translated by Nigel Walker & Alexandra S\u00e2rbu [MTTLC student]<\/p>\n
Surrogate of Indifference <\/strong><\/p>\n I\u2019m painting some eyes on an evening dawn the eyes adore me surprised too fed up with my unsympathetic goals Reflective Surrogate <\/strong> I will always be there for you Advice Surrogate <\/strong><\/p>\n after the great settling down if you write a love poem don\u2019t get us bored with nature you should definitely talk about a bender I was saying something about the poets, if you feel your depictions should be as clear as possible drugs? yes, you\u2019ve written some lines you\u2019ve read, eaten, tested, seen and listened to everything don\u2019t say how you never forgive and since we brought this up, I can\u2019t see why you shouldn\u2019t # translated by Nigel Walker & Alexandra S\u00e2rbu [MTTLC student] Surrogate of Indifference I\u2019m painting some eyes on an evening dawn and I imagine that I dream in blue no pain tempts me other than the old ones that everybody forgot in me or whatever name may have the last mistake in which I believed<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[704,77],"tags":[629,1151,1123,580,116,312],"class_list":["post-6455","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-egophobia-29-30","category-english","tag-alexandra-sarbu","tag-egophobia-29-30","tag-english","tag-nigel-walker","tag-sorin-mihai-grad","tag-translation"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6DakB-1G7","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6455","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6455"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6455\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6545,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6455\/revisions\/6545"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6455"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6455"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6455"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\nand I imagine that I dream
\nin blue
\nno pain tempts me
\nother than the old ones that everybody forgot in me
\nor whatever name may have the last mistake
\nin which I believed <\/p>\n
\nby the cruel indifference they feel at their offspring
\nthat I bear
\nby inertia
\nwill it be the only solution?
\neven so, it disgusts me and I paint them in the blood of the ashes
\nof an expired dusk
\nand in another three useless colours
\nwhich don\u2019t recall anything
\nso as to get away from their obsessive look<\/p>\n
\n who think they are misunderstood
\n they feel me
\n they cry and wipe themselves
\n like mine occasionally do
\n and they return to their sinister passion
\n why me?<\/p>\n
\n[you\u2019ll never walk alone]<\/em><\/p>\n
\nI\u2019ll watch over you 24\/24
\nprotecting you from everything
\nit might disturb you
\nI will clear away the dangers
\nyou won\u2019t feel them
\nI won\u2019t let you get lost
\nI\u2019ll close my eyes when you want your space
\nI\u2019ll became invisible when you yearn for loneliness
\nbut I\u2019ll watch over you
\nI\u2019ll protect you anywhere and anytime
\nI\u2019ll be happy for your successes
\nand I\u2019ll suffer with you for the failures and mistakes
\nI won\u2019t be capable of avoiding you
\nI\u2019ll follow you wherever you may go
\nI\u2019ll compile reality as you desire
\nI\u2019ll maintain youth and strength
\njust buy me! <\/p>\n
\nstarted from the dumping cart
\nyou are not allowed to write anymore
\nthat someone\u2019s IQ doesn\u2019t outgrow
\nhis shoe size, be straight
\n\u2018hey you, are you stupid?\u2019
\notherwise, you\u2019ve just unveiled yourself
\nas a poor pasture-fan lost through today \t<\/p>\n
\nnot so as to impress
\nlady fans or judges
\nyou obviously are retired
\nor turned inside out and believe that you can hide
\nat best you\u2019re one who has seen
\nmore than nipples
\nonly in pictures <\/p>\n
\nor any kind of impulse of admiration
\nit would be really ridiculous
\nfor anyone to remember
\nfor how long these things have been outdated
\nand so many others on top of them <\/p>\n
\nsomething special or at least one that lasted a week
\nnot with father, colleagues or the guys
\n\u2018cause it\u2019s more pleonastic than a drunken poet
\nit goes well with some women
\nheifer poetesses sounds well
\nwhy not with mother and grandmother
\nin taverns as much underground as possible
\nsmoky, wretched and definitely smoky <\/p>\n
\nthey don\u2019t care about you
\ngive them something to drink
\nmost of them are alcoholics anyway
\nand it won\u2019t hurt you to get into a fight with one or two
\nfor a couple of beers
\na punch here, some blood there even more
\nhelps
\nand when you write about this
\nbe ambiguous about the end
\nyou never know
\nwho may end up in a committee<\/p>\n
\ndon\u2019t censure yourself say everything
\nas you would tell a friend
\nwho\u2019s not capable of reading
\nis not even worth
\na careless yawn <\/p>\n
\nunderneath them
\nsome guy bragged on a blog
\nthat he hit Buddhist blabbers
\nand Precambrian images
\nthrough them
\nwho where don\u2019t say
\nit\u2019s irrelevant<\/p>\n
\nguide everybody who will read you
\nmention something from trainspotting<\/em> or fight club<\/em>
\nrequiem for a dream<\/em> and if you have to
\ndon\u2019t forget the beat<\/em> guys
\nnor the words that the shy only utter
\nin their mind <\/p>\n
\nanything
\nblonds redheads brunettes under aged sisters
\n\u2018cause you\u2019re no priest
\nthe fool who\u2019s around
\nwill always think
\na lipstick fell from a balcony
\non your coat
\nor that you left without the knickers and a sock
\nfrom home
\nso that she could strip you easily when you get back<\/p>\n
\nconfess that when you croak
\nas artistic as possible, how else?
\nyou will leave something to antipa museum
\nso they can finally throw away terente\u2019s
\ndamn trash*<\/p>\n
\nNote: Terente is a legendary thief who lived around Br\u0103ila, South-East Romania. He is also famous for his large penis, which is allegedly kept at Antipa Museum, a natural history museum <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"