{"id":44,"date":"2009-05-20T08:58:15","date_gmt":"2009-05-20T06:58:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/egophobia.ro\/revista\/?p=44"},"modified":"2009-09-13T21:44:17","modified_gmt":"2009-09-13T19:44:17","slug":"stele-verzi-8","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=44","title":{"rendered":"Stele verzi 35"},"content":{"rendered":"<p align=justify>U\u015fa salonului intr\u0103 ea \u00eent\u00e2i \u00een salon, c\u00e2nd ea o deschise, \u015fi abia dup\u0103 aceea p\u0103\u015fi \u015fi ea \u00een\u0103untru. Nu \u00eent\u00e2rziase prea mult, spera ea, \u015fi \u00eel \u015fi \u00eentreb\u0103 ce crede despre a\u015fa ceva. El nu \u00eei r\u0103spunse nimic p\u00e2n\u0103 ce nu o v\u0103zu apropiindu-se de pat \u015fi p\u00e2n\u0103 ce nu o v\u0103zu aplec\u00e2ndu-se asupra lui pentru a se putea uita mai bine la el. Ea f\u0103cu \u00eentocmai \u015fi se apropie de pat p\u00e2n\u0103 genunchii \u00eent\u00e2lnir\u0103 de marginea lui u\u015for ascu\u0163it\u0103 \u015fi se aplec\u0103 asupra lui p\u00e2n\u0103 ochii d\u0103dur\u0103 de respira\u0163ia lui inflexibil\u0103. El p\u0103rea s\u0103 doarm\u0103, dar nu dormise niciun pic de c\u00e2nd ea plecase s\u0103 \u00ee\u015fi rezolve problemele \u015fi p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd abia revenise. O a\u015ftepta s\u0103 se \u00eentoarc\u0103 \u015fi o a\u015fteptase s\u0103 se \u00eentoarc\u0103 \u00een tot acest timp. Ea \u00eencerc\u0103 s\u0103 trezeasc\u0103 o mi\u015fcare \u00een el fiindc\u0103 nu voia s\u0103 \u00eenceap\u0103 s\u0103 vorbeasc\u0103 \u00een plina lui imobilitate. Trebuia s\u0103 \u00eel fac\u0103 s\u0103 se mi\u015fte cel pu\u0163in \u00een limita nemi\u015fc\u0103rii lui, \u00eentr-un mod ciudat, cere\u015fti. Sim\u0163ea foarte bine \u015fi \u015ftia c\u0103, p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd cerurile sale fizice nu vor \u00eencepe s\u0103 se mi\u015fte de stele, nici el nu va putea s\u0103 se mi\u015fte \u00een toat\u0103 \u00eentinderea sa, pe care va trebui s\u0103 o \u0163in\u0103 \u00een liniaritatea ei originar\u0103. El pricepea acest lucru, dar ea nu \u00eel \u00een\u0163elegea \u015fi pentru c\u0103, probabil, nu \u00eel \u015ftia \u015fi nici nu avea de unde s\u0103 \u00eel \u015ftie. R\u0103mase totu\u015fi la marginea patului s\u0103u metalic, aplecat\u0103 asupra respira\u0163iei sale impermeabile la oxigen, \u015fi ar fi vrut s\u0103 \u00eei vorbeasc\u0103, dar, de c\u00e2nd se \u00eentorsese la el \u00een salon, \u00ee\u015fi pierduse parc\u0103 orice abilitate de a-i mai spune ceva, iar el pur \u015fi simplu p\u0103rea s\u0103 se fi blocat cu totul \u00een amnezia lui internabil\u0103. Se \u00eentreba \u00een sine cum s\u0103 continue s\u0103 \u00eei vorbeasc\u0103 c\u00e2nd nu mai avea cum, iar el a\u015ftepta \u00een continuare ca ea s\u0103 \u00eenceap\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eei r\u0103spund\u0103 la \u00eentreb\u0103rile amneziei sale conjuncturale. Pluteau una \u00een fa\u0163a celuilalt, \u00een privirile lor centrale, \u015fi p\u0103reau s\u0103 nu se mai poat\u0103 cobor\u00ee \u00een marginile din care luaser\u0103 distan\u0163\u0103.<!--more--><\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nV\u0103d c\u0103 ai sosit, \u00eei spuse el \u00een cele din urm\u0103, curb\u00e2ndu-\u015fi numai pu\u0163in \u00eentinderea \u00een dreptul replicii sale ini\u0163iale.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nDesigur, \u00eel asigur\u0103 ea, c\u0103 am venit \u00eenapoi. Nu te-ai fi a\u015fteptat s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc?<\/p>\n<p>\u00centrebarea ei reverber\u0103 \u00een aerul din salon ca o sfer\u0103 atins\u0103 de liniaritate.<\/p>\n<p>Nu \u015ftiu la ce m\u0103 a\u015fteptam, nu \u015ftia el cu sinceritate. Nici de aceast\u0103 dat\u0103, \u015fov\u0103i el.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nEa ar fi dorit s\u0103 \u00eel ia de m\u00e2n\u0103 \u015fi poate chiar s\u0103 i-o \u015fi str\u00e2ng\u0103 \u00een a ei, probabil la fel cum cerul s\u0103u fizic i-ar fi str\u00e2ns \u00een propriul gol stelele, dac\u0103 le-ar fi avut, dar se ab\u0163inu c\u00e2nd \u00ee\u015fi aminti c\u0103 o mai f\u0103cuse, dar nu la o margine de pat, ci la una de banc\u0103. Trase \u00een schimb un taburet l\u00e2ng\u0103 pat \u015fi se a\u015fez\u0103 pe el. Din acel moment putea s\u0103 \u00eel vad\u0103 din chiar unghiul de vedere al patului mecanic, de la aproximativ aceea\u015fi \u00een\u0103l\u0163ime ca el \u015fi cam \u00een acela\u015fi fel. Probabil c\u0103 nici nu se putuse at\u00e2t de brusc re\u00eencarna \u00een patul metalic, c\u0103ruia \u00eei l\u0103sase sub el doar propriul s\u0103u schelet de fier forjat \u00een stil spitalicesc fiindc\u0103, mai degrab\u0103, \u00ee\u015fi \u00eensu\u015fise perspectiva lui aparent necredincioas\u0103. Se uita la el cum \u00ee\u015fi \u0163inea \u00eentreaga \u00eentindere mulat\u0103 perfect pe liniaritatea patului metalic \u015fi vorbi \u00een continuare p\u00e2n\u0103 la ultimul r\u0103spuns pe care \u00eentr-un fel poate i-l \u015fi datora.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nNici eu nu \u015ftiu la ce te a\u015fteptai, dar uite c\u0103 m-am \u00eenapoiat, probabil chiar \u00een ciuda ta, reveni ea \u00een discu\u0163ia lor marginal\u0103.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nEl ar fi vrut s\u0103 se dea mai la marginea patului pentru a netezi \u015fi mai bine simetria dintre ei, dar \u015fi pentru a fi mai l\u00e2ng\u0103 ea, dar impermeabilitatea lui la mi\u015fcare \u00eel opri s\u0103 ias\u0103 din conturul organic pe care propria lui \u00eentindere i-l formase \u00een patul metalic. Se mul\u0163umi de aceea numai s\u0103 \u0163in\u0103 cont de marginile mobiliere la care ea era cu siguran\u0163\u0103 \u015fi la care el ar fi putut cu adev\u0103rat s\u0103 fie, \u015fi continu\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eei vorbeasc\u0103 \u00een a\u015fteptarea tuturor r\u0103spunsurilor pe care ea poate \u00eentr-un fel i le \u015fi datora.<\/p>\n<p>V\u0103d c\u0103 te-ai \u00eenapoiat, \u00eei spuse el din marginea lui de discu\u0163ie.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nM\u0103 bucur c\u0103 vezi, \u00eei r\u0103spunse ea din marginea unui z\u00e2mbet mnemotehnic. Dar s\u0103 \u015ftii c\u0103 te \u00een\u015feli.<\/p>\n<p>\u00cen leg\u0103tur\u0103 cu ce?<\/p>\n<p>\u00centreb\u0103rii lui \u00eei lipsea chiar marginea dinspre r\u0103spunsul pe care \u00eel a\u015ftepta de la ea.<\/p>\n<p>Noi nu avem margini, \u00eei preciz\u0103 ea, \u015fi nici nu le-am folosi chiar dac\u0103 le-am avea.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nLe ce te referi? Nu \u00een\u0163eleg. \u015ei de ce ai tot timpul obiceiul s\u0103 deviezi de la subiectul principal?<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nEl p\u0103rea s\u0103 fie confuz \u015fi p\u00e2n\u0103 la marginile ei nu ar fi avut nicio \u015fans\u0103 s\u0103 ajung\u0103 dac\u0103 ar fi continuat, ca \u015fi ea, \u00een ritmul prezent.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nM\u0103 refer la ce te-ai g\u00e2ndit s\u0103 faci. Crezi c\u0103 nu am v\u0103zut cum ai vrut s\u0103 \u00ee\u0163i str\u0103pungi liniaritatea perfect\u0103 a \u00eentinderii pe care o ai \u00een acest simplu pat de spital pentru a trece mai \u00een marginea lui \u015fi, \u00een consecin\u0163\u0103, mai spre centrul distan\u0163ei dintre noi?<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nEa \u00eel \u00eentreb\u0103 astfel ca \u015fi cum distan\u0163a dintre ei nu ar fi acoperit\u0103 de locul dintre patul \u00een care fusese el culcat \u015fi taburetul \u00een care se a\u015fezase ea, ci de spa\u0163iul dintre limita lui organic\u0103 \u015fi limita ei inexistent\u0103.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nEl se f\u00e2st\u00e2ci un pic fiindc\u0103 ea \u00eel prinse mi\u015fc\u00e2ndu-se \u00een nemi\u015fcarea lui congenital\u0103 \u015fi \u00eencerc\u0103 s\u0103 se mai limiteze doar la flexibilitatea lui perfect \u00eencercuit\u0103 \u00eentre v\u00e2rfurile arcului s\u0103u de cerc vertebral.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\n\u00cemi \u00eenchipuiam c\u0103 ai v\u0103zut \u015fi \u00eencercarea mea nereu\u015fit\u0103, dar nu a\u015f fi crezut c\u0103 \u015fi a\u015fa de imediat, de parc\u0103 te-ai fi aflat \u00een centrul ochilor mei \u015fi nu la marginea mea extrem\u0103.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nEa \u00ee\u015fi d\u0103du seama c\u0103 taburetul pe care st\u0103tea nu e destul de l\u00e2ng\u0103 patul \u00een care \u00ee\u015fi \u0163inea el \u00eentinderea \u00een perfect\u0103 imobilitate \u015fi de aceea se \u015fi ridic\u0103 de pe el s\u0103 \u00eei scurteze \u015fi mai impermeabil distan\u0163a de marginea lui extrem\u0103, a\u015fa cum \u00eei pl\u0103cea lui s\u0103 \u00ee\u015fi numeasc\u0103 conturul organic.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nSunt ager\u0103 \u015fi \u00een consecin\u0163\u0103 nu \u0163i-am sc\u0103pat din vedere niciuna dintre mi\u015fc\u0103rile pe care nu le-ai f\u0103cut, \u00eei z\u00e2mbi ea probabil ironic.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\n\u00cen\u0163eleg, observ\u0103 el at\u00e2t agilitatea ei ocular\u0103, c\u00e2t \u015fi probabila ei ironie poate c\u0103 \u015fi fin\u0103. Dar s\u0103 revenim la ce vorbeam \u00eenainte de-a pleca, vrei?<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nVreau \u015fi nu e o propunere rea, doar c\u0103 ai pierdut at\u00e2ta timp \u00een nemi\u015fc\u0103rile tale nelimitate \u015fi nu ai scos mai nicio vorb\u0103 de c\u00e2nd m-am \u00eentors \u015fi \u00een cur\u00e2nd va trebui s\u0103 plec din nou s\u0103 preg\u0103tesc cina. Sunt \u00een tura de noapte, cum de altfel \u015fi sunt tot timpul, \u015fi trebuie s\u0103 \u00eemi intru \u00een atribu\u0163iile de serviciu. Sper s\u0103 ne \u00eent\u00e2lnim la cantin\u0103, doar \u0163i-o fi foame, \u015fi poate o s\u0103 am ceva timp, dup\u0103 ce \u00eei servesc pe bolnavi, \u015fi pentru tine. Dar va trebui s\u0103 profi\u0163i de mine c\u00e2nd am timp liber \u015fi s\u0103 nu te mai irose\u015fti \u00een ni\u015fte margini ce \u00eemi \u00eenchipui c\u0103 nici nu prea exist\u0103.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nEa nu \u00eei repro\u015f\u0103, de fapt, c\u0103 \u00eei cam irosise timpul pe care \u015fi a\u015fa \u015fi-l rezervase cu destul\u0103 greutate special pentru el \u015fi pentru amnezia lui ciudat de interogativ\u0103, dar nici mul\u0163umit\u0103 nu putea s\u0103 fie s\u0103 fi venit p\u00e2n\u0103 la el, la at\u00e2tea holuri filigranate dep\u0103rtare de cantina \u00een care lucra ca buc\u0103t\u0103reas\u0103, \u015fi s\u0103 se fi a\u015fezat \u00een marginea lui extrem\u0103, pe care ea ar fi numit-o inexistent\u0103, \u015fi s\u0103 \u00eei fi a\u015fteptat \u00eentreb\u0103rile pe care el le marginalizase undeva \u00een centrul imobilit\u0103\u0163ii lui naturale, iar el, \u00een schimb, s\u0103 nu profite \u00een niciun fel de ea. \u015ei, fiindc\u0103 ce abia i-a zis nu era practic un repro\u015f, ci doar un fel de sugestie s\u0103 nu mai procedeze la fel \u015fi alt\u0103dat\u0103, se ridic\u0103 de pe taburet \u015fi \u00eel puse de unde \u00eel luase, dintr-o margine de salon, \u015fi vru s\u0103 \u00ee\u015fi ia la revedere de la el, dar nu putu fiindc\u0103 el refuz\u0103 s\u0103 \u00ee\u015fi ia la revedere de la ea \u015fi \u00eei \u015fi explic\u0103 c\u0103 i-ar fi imposibil s\u0103 \u00eei spun\u0103 ceva a\u015fa de definitiv, c\u00e2nd aveau cu siguran\u0163\u0103 s\u0103 se \u00eent\u00e2lneasc\u0103 din nou chiar la marginea cinei al c\u0103rei centru conversa\u0163ional nu mai avea de g\u00e2nd s\u0103 \u00eel iroseasc\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103 o dat\u0103. Ea z\u00e2mbi pl\u0103cut impresionat\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eel aud\u0103 spun\u00e2ndu-i astfel \u015fi \u00eel \u00eentreb\u0103 dac\u0103 era sigur c\u0103 va veni, iar el o asigur\u0103 c\u0103 da, la fel cum \u015fi ea se \u0163inuse de cuv\u00e2nt, \u015fi el se va \u0163ine, \u015fi ea \u00eei mai spuse c\u0103 o s\u0103 \u00eel a\u015ftepte s\u0103 vin\u0103, iar dup\u0103 toat\u0103 aceea ie\u015fi pe u\u015fa salonului nu \u00eenainte ca ea s\u0103 intre \u00eenapoi \u00een salon.<\/p>\n<p>(va urma)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>U\u015fa salonului intr\u0103 ea \u00eent\u00e2i \u00een salon, c\u00e2nd ea o deschise, \u015fi abia dup\u0103 aceea p\u0103\u015fi \u015fi ea \u00een\u0103untru. Nu \u00eent\u00e2rziase prea mult, spera ea, \u015fi \u00eel \u015fi \u00eentreb\u0103 ce crede despre a\u015fa ceva. El nu \u00eei r\u0103spunse nimic p\u00e2n\u0103 ce nu o v\u0103zu apropiindu-se de pat \u015fi p\u00e2n\u0103 ce nu o v\u0103zu aplec\u00e2ndu-se asupra [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[6,4,5],"class_list":["post-44","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-romanul-online","tag-literatura-virtuala-exclusiv-antuma","tag-patrick-calinescu","tag-roman-online"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6DakB-I","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/44","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=44"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/44\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1573,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/44\/revisions\/1573"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=44"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=44"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=44"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}