{"id":49,"date":"2009-05-22T08:10:01","date_gmt":"2009-05-22T06:10:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/egophobia.ro\/revista\/?p=49"},"modified":"2009-09-13T21:55:04","modified_gmt":"2009-09-13T19:55:04","slug":"stele-verzi-10","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=49","title":{"rendered":"Stele verzi 33"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>D\u0103-te la o parte.<\/p>\n<p>El se d\u0103du imediat la o parte fiindc\u0103 o femeie i-o ceruse.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>Femeia abia intrase \u00een salon c\u00e2nd \u00ee\u015fi d\u0103du seama c\u0103 el nu ie\u015fise nici p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een acel moment din toat\u0103 \u00eentinderea patului \u00een care fusese culcat. \u00cengrijorat\u0103, se apropie de marginea patului metalic \u015fi se aplic\u0103 asupra patului organic, pe care \u00eel cercet\u0103 cu mult\u0103 luare aminte p\u00e2n\u0103, \u00eencredin\u0163\u00e2ndu-se c\u0103 toate aparen\u0163ele lui sunt \u00een regul\u0103, s\u0103 se apuce s\u0103 \u00eei vorbeasc\u0103.<br \/>\n<!--more--><br \/>\nM\u0103 recuno\u015fti?<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\u00centrebarea sun\u0103 firesc \u00een situa\u0163ia dat\u0103, iar nefiresc p\u0103rea s\u0103 fie numai r\u0103spunsul pozitiv pe care ea \u00eel a\u015ftepta de la el.<\/p>\n<p>Ar trebui?<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nEl \u00eei r\u0103spunse cu siguran\u0163\u0103 cum ea nu s-a a\u015fteptat, dar perfect normal, \u00een situa\u0163ia dat\u0103, s\u0103 fie precaut.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nEa se uit\u0103 la el \u015fi, \u00een toat\u0103 \u00eentinderea lui, nu z\u0103ri nimic din care s\u0103 \u00eel poat\u0103 recunoa\u015fte. Brusc se sim\u0163i ca \u015fi cum ar fi putut s\u0103 \u00eei vorbeasc\u0103 oric\u0103rui lui, f\u0103r\u0103 deosebire, \u015fi \u00een consecin\u0163\u0103, de aceea, se mai str\u00e2nse \u00een ea.<\/p>\n<p>Se pare c\u0103 nu m\u0103 mai recuno\u015fti, admise ea cu greutate.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\n\u00censeamn\u0103 c\u0103 ar trebui, de\u015fi nu o fac, pentru c\u0103 nu pot, ajunse el la aceast\u0103 concluzie absolut normal\u0103 \u00een circumstan\u0163ele prezente.<\/p>\n<p>Chiar ar trebui, \u00eei spuse ea str\u00e2mt\u00e2ndu-i din priviri \u00eentreaga lui \u00eentindere spitaliceasc\u0103.<\/p>\n<p>Atunci \u00eemi pare r\u0103u, regret\u0103 el c\u0103 nu \u015ftie cine este.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>Nu face nimic, z\u00e2mbi ea cu \u00een\u0163elegere. Trag n\u0103dejde, totu\u015fi, c\u0103 \u00ee\u0163i vei putea aminti cine sunt c\u00e2t de cur\u00e2nd. M\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc c\u0103 doctorii care te trateaz\u0103 vor fi \u00een stare s\u0103 \u00ee\u0163i aduc\u0103 \u015fi amintirile \u00eenapoi de unde le vei fi l\u0103sat.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nParc\u0103 ai \u00eencerca s\u0103 \u00eemi spui c\u0103 m\u0103 cuno\u015fti deja, observ\u0103 el familiaritatea aparent dubioas\u0103 cu care ea i se adresa.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nChiar te cunosc, continu\u0103 ea s\u0103 z\u00e2mbeasc\u0103 de parc\u0103 \u00eencerca s\u0103 \u00eei pun\u0103 \u00een mi\u015fcare amintirile cu ajutorul z\u00e2mbetelor sale pe care el \u00eenainte i le \u015ftia pe de rost.<\/p>\n<p>\u00cen\u0163eleg, se retrase el \u00een locul \u00een care ar fi trebuit s\u0103 \u00eel \u00eempresoare toate amintirile despre ea.<\/p>\n<p>Te cunosc din spital, ad\u0103ug\u0103 ea ajut\u0103tor.<\/p>\n<p>Din acest spital?<\/p>\n<p>El o \u00eentreb\u0103 a\u015fa ca \u015fi cum ar fi contat, \u00eentr-un fel sau altul, spitalul \u00een care l-ar fi cunoscut.<\/p>\n<p>\u00centocmai, confirm\u0103 ea pe un ton jos de z\u00e2mbete mnemotehnice.<\/p>\n<p>\u00censeamn\u0103 c\u0103 am mai \u015fi fost internat, observ\u0103 el analitic.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nCu siguran\u0163\u0103 ai mai fost, \u00eei confirm\u0103 ea. \u015ei, \u00eencepu s\u0103 adauge, nu ai fost prima oar\u0103 aici c\u00e2nd te-ai a\u015ftepta.<\/p>\n<p>El se uit\u0103 la ea foarte uimit \u015fi nu \u00een\u0163elegea cum ar fi putut ea s\u0103 \u015ftie la ce se a\u015ftepta el.<\/p>\n<p>\u015etii tu c\u00e2nd m-a\u015f a\u015ftepta \u015fi nu \u015ftiu eu?<\/p>\n<p>\u00centrebarea lui avea \u00een ea ceva din frustrarea amnezicului pus \u00een fa\u0163a propriei lui vie\u0163i str\u0103ine.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nB\u0103nuiesc, se retrase ea \u00een singurul r\u0103spuns care ar fi putut s\u0103 o ad\u0103posteasc\u0103 mai bine de suspiciunile sale.<\/p>\n<p>\u015ei ce b\u0103nuie\u015fti?<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\u00centreb\u0103rile lui urm\u0103toare p\u0103reau s\u0103 se fi \u00een\u0103l\u0163at \u00eentr-un fel ciudat de cer frustrant, c\u0103ruia el \u00eencepuse s\u0103 \u00eei simt\u0103 bolta impermeabil de goal\u0103.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\u00cemi \u00eenchipui, continu\u0103 ea din ad\u0103postul pe care \u00eentrebarea lui anterioar\u0103 i-l crease, c\u0103 te-ai fi a\u015fteptat s\u0103 fi fost aici cu foarte mult timp \u00een urm\u0103, de moment ce nu \u00ee\u0163i mai aminte\u015fti nici de mine, nici de internabilitatea ta anterioar\u0103.<\/p>\n<p>Vorbe\u015fti ciudat, observ\u0103 el ca \u015fi cum \u00een treac\u0103t.<\/p>\n<p>A\u015fa vorbeai tu \u00eenainte, \u00eei spuse ea.<\/p>\n<p>A\u015fa\u2026 ciudat?<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\n\u00centrebarea lui prezent\u0103 f\u0103cu instantaneu not\u0103 discordant\u0103 \u015fi se deta\u015f\u0103 de toate celelalte fiindc\u0103 \u00een punctul \u00eentreb\u0103rii sale se ascunse ceva ru\u015fine.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nExact. Dar m\u0103 obi\u015fnuisem cu felul t\u0103u de-a vorbi. \u00cencepuse s\u0103 \u00eemi \u015fi plac\u0103. \u00cel consideram unic, printre alte stiluri \u015fi, poate, de aceea m-am \u015fi sim\u0163it atras\u0103 de tine.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nEl se opri doar un moment, fiindc\u0103 voia s\u0103 o priveasc\u0103 mai bine \u015fi s\u0103 caute \u00een golul din amintirile sale un c\u00e2t de ne\u00eensemnat indiciu \u00een leg\u0103tur\u0103 cu ea \u015fi cu cine ar putea s\u0103 \u00eei fie lui, dar \u015fi fiindc\u0103 dorea s\u0103 revin\u0103 \u00een punctul pe care el credea c\u0103 ea \u00eel abandonase, probabil deliberat, al timpului la care s-ar fi a\u015fteptat.<\/p>\n<p>Logic, ai perfect\u0103 dreptate, \u00eei spuse el.<\/p>\n<p>Despre ce?<\/p>\n<p>\u00centrebarea ei p\u0103rea s\u0103 nu aib\u0103 niciun punct al \u00eentreb\u0103rii, at\u00e2t de fireasc\u0103 d\u0103dea impresia s\u0103 fie.<\/p>\n<p>C\u00e2nd m-a\u015f fi a\u015fteptat eu s\u0103 fiu prima oar\u0103 internat aici, decript\u0103 el oarecum criptic.<\/p>\n<p>Logic, am dreptate, consfin\u0163i ea. \u015ei ilogic?<\/p>\n<p align=justify>Nu \u015ftiu, nu \u015ftia el cu siguran\u0163\u0103. Cred c\u0103 nici nu m-am g\u00e2ndit la timpul \u00een care am fost aici prima dat\u0103. Deduc, totu\u015fi, din reac\u0163iile tale c\u0103 nu a fost foarte de mult, a\u015fa cum ai b\u0103nuit c\u0103 am crezut.<\/p>\n<p>Corect, \u00eei confirm\u0103 ea.<\/p>\n<p>Atunci c\u00e2nd?<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\u00centrebarea lui ar fi putut foarte bine s\u0103 \u00eei anuleze amnezia dac\u0103 s-ar fi aflat \u00eentr-un spital magic, \u015fi nu \u00eentr-unul c\u00e2t se poate de jude\u0163ean \u015fi de blocat \u00een timp.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nChiar ieri, \u00eei spuse ea f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 mai z\u00e2mbeasc\u0103 \u00een locul amintirilor sale impermeabile la z\u00e2mbetele ei.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nEl era profund uimit \u015fi frustrat c\u0103 nu \u015ftia de ce tot sim\u0163ea undeva \u00een \u00eenaltul s\u0103u teoretic un gol pronun\u0163\u00e2ndu-se din ce \u00een ce mai vizibil sub forma unui cer ca toate cerurile astronomice, dar totu\u015fi at\u00e2t de neobi\u015fnuit f\u0103r\u0103 nicio stea \u00een susul lui.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\n\u015ei ce s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat? \u015ei cum de am ajuns din nou \u00een spital? \u015ei de ce am fost internat \u00eenainte? \u015ei c\u00e2t am fost externat? \u015ei tu cine e\u015fti? \u015ei eu cine sunt? \u015ei noi ce \u00eensemn\u0103m pentru am\u00e2ndoi?<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\n\u00centreb\u0103rile lui continue le-ar fi dorit s\u0103 se aprind\u0103 \u00een stele ca cerul s\u0103u s\u0103 nu mai fie at\u00e2t de impermeabil la ele.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nEa \u00eei z\u00e2mbi \u015fi el avu pe moment ciudata senza\u0163ie c\u0103 ea e persoana care dorea s\u0103 \u00eel mute \u00een alt b\u0103rbat, dar nu putea s\u0103 fie chiar ea, g\u00e2ndi el logic, \u015fi respinse pe loc ipoteza ca nefondat\u0103, pentru c\u0103 se \u015ftia prea bine c\u0103 este un b\u0103rbat ce nu caut\u0103 nici aventuri \u015fi nici rela\u0163ii serioase prin spitalele \u00een care se putea nici s\u0103 nu fi fost, dar nu avea dec\u00e2t m\u0103rturisirea ei \u00een leg\u0103tur\u0103 cu acest am\u0103nunt din propria lui via\u0163\u0103 str\u0103in\u0103 \u015fi mai c\u0103 \u00eei venea s\u0103 nu o cread\u0103 pe cuv\u00e2nt.<\/p>\n<p>S\u0103 le lu\u0103m pe r\u00e2nd?<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nCiudat pentru el, dar ea chiar z\u00e2mbi fericit\u0103, ca \u015fi cum \u00eentreb\u0103rile ei multe i-ar fi spus ceva despre adev\u0103rata lui identitate.<\/p>\n<p>Eu pun multe \u00eentreb\u0103ri din fire?<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\n\u00centrebarea lui curent\u0103 \u00eencepu s\u0103 \u00eei erodeze imperceptibil amnezia \u00een care \u00eel cobor\u00e2ser\u0103 cerurile lui dou\u0103.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nNu a\u015f putea chiar s\u0103 spun c\u0103 e\u015fti interogativ, dar cam ai obiceiul s\u0103 \u00eentrebi despre tot felul de lucruri.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nEl risc\u0103 s\u0103 se abat\u0103 pu\u0163in de la \u00eentreb\u0103rile care \u00eei umpleau cel mai mult amintirile cu goluri semnificative fiindc\u0103 momentan se sim\u0163ea ca un copil de gr\u0103dini\u0163\u0103, foarte curios \u00een leg\u0103tur\u0103 cu cele mai \u00eempu\u0163inate nimicuri. De aceea o \u015fi \u00eentreb\u0103 despre ce fel de lucruri punea \u00eentreb\u0103ri \u015fi o rug\u0103 s\u0103 nu \u00eei r\u0103spund\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103 la \u00eentreb\u0103rile sale anterioare.<\/p>\n<p>\u015ei cam despre ce fel de lucruri puneam \u00eentreb\u0103ri?<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nEa se g\u00e2ndi pe moment \u015fi \u00eei spuse c\u0103 nu \u00ee\u015fi aminte\u015fte precis, dar nu puteau fi lucruri prea importante dac\u0103 nu \u00ee\u015fi putea aminti de niciunul.<\/p>\n<p>Cred c\u0103 nu puneai \u00eentreb\u0103ri esen\u0163iale, ci doar interesante.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\n\u00cen\u0163eleg, nu \u00een\u0163elegea el nimic \u015fi se hot\u0103r\u00ee, dac\u0103 tot nu \u00een\u0163elegea nimic din ce ea \u00ee\u015fi amintea despre el, s\u0103 revin\u0103 la \u00eentreb\u0103rile mai pu\u0163in interesante, dar esen\u0163iale.<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\nSe opri pe moment \u00een el \u015fi avu ciudata impresie c\u0103 golul din \u00eenaltul s\u0103u teoretic, pe care \u00eel numise de foarte cur\u00e2nd cer fizic, \u00eencepea s\u0103 se pr\u0103bu\u015feasc\u0103 din ce \u00een ce mai \u00een susul s\u0103u, de unde p\u0103rea s\u0103 \u00eel piard\u0103 pentru totdeauna din privirile interioare. De aceea \u00eei \u015fi spuse, oarecum \u00een criz\u0103 de timp, s\u0103 le ia pe r\u00e2nd, dar s\u0103 nu piard\u0103 din r\u0103spunsurile pe care avea s\u0103 i le dea nici chiar unul. Ea d\u0103du din cap \u00eentr-un mod straniu de familiar c\u0103 va fi c\u00e2t se poate de meticuloas\u0103, iar el se d\u0103du \u00eenc\u0103 o dat\u0103 la o parte, \u015fi de aceast\u0103 dat\u0103 nu doar pentru c\u0103 era femeie.<\/p>\n<p>(va urma)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>D\u0103-te la o parte. El se d\u0103du imediat la o parte fiindc\u0103 o femeie i-o ceruse. Femeia abia intrase \u00een salon c\u00e2nd \u00ee\u015fi d\u0103du seama c\u0103 el nu ie\u015fise nici p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een acel moment din toat\u0103 \u00eentinderea patului \u00een care fusese culcat. \u00cengrijorat\u0103, se apropie de marginea patului metalic \u015fi se aplic\u0103 asupra patului organic, [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[6,4,5],"class_list":["post-49","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-romanul-online","tag-literatura-virtuala-exclusiv-antuma","tag-patrick-calinescu","tag-roman-online"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6DakB-N","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/49","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=49"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/49\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1578,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/49\/revisions\/1578"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=49"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=49"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=49"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}