Nu mai am cuvinte pentru sf\u00e2r\u015fiturile pe care trebuie s\u0103 le \u00eencep. Am secat impermeabil, \u00ee\u015fi spuse el \u00een timp ce o privea cum \u00ee\u015fi desprinde s\u00e2nii \u00een dou\u0103 centre erotice imposibil de urmat.<\/p>\n
Sunt foarte \u00eendr\u0103gostit de tine, recunosc, recunoscu el, dar nu am s\u0103 fac dragoste cu tine oric\u00e2t de mult mi-a\u015f dori.<\/p>\n
Pe ea o mir\u0103 extrem s\u0103 \u00eel aud\u0103 vorbind astfel \u015fi mai ales s\u0103 \u00eel vad\u0103 contrazic\u00e2ndu-se \u00een continuare.<\/p>\n
Nu vrei s\u0103 intri \u00een mine, \u00een singurul loc \u00een care mai po\u0163i s\u0103 fii de unul singur \u00een afar\u0103 de sinuciderea ta personal\u0103?<\/p>\n
Ea r\u0103mase \u00een aceea\u015fi stare de uimire \u015fi se hot\u0103r\u00ee s\u0103 nu mai ias\u0103 din ea p\u00e2n\u0103 ce el nu se va decide s\u0103 intre \u00een ea.<\/p>\n
\u00centocmai, confirm\u0103 el cu jum\u0103tate de gur\u0103 fiindc\u0103 cealalt\u0103 jum\u0103tate nu scosese \u00eenc\u0103 niciun cuv\u00e2nt. A\u015ftepta probabil s\u0103 \u00eei vin\u0103 r\u00e2ndul, pe cale natural\u0103, dup\u0103 ce echivalenta ei se va usca de la sine.<\/p>\n
Ea devenea din ce \u00een ce mai contrariat\u0103 de refuzul s\u0103u categoric. \u00centr-un fel ru\u015finat\u0103 de situa\u0163ia \u00een care el o pusese \u015fi \u00eentr-altul furioas\u0103, \u00ee\u015fi \u00eempr\u0103\u015ftie centrele erotice \u00een periferiile lor vestimentare \u015fi, mai de cur\u00e2nd, \u00eencerca s\u0103 \u00een\u0163eleag\u0103 de ce a ales el s\u0103 refuze un lucru, cel pu\u0163in \u00een teorie, impermeabil la orice refuz masculin \u015fi, par\u0163ial, chiar \u015fi feminin.<\/p>\n
\u015ei nu vrei deloc s\u0103 intri \u00een mine?<\/p>\n
Ea insista s\u0103 \u00eel \u00eentrebe ceva f\u0103r\u0103 r\u0103spuns.<\/p>\n
Exact, veni, prompt, r\u0103spunsul ce \u00een mod normal nu ar fi putut s\u0103 vin\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u015ei chiar preferi locul singur al sinuciderii locului singur al fiin\u0163ei mele?<\/p>\n
Ea nu mai contenea s\u0103 \u00eel tot \u00eentrebe r\u0103spunsul imposibil de urmat fiindc\u0103, pur \u015fi simplu, nu se putuse \u00eenc\u0103 obi\u015fnui cu impermeabilitatea internabilit\u0103\u0163ii lui secunde la prima sa internabilitate.<\/p>\n
Parc\u0103 nici nu ar mai fi aceea\u015fi persoan\u0103 al c\u0103rei b\u0103rbat interior vreau s\u0103 mi-l \u00eensu\u015fesc, \u00ee\u015fi spuse ea hot\u0103r\u00e2t\u0103 s\u0103 nu cedeze a\u015fa de u\u015for inconsisten\u0163elor, probabil aparente, dintre persoanele internabilit\u0103\u0163ilor diferite pe care el le era.<\/p>\n
Dar continu\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eel interogheze \u015fi, eventual, s\u0103 \u00ee\u015fi \u0163in\u0103 centrele erotice, chiar dac\u0103 dispersate \u00een periferiile lor vestimentare, \u00een leg\u0103tur\u0103 permanent\u0103 cu vizaviile lor epidermice.<\/p>\n
Adic\u0103, nu se l\u0103sa ea cu una, cu dou\u0103 sau cu trei, vrei s\u0103 spui c\u0103 mai degrab\u0103 \u0163i-ai lua via\u0163a dec\u00e2t s\u0103-\u0163i iei un mic concediu \u00een mine?<\/p>\n
Sau, mai cur\u00e2nd, \u00eei r\u0103spunse el cu promptitudinea ce p\u0103rea s\u0103 \u00eei defineasc\u0103 fie curenta persoan\u0103 pe care o era, fie internabilitatea lui prezent\u0103.<\/p>\n
Ea nu mai \u015ftia ce s\u0103 spun\u0103 sau ce s\u0103 fac\u0103 \u015fi, at\u00e2t de confuz\u0103 cum era deocamdat\u0103, se hot\u0103r\u00ee \u00eentr-un fel de team\u0103 s\u0103 nu se decid\u0103 \u00een cu totul alt fel.<\/p>\n
Dar eu vreau\u2026, \u00eencerc\u0103 ea s\u0103 spun\u0103 ce vrea, dar el, cu un deget \u00een\u0103l\u0163at spre desprinderea centrelor ei erotice \u00een s\u00e2ni, nu o l\u0103s\u0103 fiindc\u0103, odat\u0103 pornite, nu ar mai fi \u015ftiut cum s\u0103 le controleze.<\/p>\n
Brusc, ea \u00ee\u015fi aduse aminte de cea mai recent\u0103 b\u00e2guial\u0103 a sa, pe care nu o \u00een\u0163elese nici c\u00e2t celelalte \u015fi, momentan, nu mai dorea s\u0103 \u00eei devin\u0103 lui singurul loc \u00een care putea s\u0103 se sinucid\u0103 \u015fi de unul singur, pentru c\u0103 intuia c\u0103 de \u00eens\u0103\u015fi \u00een\u0163elegerea ei depindea tot ce ar mai urma \u015fi tot ce \u00een consecin\u0163\u0103 ar trebui s\u0103 vin\u0103 dup\u0103 aceea. \u00ce\u015fi concentr\u0103 toat\u0103 aten\u0163ia asupra ei \u015fi \u00ee\u015fi f\u0103cu din \u00eentreaga ei descifrare singurul \u0163el din ziua actual\u0103.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2nd m-ai v\u0103zut c\u0103 vin c\u0103tre tine \u015fi dup\u0103 ce m-ai v\u0103zut c\u0103 m\u0103 opresc \u00een fa\u0163a ta, mi-ai zis ceva despre ni\u015fte cuvinte ce nu mai pot controla \u00eenceputul \u015fi sf\u00e2r\u015fitul sensului pe care ai vrut s\u0103 li-l dai, \u00eencerc\u0103 ea s\u0103 \u00een\u0163eleag\u0103 totul dintr-o singur\u0103 fraz\u0103 rezumabil\u0103.<\/p>\n
Dup\u0103 ce te-am v\u0103zut c\u0103 vii spre mine \u015fi dup\u0103 ce te-am v\u0103zut c\u0103 te opre\u015fti \u00een fa\u0163a mea, \u00eencepu el s\u0103 o corecteze, nu am spus defel ce ai zis tu c\u0103 am spus, ci cu totul altceva, pe care te rog s\u0103 \u00eel rememorezi \u015fi, dup\u0103 aceea, s\u0103 \u00eel \u00eenve\u0163i, \u00een consecin\u0163\u0103, pe de rost.<\/p>\n
\u00cen pauza dintre replica lui, abia consumat\u0103, \u015fi replica ei, deja \u00een consumare, un punct verde \u015fi \u00eenc\u0103 un punct verde se apropiar\u0103 unul de altul impermeabil de mult \u015fi, fiindc\u0103 nu avur\u0103 altceva mai bun de f\u0103cut, se aliniar\u0103 \u00een prima b\u0103taie a unei stele ce \u00eencepu astfel s\u0103 lumineze \u00een spa\u0163iul alocat tuturor persoanelor pe care le va putea el vreodat\u0103 fi. Foarte cur\u00e2nd dup\u0103 aceea, urm\u00e2ndu-le probabil exemplul, alte dou\u0103 puncte s\u0103rir\u0103 din vizaviile lor \u015fi se aliniar\u0103 \u00een str\u0103lucirea unei alte stele ce, deblocat\u0103 din realitatea pur \u015fi simplu punctual\u0103 \u00een care existase, o \u00eenso\u0163i pe cea deja format\u0103 pentru c\u0103 ea \u00eens\u0103\u015fi, abia \u00een formare, nu avea nicio alta \u00een jurul c\u0103reia s\u0103 \u00ee\u015fi orbiteze \u00eenso\u0163irea.<\/p>\n
Dar pauza dintre ei sau poate numai dintre ce aveau ei s\u0103 \u00ee\u015fi tot spun\u0103 se termin\u0103 \u015fi stelele ap\u0103rute \u00een timpul ei puteau foarte bine s\u0103 fie chiar \u015fi verzi.<\/p>\n
\u015ei nu mai aveau ele foarte mult p\u00e2n\u0103 s\u0103 \u00ee\u015fi \u00eentind\u0103 cerul existent de la bolta lui abia format\u0103, la bolta ei deja \u00een formare, dar niciunul dintre ei nu \u00ee\u015fi d\u0103dea seama ce se petrecea \u00eentre ei \u015fi nici nu \u00een\u0163elegeau ei c\u0103 un transplant de cer cum niciodat\u0103 nu mai avusese loc \u00eentre un b\u0103rbat \u015fi o femeie se derula \u00een chiar mijlocul lor impermeabil la orice persoan\u0103 le-ar fi putut s\u0103 fie.<\/p>\n
(sf\u00e2r\u015fit)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Nu mai am cuvinte pentru sf\u00e2r\u015fiturile pe care trebuie s\u0103 le \u00eencep. Am secat impermeabil, \u00ee\u015fi spuse el \u00een timp ce o privea cum \u00ee\u015fi desprinde s\u00e2nii \u00een dou\u0103 centre erotice imposibil de urmat. Sunt foarte \u00eendr\u0103gostit de tine, recunosc, recunoscu el, dar nu am s\u0103 fac dragoste cu tine oric\u00e2t de mult mi-a\u015f dori. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[6,4,5],"class_list":["post-5","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-romanul-online","tag-literatura-virtuala-exclusiv-antuma","tag-patrick-calinescu","tag-roman-online"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6DakB-5","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5"}],"version-history":[{"count":12,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":9,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5\/revisions\/9"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}