. Cel mai bine!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
de Anca Negru S\u0103 m\u0103 sp\u0103l pe fa\u0163\u0103 \u015fi s\u0103-mi fac o cafea. E diminea\u0163\u0103. Oare ce zi o fi azi? Ieri a fost duminic\u0103, \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 azi e luni. E cam lini\u015fte pe str\u0103zi, nu se poate s\u0103 fie luni! Trebuia s\u0103 fie forfot\u0103 \u015fi agita\u0163ie, lumea merge la servici… O fi duminic\u0103, totu\u015fi?! […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[7,15],"tags":[69,9,1115],"class_list":["post-319","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-7","category-proza","tag-anca-negru","tag-egophobia-22","tag-proza"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6DakB-59","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/319","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=319"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/319\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":560,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/319\/revisions\/560"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=319"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=319"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=319"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}