{"id":4058,"date":"2010-03-22T13:30:18","date_gmt":"2010-03-22T11:30:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=4058"},"modified":"2010-03-24T00:17:11","modified_gmt":"2010-03-23T22:17:11","slug":"frozen-spring-controlled-insanity-in-progress","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=4058","title":{"rendered":"Frozen Spring"},"content":{"rendered":"

[Controlled Insanity in Progress]<\/strong><\/p>\n

de \u015etefan Bolea
\n
\n\u201cMy eyes drying from the cold\u201d (Skid Row)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Cred c\u0103 suntem pu\u0163in ie\u015fi\u0163i din astroritm. Mie \u00eemi place luna februarie, pentru c\u0103 po\u0163i lucra\/ studia netulburat. Poate s\u0103-\u0163i creasc\u0103 o carte sau e\u015fti capabil s\u0103 te focusezi mai bine pe citit, now that the sun is out of the equation<\/em>. (Sun \u2013 a principal distraction, a perfect LIE, though in Norway I learned to appreciate it; Sun \u2013 it makes you feel awake when you\u2019re really asleep; Sun \u2013 an illusion; in fact it\u2019s been night since the beginning of the world; NIGHT IS THE ONLY DAY, to paraphrase Katatonia.) Dar azi erau idele lui martie \u015fi o furtun\u0103 de z\u0103pad\u0103 m-a pocnit c\u00e2nd m\u0103 plimbam cu Ormeny pe la Studii Europene. This is almost too much\u2026<\/em> Cu zodia Berbecului, ar trebui s\u0103 celebr\u0103m noul an \u2013 s\u0103 ne reset\u0103m \u015fi s\u0103 anticip\u0103m proiectiv ce vrem s\u0103 facem cu self-ul nostru one more year<\/em>. Dac\u0103 \u00een cinci zile o s\u0103 fie iarn\u0103 though<\/em>, ar cam fi o s\u0103rb\u0103toare neagr\u0103, cum zic cei de la Depeche Mode. Nu \u015ftiu, am impresia c\u0103 sunt defazat \u2013 simt c\u0103 ar fi trebuit s\u0103-mi treac\u0103 deja astenia de prim\u0103var\u0103, \u015fi de fapt the pains haven\u2019t even started<\/em>. Sunt \u00eentr-un limb (m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc c\u0103 \u015fi al\u0163ii trec prin asta), parc\u0103 o parte din con\u015ftiin\u0163\u0103 \u00ee\u015fi dore\u015fte un lucru pe care cealalt\u0103 parte nu-l poate. Divided:<\/em> grani\u0163a este \u00eempresurat\u0103 cu s\u00e2rm\u0103 ghimpat\u0103, ca s\u0103-\u015fi prind\u0103 demonii sufletul \u015fi trupul \u00een no man\u2019s land.<\/em> Crucify devils! Moarte delatorilor! Trebuie executa\u0163i \u00eentr-un efort comun al taberelor inamice\u2026 Oricum, vreau s\u0103 zic c\u0103 nu sunt at\u00e2t de focusat \u015fi de self-centred pe c\u00e2t a\u015f putea s\u0103 fiu, din pricina conflictului dintre ra\u0163iunea sufleteasc\u0103 \u015fi inteligen\u0163a emo\u0163ional\u0103. It\u2019s a frozen re-birth: c\u00e2nd s\u0103-mi leap\u0103d pielea, aflu c\u0103 avatarul predestinat nu este preg\u0103tit. Un self a plecat pe pozi\u0163ii viitoare, la anticipare \u2013 altul n-a ajuns la destina\u0163ie, nereu\u015find pasa: \u00eentre cele dou\u0103 sunt eu, partea cea mai dezagregat\u0103 din tine.<\/p>\n

\nDar poate tocmai asta e mi\u015fto, s\u0103 pendulezi \u00eentre direc\u0163ii sau s\u0103 inventezi dincolo de serial number-ul identit\u0103\u0163ii. Ast\u0103zi sunt eu, m\u00e2ine Minulescu\/ Vlad Dracul din Roman<\/em>\u0163a noului-venit\/ Glasul artei viitoare<\/em>, poim\u00e2ine Lestat din Interview with a Vampire <\/em>sau Vincent Price, poim\u00e2ine seara, eu 2, care nu seam\u0103n\u0103 cu primii cinci. Fuck identity, it\u2019s overrated! Ca-n Memento<\/em>, ajungi la o dezintegrare progresiv\u0103, \u00eentr-o asemenea m\u0103sur\u0103, \u00eenc\u00e2t m\u00e2na tremur\u00e2nd\u0103 care termin\u0103 acest text nu mai seam\u0103n\u0103 cu m\u00e2na care l-a \u00eenceput. Alienarea poate fi simpatic\u0103, atunci c\u00e2nd este propria alegere \u015fi nu dictat\u0103 cu cizma-n fa\u0163\u0103.\u00a0 Unde vreau s\u0103 ajung (\u00een stilul pelicanului \u015fi al babi\u0163ei) este c\u0103 \u00een zonele intermediare trebuie s\u0103 renun\u0163i la etica voin\u0163ei \u015fi s\u0103 te la\u015fi pe m\u00e2na subliminalului (\u00eencepe proiectul pe care nu ai cum s\u0103-l finisezi! Ascult\u0103 melodia care te obsedeaz\u0103 de ani \u00eentregi! Lucreaz\u0103 la poemul, la care nu-\u0163i iese finalul, sunt convins c\u0103 ai c\u00e2teva! Ini\u0163iaz\u0103 un hobby sau renun\u0163\u0103 la altul! V\u00e2neaz\u0103 corbi pe balcon cu pu\u015fca de aer comprimat! D\u0103-i pet-ului o por\u0163ie de bacon exxtra! Whatever, inventeaz\u0103, vorba lui Sartre! Choose\/ not to choose life!)\u2026 Este un timp al intui\u0163iei, care nu trebuie contorizat\u2026 Live during the night when day is phony! Va veni \u015fi vremea Panzer-ului (\u015fi ceasul lui Pico de Mirandolla) dar acum trebuie s\u0103 tr\u0103ie\u015fti \u00een butoi sau s\u0103-\u0163i impui c\u0103 este ora Cassandrei, \u00een care cre\u015fte o falie \u00eentre viitorul-trecut \u015fi trecutul-viitor\u2026 It\u2019s not high time to turn yourself into a bomb, it\u2019s better to explode now without a purpose.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

[Controlled Insanity in Progress] de \u015etefan Bolea \u201cMy eyes drying from the cold\u201d (Skid Row) Cred c\u0103 suntem pu\u0163in ie\u015fi\u0163i din astroritm. Mie \u00eemi place luna februarie, pentru c\u0103 po\u0163i lucra\/ studia netulburat. Poate s\u0103-\u0163i creasc\u0103 o carte sau e\u015fti capabil s\u0103 te focusezi mai bine pe citit, now that the sun is out of […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[124,507],"tags":[1128,1147,39],"class_list":["post-4058","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-editorial","category-egophobia-26","tag-editorial","tag-egophobia-26","tag-stefan-bolea"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6DakB-13s","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4058","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4058"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4058\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4378,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4058\/revisions\/4378"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4058"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4058"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4058"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}