{"id":6160,"date":"2010-12-29T06:11:50","date_gmt":"2010-12-29T04:11:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=6160"},"modified":"2010-12-30T19:22:15","modified_gmt":"2010-12-30T17:22:15","slug":"iar-m-am-pisat-la-nisporeni","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=6160","title":{"rendered":"Iar m-am pi\u015fat la Nisporeni"},"content":{"rendered":"
Ion Buzu (Republica Moldova)<\/div>\n
for the English version please click here<\/a><\/em> <\/div>\n
<\/em> <\/div>\n<\/p>\n

Era \u00een perioada c\u00eend eram la frecven\u0163a redus\u0103 \u015fi treceam foarte rar pe la facultate. Aveam doar dou\u0103 s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00eeni pe semestru c\u00eeteva ore \u015fi cinci zile examene. \u00cen rest, nu aveam vreun motiv sau obliga\u0163ie care s\u0103 m\u0103 fac\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 trezesc, hai s\u0103 zic pe la 7.40, cum obi\u015fnuiam s\u0103 o fac timp de 13 ani c\u00eet am fost \u00een liceu. \u015ei spuneam c\u0103 trebuie s\u0103 fac ceva, m\u0103car s\u0103 improvizez un mic sens, ceva care s\u0103 func\u0163ioneze c\u00eet de c\u00eet, altceva \u00een afar\u0103 de dusul la veceu s\u0103 m\u0103 scoat\u0103 din cas\u0103. Sim\u0163eam cum \u00eencepeam s\u0103 putrezesc pu\u0163in c\u00eete pu\u0163in. M\u0103 vedeam cu foarte pu\u0163ini oameni, to\u0163i pe care \u00eei \u015ftiam au intrat pe la facult\u0103\u0163i \u015fi fiecare \u00ee\u015fi avea motorul s\u0103u. Mie \u00eemi r\u0103mase patul \u015fi internetul.<\/p>\n

\u00cemi veni ideea s\u0103 stau \u00een bibliotec\u0103 \u015fi s\u0103 citesc autorii pe care mereu \u00eei aveam \u00een minte. Erau Deleuze, Foucault, Jung, Nietzsche, Schopenhauer\u2026 Era o idee entuziasmant\u0103, adic\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 trezesc diminea\u0163a, s\u0103 urc \u00een autobuz doar ca s\u0103-l citesc pe Nietzsche. Dar de fiecare dat\u0103 adormeam pe masa la care citeam \u015fi m\u0103 trezeam tres\u0103rind \u00een dureri, apoi iar adormeam. Dou\u0103 \u2013 trei ore eram \u00een agonie, \u00eentre somn \u015fi stare de veghe, nu puteam \u00eentinde capul pe mas\u0103 c\u0103 m\u0103 puteau da afar\u0103, dar adormeam cu b\u0103rbia \u00een m\u00een\u0103, apoi cu capul pe o parte \u015fi cu capul aplecat. M\u0103 trezeam cu dureri de fa\u0163\u0103, g\u00eet \u015fi frunte oribile, de parc\u0103 ar fi lovit cineva \u00een capul meu. Ceilal\u0163i din sal\u0103 se tot uitau lung la mine c\u00eend tres\u0103ream din somn.
\n Pentru m\u00eencare nu-mi permiteam s\u0103 cheltui mult \u015fi \u00eemi luam ni\u015fte dulciuri mai ieftine de la cel mai aproapiat supermarket, plus dou\u0103 mere \u00een buzunar, cam asta era hrana mea pentru o zi. Uneori c\u00eend aveam \u00een buzunare doar bani de drum, cele dou\u0103 mere plus nep\u0103sarea mea \u00eemi erau suficiente. Ie\u015feam din sal\u0103 ca s\u0103 m\u0103n\u00eenc, dar uneori \u00eemi venea ideea s\u0103 dau la o parte toate c\u0103r\u0163ile din fa\u0163a mea, s\u0103 a\u015fez frumu\u015fel cele dou\u0103 mere, s\u0103 scot un cu\u0163it din buzunarul hainei \u015fi s\u0103 tai merele \u00een c\u00eete opt felii fiecare, s\u0103 le m\u0103n\u00eenc \u00eencet, cu ochii \u00eenchi\u015fi.<\/p>\n

A durat via\u0163a aceasta \u00een bibliotec\u0103 vreo trei luni. Poate mai mult. \u015ei mereu luam c\u0103r\u0163ile cele mai complexe de la sec\u0163ia filosofie. Mereu a\u015fteptam ca cineva dintre bibliotecare s\u0103-mi spun\u0103 c\u0103 sunt unul din rarii tipi care cite\u015fte asemenea c\u0103r\u0163i dificile, ba chiar nu a mai v\u0103zut pe nimeni s\u0103 se ating\u0103 de ele, c\u0103 m\u0103 admir\u0103 \u015fi ar vrea s\u0103 m\u0103 cunoasc\u0103, s\u0103 comunice cu mine, s\u0103 \u00eentrebe de ce tot vin \u00een fiecare zi \u015fi citesc c\u0103r\u0163i ne\u00een\u0163elese de cei mai mul\u0163i. Dar tipele acelea antipatice p\u0103l\u0103vr\u0103geau \u00eentreaga zi tulbur\u00eendu-mi lecturile \u015fi somnul dureros \u015fi nici m\u0103car nu-mi permiteau s\u0103-mi m\u0103n\u00eenc cele dou\u0103 mere a\u015fa cum eu \u00eemi imaginam.
\n \u00cen aceea\u015fi perioad\u0103 \u00eemi sim\u0163eam orice form\u0103 de voin\u0163\u0103 strivit\u0103, moart\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103 din mu\u015fchi, sau, m\u0103 rog, organul din care se na\u015fte; voin\u0163a z\u0103cea putrezit\u0103 \u00een mine. Acel Motor care odat\u0103 m\u0103 f\u0103cea s\u0103 merg acolo sau la acel magazin, la acea cl\u0103dire, s\u0103 iau acea can\u0103 sau orice ac\u0163iune; acum acel Motor se dovedi o iluzie am\u0103r\u00eet\u0103 timp de 13 ani, timp \u00een care nu am \u00eenv\u0103\u0163at nimic altceva dec\u00eet s\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u0163, pentru \u015fcoal\u0103. Devenisem cel mai inutil odat\u0103 ce am refuzat s\u0103 fiu o pies\u0103 \u00een Motor.
\n \u00cen perioada c\u00eend nimic nu se \u00eent\u00eempla, o, dar chiar nimic. Asta dura s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00eeni, luni \u00eentregi. Am ajuns s\u0103 nu \u00een\u0163eleg rostul vacan\u0163ei sau chiar al zilelor libere \u00een general, sim\u0163eam arbitrarietatea ca fiind la originea a tot. Eram mereu \u00een a\u015fteptare, a unui sunet de telefon sau mesaj din partea cuiva, \u00eens\u0103 numai cei de la orange m\u0103 b\u0103teau la cap cu op\u0163iunile \u015fi anun\u0163urile lor t\u00eempite. Tot a\u015fteptam un om s\u0103 intre \u015fi s\u0103 verifice dac\u0103 mai sunt viu, dac\u0103 mai sunt bun de ceva, dac\u0103 con\u015ftiin\u0163a \u00eemi e s\u0103n\u0103toas\u0103 c\u00eet s\u0103 pot ie\u015fi afar\u0103, la veceu; dac\u0103 nu am uitat c\u0103 exist\u0103 \u201eafar\u0103\u201d.
\n M\u0103 g\u00eendeam la colegii mei, care acum ar r\u00eede \u00een hohote de mine zic\u00eend ceva de genul: \u201euite \u00een ce hal a ajuns, \u00eenv\u0103\u0163a cel mai bine, ba chiar era un tip genial prin modul lui complex de a g\u00eendi \u015fi rezolva lucr\u0103ri la to\u0163i care \u00eei cerea s\u0103 o fac\u0103, mie tot mi-a rezolvat \u00een timpul recrea\u0163iilor c\u00eeteva exerci\u0163ii; credeam c\u0103 va \u00eenv\u0103\u0163a undeva la inginerie sau m\u0103 rog, undeva unde ar ajunge departe\u2026 dar privi\u0163i-l acum\u2026\u201d
\n.
\n Era \u00een timpul c\u00eend luasem dou\u0103 pastile, habar nu aveam pentru ce erau \u015fi de ce le-am \u00eenghi\u0163it, dar trebuia s\u0103 \u00eenghit ceva nou \u015fi sim\u0163eam c\u0103 o substan\u0163\u0103 diferit\u0103 intr\u0103 \u00een organismul meu, deci urma s\u0103 se \u00eent\u00eemple ceva nou. M\u0103 sim\u0163eam ciudat, \u00eemi venea s\u0103 caut alte pastile \u015fi s\u0103 le dau peste cap, orice tip de pastile a\u015f putea g\u0103si prin sertare, poate sim\u0163eam alte \u015fi alte st\u0103ri total noi \u015fi str\u0103ine mie. Dar am adormit la masa mea f\u0103r\u0103 a \u015fti dac\u0103 m\u0103 voi trezi. De fapt, chiar am pus pe masa de joc a\u015fa o provocare, ar putea dou\u0103 pastile necunoscute s\u0103 m\u0103 doboare, s\u0103 fie ultimul gest al meu \u00eenghi\u0163irea lor? M\u00eeine vom vedea. \u015ei \u00eenainte de a se \u00eentrerupe filmul con\u015ftiin\u0163ei \u00eemi veni un g\u00eend, nici cea mai vag\u0103 b\u0103nuial\u0103 nu am cum a ajuns la mine, g\u00eendul c\u0103 e timpul s\u0103-mi repar via\u0163a.
\nEra ora 11.34 ziua, m-am trezit la masa mea unde citeam. M-am ridicat, lampa era aprins\u0103, o can\u0103 st\u0103tea jos, nu era spart\u0103. Am ie\u015fit, mi-am pus ap\u0103 la fiert pentru un ceai \u015fi \u00eencercam s\u0103 \u00eemi tot amintesc de ce m-am trezit la masa de scris, cum am adormit acolo, ce e cu durerea de cap \u015fi \u00een special de stomac. Apoi imaginea ro\u015fie a pastilelor \u00eemi ap\u0103ru. Da, da, exact, provocarea. Cele dou\u0103 pastile necunoscute pe care le-am inghi\u0163it. Hm, se pare totu\u015fi c\u0103 nu au reu\u015fit, la naiba, nu a reu\u015fit nimic s\u0103 doboare, la fel de inutile ca \u015fi mine. Apoi g\u00eendul – s\u0103-mi repar via\u0163a. <\/p>\n

Am hot\u0103r\u00eet s\u0103 m\u0103 trezesc peste o zi la 6.30. C\u00eend m-am trezit \u00eemi veni brusc o durere resping\u0103toare de cap, \u00eemi spuneam: \u201ebre, hai c\u0103 \u00een\u0163eleg, vrei s\u0103-\u0163i repari via\u0163a, orice ar fi \u00eensemn\u00eend asta, dar nici chiar a\u015fa, deodat\u0103, la 6.30, dup\u0103 luni de trezire pe la 10-11; ia-o mai \u00eencet!\u201d Am aruncat c\u00ee\u0163iva pumni cu ap\u0103 peste fa\u0163\u0103, dar durerea de cap \u00eengrozitoare nu se opri. Era \u00eenc\u0103 \u00eentuneric afar\u0103 \u015fi \u00eemi spuneam c\u0103 foarte rar vedeam aceast\u0103 parte a zilei, la 6.40. de fapt, \u00eemi amintesc doar de vreo 5 ori \u00een acest an s\u0103 m\u0103 fi trezit la a\u015fa o or\u0103. Apoi am hot\u0103r\u00eet s\u0103 plec la o companie de sondaje sociologice pe unde am avut treab\u0103 cu ceva timp \u00een urm\u0103. Am primit c\u00eeteva chestionare pentru un sondaj pe care urma s\u0103-l fac \u00eentr-o localitate \u00eendep\u0103rtat\u0103 \u015fi ur\u00eet\u0103 de tot, Nisporeni.<\/p>\n

Iat\u0103-m\u0103 deci, \u00een mijlocul centrului raional Nisporeni unde am mai fost odat\u0103. Da, \u00eemi spun, uite cl\u0103direa prim\u0103riei, uite liceul. Uite barul \u00een care am intrat disperat, \u00eenjur\u00eend localitatea asta am\u0103r\u00eet\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 un indicator de str\u0103zi c\u00eet de vechi \u015fi cu litere slavone pe el, am intrat \u015fi am vrut s\u0103 beau ceva tare pentru a-mi face curaj, dar erau ni\u015fte tipi care \u00eencepeau s\u0103 \u00eentrebe de unde vin, ce anume caut pe aici, nu cumva speculez prin centrul lor raional, ce e cu haina asta albastr\u0103 pe care o port, de ce albastru; m-am enervat \u015fi am ie\u015fit. Ei, acum spun c\u0103 deja cunosc capcanele acestui loc, voi sc\u0103pa aproape f\u0103r\u0103 cicatrice. Po\u0163i fi surprins c\u00eet de bine capcanele \u00eei cunosc pe tipi ca mine care cred c\u0103, uite, chiar azi s-ar putea s\u0103 o scoat\u0103 la cap\u0103t f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 fie tras pe sfoar\u0103.<\/p>\n

Ei, pornesc eu cu 15 chestionare \u00een geant\u0103, fiecare av\u00eend 20 de pagini pline cu \u00eentreb\u0103ri ridicole la care a\u015f r\u00eede \u015fi eu dac\u0103 mi s-ar adresa, l-a\u015f trimite la plimbare chiar eu pe operatorul care ar vrea s\u0103 fac\u0103 un a\u015fa chestionar cu mine, dar, spre norocul sau nenorocul meu, eu sunt operatorul. Deci, \u00eemi spun, \u00ee\u0163i urez o ton\u0103 de noroc tipule, care ai ales s\u0103-\u0163i repari via\u0163a \u00een modul ista. \u00centreb\u0103rile erau despre gradul de criminalitate \u00een comunitate, gradul de securitate personal\u0103, cum justi\u0163ia \u00ee\u015fi face treaba. \u00centreb\u0103ri gen: vi s-a furat ma\u015fina, motocicleta, bicicleta, animale, obiecte din cas\u0103; a\u0163i fost agresat fizic, sexual, verbal; a\u0163i fost amenin\u0163at, cu sau f\u0103r\u0103 arm\u0103, a\u0163i raportat la poli\u0163ie, de ce\u2026<\/p>\n

Am umblat mai mult de dou\u0103 ore aiurea \u00een frig pe drumurile pline cu noroi f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 g\u0103sesc m\u0103car un om cu care s\u0103 fac un chestionar. Ce naiba! Unde sunte\u0163i cu to\u0163ii? Unde v-a\u0163i ascuns? \u00ce? Se pare c\u0103 s\u0103tenii s-au \u00een\u0163eles \u00eentre ei s\u0103 nu cumva s\u0103 apar\u0103 cineva care s\u0103 accepte s\u0103 fac\u0103 un chestionar, probabil dup\u0103 ce am fost data trecut\u0103 s\u0103tenii vorbeau \u00eentre ei ceva de genul: \u201eauzi\u0163i, hei, asculta\u0163i un pic, dac\u0103 vede\u0163i un b\u0103iat scund \u015fi ghebos \u00eembr\u0103cat \u00eentr-o geac\u0103 albastr\u0103 cu o geant\u0103 at\u00eern\u00eend pe um\u0103rul drept, \u00eenv\u00eertindu-se de colo colo f\u0103r\u0103 nici un sens de parc\u0103 s-a r\u0103t\u0103cit \u015fi habar nu are ce face aici, s\u0103 nu cumva s\u0103 ap\u0103re\u0163i \u00een fa\u0163a lui! nu, nu cumva s\u0103 \u00eencerca\u0163i asta; iar dac\u0103 se apropie \u00eencet de careva dintre voi \u015fi \u00eencepe a vorbi ciudat, trimite\u0163i-l la plimbare cu o replic\u0103, \u015fti\u0163i voi de care.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u015ei au dreptate, toat\u0103 ziua urlam \u00een mintea mea \u201ece caut eu aici, cum de am ajuns iar \u00een Nisporeniul acesta \u00eempu\u0163it, doar mi-am promis c\u0103 nu mai calc pe aici, nu, nu, chiar nu mai calc, nu!!\u201d Dar, \u00een sf\u00eer\u015fit, am g\u0103sit-o, st\u0103tea acolo, ascuns\u0103 bine. Da, a ap\u0103rut, \u00een sf\u00eer\u015fit am g\u0103sit-o. Soneria. At\u00eerna la o poart\u0103. Ah, drag\u0103 sonerie, nu-\u0163i imaginezi c\u00eet de mult te iubesc. M\u0103 apropii de ea \u015fi o ating fin de tot \u015fi z\u00ee\u00eerrrr, z\u00ee\u00eerrrr.
\nIese o femeie av\u00eend poate 45 de ani. \u00cencep s\u0103 tr\u0103nc\u0103nesc \u201em\u0103 numesc ion buzu, particip la un sondaj lansat de funda\u0163ia Soros privind gradul de infrac\u0163iune \u00een R.M., nivelul personal de securitate \u015fi c\u00eet de satisf\u0103cut\u0103 sunte\u0163i de activitatea organelor de justi\u0163ie, poli\u0163iene\u015fti\u2026\u201d. \u015ei \u00eencep s\u0103 citesc \u00eentreb\u0103rile din chestionar. \u00centreb ce crede despre activitatea judec\u0103torilor \u015fi \u00eemi r\u0103spunde c\u0103 nu a avut nici o leg\u0103tur\u0103 cu ei, nu poate r\u0103spunde,
\n\u201eei bine, dar \u00een opinia dvs, cum vi se pare c\u0103 \u00ee\u015fi fac datoria?\u201d
\n\u201enu \u015ftiu, n-am avut de a face cu nici unul\u201d. \u201eDar o p\u0103rere despre acest lucru ave\u0163i?\u201d
\n\u201eNu \u015ftiu, eu plec, mi se arde m\u00eencarea, gata!\u201d
\n\u015ei \u00eencuie u\u015fa.
\n \u00cen fine, e deja ora 13 \u015fi am un singur chestionar \u00eendeplinit din 15. Peste tot v\u0103d doar lan\u0163uri \u015fi lac\u0103te uria\u015fe at\u00eern\u00eend la por\u0163i, de parc\u0103 mi-ar face \u00een ciud\u0103, exlam\u00eend \u201eneeaah, loser ce e\u015fti, in your face!\u201d
\nGATA! <\/p>\n

Nu mai suport s\u0103 mai caut prin str\u0103zi cu case la sol.
\nO iau spre blocuri. Acolo vor fi mai multe sonerii. Doar m-am \u00eendr\u0103gostit de ele. Acolo nu voi mai vedea lan\u0163urile \u015fi lac\u0103tele uria\u015fe care-mi r\u00eed \u00een fa\u0163\u0103. Dar \u00een scurt timp \u015fi soneriile s-au dovedit a fi o falsitate, ba chiar o batjocur\u0103. V\u0103z\u00eend toate lac\u0103turile la por\u0163i mi-am dat seama c\u0103 majoritatea datelor statistice sunt o minciun\u0103. Popula\u0163ia reprezentativ\u0103, adic\u0103 e\u015fantionul selectat pentru chestionar fie nu este acas\u0103, fie nu are timp, fie nu-i. Deci r\u0103m\u00een pensionarii, cei f\u0103r\u0103 slujbe, cei deprima\u0163i, cei \u00een concediu. Cifrele pentru care acum m\u0103 t\u00eer\u00eei de colo-colo s\u0103 g\u0103sesc oameni care s\u0103-mi r\u0103spund\u0103 nu sunt demne de a fi crezute.<\/p>\n

\u00cen fine, ajung la blocuri \u015fi intru \u00eentr-o cl\u0103dire, ap\u0103s \u015fi z\u00ee\u00eerrrrrr. Iese un tip cu gura plin\u0103, mestec\u00eend nu \u015ftiu ce m\u00eencare, pe barb\u0103 i se scurgea o \u015fuvi\u0163\u0103 din sucul m\u00eenc\u0103rii din gur\u0103 \u015fi zice \u201ece vrei b\u0103\u00b4?\u201d. Eu iar \u00eencep a tr\u0103nc\u0103ni \u201ereprezint compania de sondaje sociologice care la solicitarea\u2026\u201d. Iar el se opre\u015fte din mestecat, se uit\u0103 la mine mirat \u015fi \u00een acela\u015fi timp foarte confuz, se uit\u0103 la picioarele mele, \u00eemi m\u0103soar\u0103 \u00een\u0103l\u0163imea cu ochii, clipe\u015fte de c\u00eeteva ori, se uit\u0103 la foile cu \u00eentreb\u0103ri care le \u0163in \u00een m\u00eeini, clipe\u015fte, apoi spune \u201edu-te b\u0103i de aici \u015fi d\u0103-mi pace!\u201d intr\u0103 \u00eenapoi \u015fi tr\u00eente\u015fte u\u015fa dup\u0103 el. <\/p>\n

Trebuia s\u0103 notez toate refuzurile \u015fi motivul lor. \u015ei apoi venir\u0103, din ce \u00een ce mai multe, refuzurile \u015fi sunetul u\u015fii tr\u00eentite. Replicile: \u201eN-am timp.\u201d \u201eNu vreau.\u201d Nu merit\u0103, degeaba umbli.\u201d \u201eCe? Nee, \u00een nici \u00eentr-un caz, nu vezi c\u0103 eu n-am treab\u0103 cu a\u015fa ceva.\u201d \u201eNu \u00een\u0163eleg nimic din ce spui.\u201d \u201eGata, am \u00een\u0163eles, d\u0103-i drumul de aici.\u201d deveneau unicele lucruri auzite \u00een urm\u0103toarele 2 ore.
\nDeja nu le mai notam c\u0103 deveneau plictisitoare \u015fi nici m\u0103car nu m\u0103 mai f\u0103ceau s\u0103 r\u00eed. Ba chiar \u00eemi venea s\u0103 m\u0103 a\u015fez undeva jos \u015fi s\u0103 \u00eencep a pl\u00eenge, c\u0103-s un fraier c\u0103 m-am trezit, ba \u00eenc\u0103 la 6 \u015fi jum\u0103tate. S\u0103 m\u0103 urc naibii \u00een microbuz, s\u0103 ajung acas\u0103, s\u0103 caut iar tot felul de pastile, s\u0103 le \u00eenghit \u015fi s\u0103 adorm.
\nSun la o alt\u0103 u\u015f\u0103 \u015fi un domn \u00een c\u0103ma\u015f\u0103 brun\u0103 deschise. \u00cencep cu introducerea mea \u015fi el \u201ehai intr\u0103, nu e frumos s\u0103 stai afar\u0103. Ia loc, sunt sigur c\u0103 e\u015fti obosit \u015fi picioarele te omor de durere\u201d. Eu, confuz de tot \u00eemi spun \u201ece \u00eenseamn\u0103 asta, tot \u00een Nisporeni m\u0103 aflu, de ce a acceptat s\u0103 r\u0103spund\u0103, nu e normal, ceva e dubios \u00een acest om\u201d
\nDeci, m\u0103 apuc s\u0103 citesc \u00eentreb\u0103rile.
\n\u201eAve\u0163i arm\u0103?\u201d.
\n \u201eDa, sigur c\u0103 am, pu\u015fc\u0103 de v\u00een\u0103toare. Acu\u015f \u0163i-o ar\u0103t.\u201d
\n\u201eNu, nu, nu. Nu e nevoie. V\u0103 rog, s\u0103 continu\u0103m interviul\u2026\u201d \u015fi v\u0103d m\u00eenerul gros, v\u0103d tr\u0103gaciul, v\u0103d \u0163eava, v\u0103d pic\u0103tura de transpira\u0163ie c\u0103zut\u0103 de pe frunte pe m\u00eena mea, v\u0103d piciorul meu trmur\u00eend, v\u0103d pieptul meu mi\u015fc\u00eendu-se \u00een sus \u015fi \u00een jos din ce \u00een ce mai repede.
\n\u201eUite-o, e o pu\u015fc\u0103 destul de bun\u0103. Prive\u015fte \u015fi permisul, e tot legal, scrie acolo \u00een foile tale c\u0103 e tot legal, scrie.\u201d
\n\u201e\u00ceh\u00ee, mul\u0163umesc mult, am scris.\u201d
\nDeja eram pe jum\u0103tate paralizat de fric\u0103, tipul ar putea fi pe jum\u0103tate dus. Nu se \u015ftie niciodat\u0103. Adic\u0103, m-a primit \u00een cas\u0103 \u015fi e dispus s\u0103 r\u0103spund\u0103 la \u00eentreb\u0103rile mele ridicole; m-a\u015f mira s\u0103 nu fie pe jum\u0103tate dus.
\nLa final cer numele, iar el se duce la un seif de-al lui, de acolo de unde scoase arma. Descuie cu cheia. Rahat! \u00cemi spun:tipul poate e dus chiar mai mult de jum\u0103tate, acu\u015f scoate pu\u015fca \u015fi bah! creierii mei decor\u00eendu-i apartamentul. Niciodat\u0103 nu po\u0163i \u015fti pentru ce \u015fi cui po\u0163i fi util, niciodat\u0103 nu m-am v\u0103zut decor\u00eend apartamente, \u00een special \u00een modul acesta. Tipul, posibil s\u0103 fie ca mine. Dr\u0103gu\u0163, decent, lucid, amabil, suportabil, ca \u00een final s\u0103 o ia complet razna \u015fi s\u0103-mi deformeze craniul. Apoi s\u0103 se a\u015feze, s\u0103-\u015fi aprind\u0103 o \u0163igar\u0103, s\u0103 priveasc\u0103 la geam, la s\u00eengele de pe podea, s\u0103 fumeze, s\u0103 vad\u0103 ce marc\u0103 de \u0163igar\u0103 \u0163ine \u00een m\u00een\u0103, s\u0103 fumeze, s\u0103 priveasc\u0103 atent bricheta, s\u0103 priveasc\u0103 pe geam la copiii care se joac\u0103 \u015fi c\u00eent\u0103 chestii \u00eenv\u0103\u0163ate \u00een clasele primare, s\u0103 se ridice \u015fi s\u0103 zic\u0103 \u201ece s-a \u00eent\u00eemplat?\u201d Dar domnul scoase buletinul \u015fi mi-l \u00eentinse:
\n\u201e\u0163ine, nu vreau s\u0103 dau nimic fals, scrie tot de ce ai nevoie.\u201d
\nApoi m\u0103 ridic \u015fi eu, \u00eei mul\u0163umesc, iar el:
\n\u201euite, o cafea nu am timp s\u0103 fac, dar \u0163ine ni\u015fte mere. Pe drum mai arunci unul \u00een gur\u0103, \u015ftiu c\u0103 \u0163i-e foame \u015fi greu. \u015etiu cum e s\u0103-\u0163i fie foame \u015fi greu.\u201d
\n\u201eV\u0103 mul\u0163umesc mult.\u201d
\n\u201eEu \u00ee\u0163i mul\u0163umesc mult c\u0103 ai trecut la mine \u015fi ai vorbit. Chiar mi-a f\u0103cut pl\u0103cere. Nu prea trec oameni pe la apartamentul meu, soneria nu a sunat de o bun\u0103 bucat\u0103 de vreme. Credeam c\u0103 nu mai func\u0163ioneaz\u0103. De aia am z\u0103bovit c\u00eend ai sunat, nu \u00een\u0163elegeam ce e cu z\u00eern\u0103itul \u0103sta.\u201d
\n\u201eMda, v\u0103 \u00een\u0163eleg, cunosc senza\u0163ia. M\u0103 bucur \u015fi eu. Poate mai trec pe la dvs data viitoare.\u201d
\n\u201eNumai bine.\u201d
\nCoboram sc\u0103rile \u015fi m\u0103 g\u00eendeam c\u0103 este ca \u015fi mine, tipul se simte singur de tot \u015fi peste tot. At\u00eet de mult \u00eel admiram. Poate un fel de tip mai mult de jum\u0103tate \u0163icnit, ca mine. M\u0103 tot uitam la merele pe care mi le-a dat \u015fi nu \u00eencetam s\u0103 fiu uimit.
\nApoi, parc\u0103 zeii au \u00eenceput s\u0103-mi fac\u0103 cu ochiul \u015fi refuzurile au luat o pauz\u0103. Se mai g\u0103sea c\u00eete un cuplu t\u00een\u0103r care spuneau \u201ebine, sigur, am timp c\u00eet e necesar\u201d. Intru \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103ria lor \u015fi fac chestionarul cu b\u0103iatul. Ajung la \u00eentrebarea dac\u0103 a fost agresat sexual, dar nu spun sexual, spun fizic \u015fi acesta spune da. El \u00een\u0163elese dac\u0103 a fost b\u0103tut, eu am scris c\u0103 a fost agresat sexual.
\n\u201eC\u00eete persoane erau implicate?\u201d
\n\u201eTrei.\u201d
\n\u201eUnde a avut loc incidentul?\u201d
\n\u201e\u00cen fa\u0163a blocului.\u201d
\n\u201eA\u0163i raportat poli\u0163iei?\u201d
\n\u201eNu.\u201d
\n\u201eDe ce?\u201d
\n\u201eNu a fost grav.\u201d
\n\u201e Aha, \u00een\u0163eleg.V\u0103 mul\u0163umesc.\u201d
\n\u015ei plec. <\/p>\n

Mai era c\u00eete un om \u00een v\u00eerst\u0103 ce avea bun\u0103voin\u0163a s\u0103 m\u0103 cheme \u00een\u0103untru, ba chiar s\u0103 deconecteze televizorul \u015fi s\u0103 dea aragazul mai \u00eencet. Am f\u0103cut opt chestionare \u00een total \u015fi deja sc\u0103pam microbuzul. Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 alerg, dar m\u0103 cam \u00eencurcam prin cl\u0103dirile astea. Fug, fug \u2013 rahat, alte cl\u0103diri. Fug \u00een alt\u0103 direc\u0163ie \u2013 nu \u00een\u0163eleg, de ce aici sunt tufi\u015furi \u015fi, da, sigur, alte cl\u0103diri; sta\u0163i b\u0103i pu\u0163in, ce se \u00eent\u00eempl\u0103, unde-i drumul? M\u0103 uit la ceas 17.06, microbuzul e la 17.30 sau la 17.00? O, nu, s\u0103 fie la 17.30, altfel am p\u0103\u0163it-o. Nisporeni e la 80 de km de Chi\u015fin\u0103u, \u00een buzunar am exact 24 de lei, doar pentru drum. Cine s\u0103 se t\u00eerasc\u0103 la 80 de kilometri de Chi\u015fin\u0103u doar ca s\u0103 m\u0103 ia? M\u0103 tot \u00eenv\u00eertesc prin printre cl\u0103dirile alea \u015fi, apare un b\u0103rbat, \u0163inea m\u00eeinile \u00een buzunare \u015fi fluiera. \u00centreb:
\n\u201eM\u0103 scuza\u0163i, cum pot ajunge la prim\u0103rie?\u201d
\n\u201eLa st\u00eenga \u015fi \u00eenainte, apoi tot la st\u00eenga \u015fi tot \u00eenainte.\u201d
\n\u201eMul\u0163umesc.\u201d- \u00eei strig din fug\u0103.
\nDeja respiram greu de tot \u015fi m\u0103 durea \u00eentr-o parte; c\u00eend eram a 12-a am numit organele \u00eentr-o-partea st\u00eeng\u0103 \u015fi \u00eentr-o-partea dreapt\u0103, ei pe mine m\u0103 durea \u00eentr-o-partea dreapt\u0103. Dar, hei, ce vrei de la mine, e deja 17.15 \u015fi nici nu-s sigur dac\u0103 ultimul microbuz e la 17.30. \u015ei, ajung la gar\u0103, v\u0103d microbuzul, \u00eenc\u0103 nu a pornit, sunt salvat, din nou. Hooo. 17.25. Stau dou\u0103 minute s\u0103-mi revin \u015fi \u00eemi zic c\u0103 ar trebui s\u0103 g\u0103sesc un veceu sau ni\u015fte copaci sau m\u0103car un zid surp\u00eendu-se\u2026.orice, am de mers dou\u0103 ore \u015fi Iisuse, am \u0163inut \u00een mine azi toat\u0103 ziua \u015fi tot am sorbit din cafeaua pe care mi-a turnat-o \u00eentr-o sticl\u0103 de Pepsi. Hm, nu degeaba locuitorii aveau ciud\u0103 pe mine, g\u00eendeau probabil \u201euite, nenorocitul acela mic, bea Pepsi, iar eu ap\u0103 chioar\u0103, cum adic\u0103, eu s\u0103-i r\u0103spund \u015fi el s\u0103 bea \u00een continuare Pepsi pe seama mea, s\u0103 primeasc\u0103 bani de la chestionarele pe care le face cu mine, iar eu tot cu ap\u0103 chioar\u0103 s\u0103 o duc? Neeeee. Ia las\u0103!\u201d
\n\u00cen microbuz \u00eemi deschid geanta \u015fi v\u0103d merele. Iau unul. Mu\u015fc. M\u0103rul unui singuratic \u0163in\u00eendu-\u015fi pu\u015fca \u00eentr-un seif al\u0103turi de buletin \u015fi permisul de conducere, aproape \u0163icnit, aproape ca mine.
\n\u201eA\u015fa, 1,2,3,4,5,6\u202616. Gata, pornim.\u201d- spuse \u015foferul \u015fi incluse o muzic\u0103 popular\u0103 pentru nun\u0163i.
\nA doua zi, pe la 6.30 aveam deja ochii deschi\u015fi, sau cel pu\u0163in \u00eencercam s\u0103-i \u0163in deschi\u015fi.
\n\u00cen fine, trebuia s\u0103 termin celelalte 7 chestionare. Dar aveam o fric\u0103 \u00een g\u00eet. At\u00eetea refuzuri. At\u00ee\u0163ia care nu-s acas\u0103. Pe bune, Nisporeniul are imunitate bun\u0103 la operatori de sondaje, cum m-a\u015f putea pune eu cu a\u015fa ceva? Nu \u015ftiam, s\u0103 cobor din pat sau s\u0103 o las balt\u0103. Totu\u015fi am cobor\u00eet \u015fi am pornit spre gar\u0103.
\nAm ajuns totu\u015fi la Nisporeni dup\u0103 ce v\u0103zusem 3 ma\u015fini de-ale pompierilor la mine \u00een sat. Seara am aflat c\u0103 posibil cineva s\u0103 fi dat foc la casa de cultur\u0103. Ei bine, fiind la Nisporeni, am luat-o \u00een alt\u0103 direc\u0163ie \u015fi mergeam, tot mergeam \u015fi mergeam. Nici o cas\u0103. Nici o cas\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 lac\u0103tul pus, nimic. Am tot mers \u015fi mers, tot c\u0103ut\u00eend \u015fi rug\u00eendu-m\u0103 s\u0103 apar\u0103 cineva. Am tot mers a\u015fa mai mult de trei ore \u015fi nu aveam nimic f\u0103cut, spuneam \u00eentr-una \u201eDoamne, ce se \u00eent\u00eempl\u0103, ce-i cu locul ista, unde-s to\u0163i, s\u0103 se fi \u00een\u0163eles s\u0103 se ascund\u0103, \u00eentr-o noapte oare chiar au reu\u015fit s\u0103-i anun\u0163e pe to\u0163i. Sau poate eu oi fi retardat, un tip special de boal\u0103 mental\u0103, \u00eenc\u0103 nedescoperit\u0103. Poate ar trebui s\u0103 m\u0103 predau autorit\u0103\u0163ilor, s\u0103-mi studieze cazul rar de retardare.\u201d
\n\u015ei, se \u00eent\u00eempl\u0103. Ie\u015fi un b\u0103iat pu\u0163in mai \u00eenalt ca mine, privea \u00een jos. \u00cei explic cine sunt \u015fi cu ce m\u0103 ocup \u015fi de ce am nevoie s\u0103-mi r\u0103spund\u0103, el deschise u\u015fa, se d\u0103 \u00een urm\u0103 cu c\u00ee\u0163iva pa\u015fi, privind jos spuse \u00eencet de tot \u201eIntr\u0103!\u201d \u00cencep s\u0103-i adresez \u00eentreb\u0103rile:
\n\u201eV\u00eersta?\u201d.
\nPrivea jos, a\u015ftept\u0103 vreo 30 de secunde \u015fi f\u0103r\u0103 a ridica ochii spuse
\n\u201e20\u201d
\n\u015ei tot privea jos, un punct fix sau doar jos.
\n\u201eCrede\u0163i c\u0103 nivelul criminalit\u0103\u0163ii \u00een localitatea dvs. a crescut, a r\u0103mas acela\u015fi sau a sc\u0103zut?\u201d.
\nPrivea jos \u015fi uneori doar f\u0103cea mi\u015fc\u0103ri lente din cap, f\u0103r\u0103 a ridica privirea.
\n\u201eA r\u0103mas acela\u015fi\u201d \u2013 zise.
\nA\u015ftept\u0103 vreo jum\u0103tate de minut dup\u0103 fiecare \u00eentrebare. S\u0103 fi fost semiautist? R\u0103spundea greu \u015fi privea doar jos. I-am mul\u0163umit, el a dat din cap \u015fi a r\u0103spuns \u00eencet, tot cu capul \u00een jos,
\n\u201eCu pl\u0103cere, drum bun.\u201d
\nSe \u00eentoarse \u015fi merse \u00eencet, parc\u0103 m\u0103sur\u00eend distan\u0163a cu t\u0103lpile, parc\u0103 t\u00eer\u00eendu-se.<\/p>\n

M-am dus la alt bloc, am sunat la o u\u015f\u0103. O femeie iese \u015fi-mi spune:
\n\u201eNu, nu, noi nu putem r\u0103spunde la a\u015fa \u00eentreb\u0103ri, nu ne ocup\u0103m cu a\u015fa ceva, criminalitate, nu; \u00eencearc\u0103 vizavi.\u201d
\nSun la apartamentul vizavi, iese un b\u0103iat de vreo 26 de ani \u015fi spune:
\n\u201eM\u0103 scuzi, nu am timp, acum m\u0103n\u00eenc \u015fi dup\u0103 asta la serviciu, \u00eencearc\u0103 vizavi (apartamentul femeii dinainte) cei de acolo au tot timpul, eu cer scuze\u201d.
\nIntru \u00een alt\u0103 cl\u0103dire, sun la o u\u015f\u0103, iese un tip c\u0103sc\u00eend a somn. Eu spun c\u0103 fac un sondaj la solicitarea funda\u0163iei Soros \u015fi toate alea. El casc\u0103 \u015fi spune:
\n\u201eNu, eu\u2026ei nu m\u0103 pricep eu la a\u015fa ceva, credeam c\u0103 vrei ceva de m\u00eencare, taman un leu \u0163ineam \u00een m\u00een\u0103, dar chestionare\u2026nu. A, da, \u015fi \u00een aceast\u0103 cl\u0103dire nu mai e nimeni, sus e un b\u0103rbat ca \u015fi mine, nu cred c\u0103 \u00ee\u0163i va r\u0103spunde, a\u015fa c\u0103\u2026\u201d
\nEi, dar se mai ivea c\u00eete cineva care d\u0103dea din umeri \u201efie, dac\u0103 numai zece minute, hai, spune.\u201d C\u00eet de tare \u00eei iubeam pe ace\u015fti oameni, nu pot spune acela\u015fi lucru despre ei fiindc\u0103 d\u0103deau din cap a ciud\u0103 \u015fi tot spuneau \u201eparc\u0103 ai zis c\u0103 numai zece minute, deja stau \u00een fa\u0163a ta de 25 minute; m\u0103i da\u00ac\u0491 mare e biblia asta a ta\u201d.
\nIntru \u00een holul unei fete care locuia cu mama ei. \u00centreb citind de pe foaie dac\u0103 a fost amenin\u0163at\u0103. Zice c\u0103 da.
\n\u201eCu sau f\u0103r\u0103 arm\u0103?\u201d
\n\u201eCu arm\u0103.\u201d
\n\u00cemi face semn s\u0103 vorbesc mai \u00eencet, s\u0103 nu aud\u0103 mama ei. Eu m\u0103 apropii. \u00cemi spune c\u0103 nu a amenin\u0163at-o chiar a\u015fa grav, doar a fluturat arma \u00een fa\u0163a ei. Era un fost iubit. Termin chestionarul si ies.
\nSun la alt\u0103 u\u015f\u0103 \u015fi iese o \u0163iganc\u0103 gras\u0103. Se apuc\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eenjure. Iese un b\u0103rbat \u015fi o potole\u015fte. Din\u0103untru aud: alung\u0103-l pe t\u00eempitul acela, nu vezi c\u0103 te proste\u015fte?!\u201d B\u0103rbatul \u00eei r\u0103spunde:\u201dtaci, intr\u0103 \u00eenapoi \u015fi taci c\u0103 mie-mi e interesant.\u201d
\n\u00cel \u00eentreb ce penalitate crede c\u0103 ar trebui s\u0103 suporte un t\u00een\u0103r care \u00een via\u0163a lui nu a furat, dar comite totu\u015fi un furt, un televizor color.
\n\u201eP\u0103i, munc\u0103 pentru comunitate. Nu, nu \u00eenchisoare, e prea grav.\u201d
\nPun alt\u0103 \u00eentrebare:
\n\u201eA\u0163i fost agresat sexual?\u201d
\n\u201eA\u015f vrea eu. Nu, sunt blocat cu, ai v\u0103zut tu cu cine \u015fi nu am avut fericita ocazie s\u0103 fiu agresat sexual\u2026\u201d
\nTermin chestionarul \u015fi caut alt apartament.
\n\u00cen final, ora 16.25, \u00eemi deschide un b\u0103tr\u00eenel, cam de statura mea, cu chelie, z\u00eembind, m\u0103 cheam\u0103 \u00een\u0103untru. \u201eIa loc, acolo, da, pe fotoliu, ei, de-amu stai a\u015fa, da.\u201d
\n\u00cemi d\u0103 num\u0103rul de telefon de la \u00eenceput. Trebuia s\u0103 iau numerele de telefon la to\u0163i responden\u0163ii deoarece oamenii de la birou s\u0103 verifice dac\u0103 \u00eentr-adev\u0103r am vorbit cu ei, dac\u0103 nu am falsificat chestionarele. M-apuc s\u0103-l \u00eentreb de infrac\u0163iuni:
\n\u201ecrede\u0163i c\u0103 nivelul infrac\u0163iunilor a crescut \u00een ultimii 5 ani?\u201d.
\n\u201eUite, eu am slujit \u00een armata german\u0103. Am \u015fi medalie, pot s\u0103 o ar\u0103t. \u015ei acum Igor e \u00een Italia. Da, \u00een Italia, am r\u0103mas singur, numai cu un om care nici nu-l cunosc bine st\u0103 toat\u0103 ziua la mine \u00eembr\u0103cat \u00een pijama. Dar Igor nu a venit de mult, mai trimite c\u00eete ceva bani. Igor \u2013 fiul meu.\u201d
\n\u201eDa, dar despre infrac\u0163iuni, ce crede\u0163i, a crescut nivelul lor sau nu?\u201d
\n\u201eEu \u00ee\u0163i pot spune c\u0103 am slujit \u00een armata german\u0103, dar acum m-am apucat de b\u0103ut. \u00ces un be\u0163iv, trec zilnic pe la barul din col\u0163ul acela, \u00eel vezi? P\u0103i de acolo zilnic \u00eemi iau de b\u0103ut \u015fi m\u0103 simt bine.\u201d
\nTu\u015fe\u015fte \u015fi spune:
\n\u201e\u00eemi cer scuze, dar \u00een\u0163elegi, eu beau \u015fi, \u00eemi cer scuze.\u201d
\n\u00cemi z\u00eembe\u015fte \u015fi iar tu\u015fe\u015fte. Pun alt\u0103 \u00eentrebare:
\n\u201edispune\u0163i \u00een gospod\u0103ria dvs de biciclet\u0103?\u201d
\n\u201eDa, am, acu\u015f \u0163i-o ar\u0103t. Am \u015fi doi nepo\u0163i, Vasea \u015fi Ani\u015foara, acu\u015f \u0163i-i ar\u0103t. Ehe, apoi cu bicicleta eu m\u0103 duc s\u0103-mi cump\u0103r de b\u0103ut.\u201d
\nM\u0103 conduce \u00eentr-un salon \u015fi \u00eemi arat\u0103 ni\u015fte fotografii.
\n\u201eUite nepo\u0163ii. Uite, aici sunt eu c\u00eend aveam p\u0103r. Uite \u015fi bicicleta, hahaha.\u201d
\nZ\u00eembeam am\u00eendoi. El tot tu\u015fea \u015fi \u00ee\u015fi cerea scuze \u015fi \u00eemi tot amintea c\u0103 bea, c\u0103 a slujit \u00een armata german\u0103, dar acum e be\u0163iv, nu prea face nimic \u015fi c\u0103 se simte bine a\u015fa. Am dat m\u00eena \u015fi i-am mul\u0163umit. Am ie\u015fit, aproape bucuros, aproape mirat. Nu \u015ftiu, se pare c\u0103 oamenii decen\u0163i de aici sunt cei suci\u0163i, mi-am zis.<\/p>\n

Iar am alergat la microbuz, cu frica c\u0103 alerg \u00een direc\u0163ia gre\u015fit\u0103. Dar totu\u015fi am ajuns la gar\u0103. Iar m-am pi\u015fat l\u00eeng\u0103 un zid ruinat \u015fi am sim\u0163it un fel de eliberare care mi-a lipsit mult timp.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Ion Buzu (Republica Moldova) for the English version please click here Era \u00een perioada c\u00eend eram la frecven\u0163a redus\u0103 \u015fi treceam foarte rar pe la facultate. Aveam doar dou\u0103 s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00eeni pe semestru c\u00eeteva ore \u015fi cinci zile examene. \u00cen rest, nu aveam vreun motiv sau obliga\u0163ie care s\u0103 m\u0103 fac\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 trezesc, hai s\u0103 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[704,393],"tags":[1151,360,54],"class_list":["post-6160","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-egophobia-29-30","category-prozascurta","tag-egophobia-29-30","tag-ion-buzu","tag-proza-scurta"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6DakB-1Bm","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6160","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6160"}],"version-history":[{"count":6,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6160\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6339,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6160\/revisions\/6339"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6160"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6160"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6160"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}