{"id":6451,"date":"2011-01-18T22:31:41","date_gmt":"2011-01-18T20:31:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=6451"},"modified":"2011-02-02T21:25:07","modified_gmt":"2011-02-02T19:25:07","slug":"poems-by-stefan-bolea-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=6451","title":{"rendered":"Poems by \u015etefan Bolea"},"content":{"rendered":"

uproar<\/strong><\/p>\n

translated by Joan Michelson & Andreea Banciu [MTTLC student]<\/p>\n

I do not fear hell, but the purgatory
\nI have survived \u2013 the deafening fires.
\nI even had my faction.
\nwe called ourselves the bloody ones
\nbecause the waking nights burst in our eyes
\nand inside the umber iris. <\/p>\n

an ascetic can create his own hell
\nfrom a probe to his character.
\nI haven\u2019t felt the need to probe,
\nnot this curiosity. I was simply
\nthrown into hell like meat from a slaughter house.<\/p>\n

I managed as I always do.
\nSo they failed to break me.<\/p>\n

they tried to choke, muzzle, suffocate.
\nIt was a proper training.
\nThen the desert created a different me, small and disgusting.
\nIt took my strength away and my voice.
\nI wore the face of a rat,
\nrecoiling from life,
\nhiding in canals
\nfeeding on spectres and dirt.<\/p>\n

this was more difficult:
\nto overcome my squeamishness
\nto jump down his throat,
\nand fight against an enemy
\nso soiled and poker-faced.
\nBut at the equinox, I succeeded.
\nI defeated him and filled with loathing
\nand your face reflects only when
\nyou have subdued the shadows,
\nwandered from the wilderness.<\/p>\n

I have graphed the putridity and rigidness
\nbeyond the broken mirrors.
\nAngels guard the gates of self,
\nanother stair, a new abyss.
\nI step on my numbed self
\nand hurl it to the vortex.
\nI shall not stop
\nuntil my tanks assault the mythic Shambala
\nand I light my fat cigar on the world\u2019s roof.<\/p>\n

grenade<\/strong><\/p>\n

translated by Merryn Williams & Adriana Boagiu [MTTLC student]<\/p>\n

a sun exploded just beyond my eyelids
\nand there is only parching in my ears
\nwhile in my throat is an atomic silence
\nI\u2019m choking
\nfrom my chest they\u2019ll peel a kamikaze\u2019s uniform
\nfrom my skull they\u2019ll gather flames for a grenade<\/p>\n

a red flame
\nand a black flame
\nand my soul will break in half
\nand my spirit race through bulletproof vests.<\/p>\n

tehnosophia<\/strong><\/p>\n

translated by Merryn Williams & Adriana Boagiu [MTTLC student]<\/p>\n

into the madness of my soul
\nyou stare with X-rays<\/p>\n

no corner of my psyche can escape
\nthere\u2019s nothing that you miss.<\/p>\n

And you suggest:<\/p>\n

1) Go for a moonlight stroll. Look at the roses.
\n2) Expand the jihad. Get outside yourself.
\n3) Set free the demons whom you took as hostages.
\n4) Postpone attacks. (Heaven can be assaulted
\n only in the last quarter of the moon).
\n5) Feel sympathy and sorrow
\n for shadows, who are dying under torture.
\n6) Keep studying. More presocratic physics
\n and less Descartes.
\n7) And rest. Until the fiery eyes
\n rake over me once more.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

uproar translated by Joan Michelson & Andreea Banciu [MTTLC student] I do not fear hell, but the purgatory I have survived \u2013 the deafening fires. I even had my faction. we called ourselves the bloody ones because the waking nights burst in our eyes and inside the umber iris.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[704,77],"tags":[104,711,1151,1123,710,622,403,39,312],"class_list":["post-6451","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-egophobia-29-30","category-english","tag-adriana-boagiu","tag-andreea-banciu","tag-egophobia-29-30","tag-english","tag-joan-michelson","tag-merryn-williams","tag-mttlc","tag-stefan-bolea","tag-translation"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6DakB-1G3","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6451","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6451"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6451\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6540,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6451\/revisions\/6540"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6451"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6451"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6451"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}