Nici chiar ziua externabilit\u0103\u0163ii sale nu putea s\u0103 aib\u0103 dou\u0103 cine. O luase deja pe cea matinal\u0103 c\u00e2nd \u00eenc\u0103 noaptea nu intrase cu totul \u00een zi \u015fi probabil c\u0103 i-ar fi imposibil s\u0103 o serveasc\u0103 \u015fi pe cea de sear\u0103 oric\u00e2t de foame i s-ar face. Ea \u00eel hr\u0103nise foarte bine \u015fi era mai mult dec\u00e2t satisf\u0103cut\u0103 de c\u00e2t \u00eei d\u0103duse. M\u00e2ncase din plin \u015fi deocamdat\u0103 nu mai putea m\u00e2nca nimic. De altfel, ea nici nu insist\u0103. Dup\u0103 ce \u00eel v\u0103zu d\u00e2nd gata \u015fi trei etaje de pr\u0103jitur\u0103, z\u00e2mbi mul\u0163umit\u0103 c\u0103 \u00ee\u015fi vede b\u0103rbatul b\u0103t\u00e2ndu-se cu palma peste burt\u0103, ca \u015fi cum ar vibra o rug\u0103ciune c\u0103tre bucatele \u00eenghi\u0163ite, \u015fi nu mai zise nimic. Doar \u00eel privea diger\u00e2nd \u00een sine tot ce m\u00e2ncase, \u015fi m\u00e2ncase c\u00e2t mai mul\u0163i de unul, \u015fi \u00eenc\u0103 o cin\u0103 reu\u015fit\u0103, chiar dac\u0103 imperfect de matinal\u0103. Se a\u015fez\u0103 din nou l\u00e2ng\u0103 el, \u00een fragmentul ei de banc\u0103, imediat cum terminase de str\u00e2ns de pe mas\u0103 trupul epuizat al cinei, \u015fi era fericit\u0103 c\u0103 poate s\u0103 \u00eel priveasc\u0103 \u015fi s\u0103 \u00eei spun\u0103 din ochi c\u00e2te adunase \u00een ea de c\u00e2nd \u00eel cunoscuse. Ea nu m\u00e2ncase mai nimic, abia ciugulise c\u00e2te ceva \u015fi el \u00eei spuse chiar \u00een acest moment s\u0103 ia \u015fi ea cina matinal\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 nu se face iremediabil de ziu\u0103. El se uita la ea cu aten\u0163ie \u015fi vedea bine c\u0103, \u00een timp ce se \u00eenfruptase cu de toate, ea doar \u00eel servise f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eembuce nimic \u015fi se g\u00e2ndea c\u0103 ar fi bine s\u0103 ia \u015fi ea cina. Era \u00eengrijorat s\u0103 nu fi vrut s\u0103 o vad\u0103 sl\u0103bit\u0103 \u015fi cu ochii sub\u0163ia\u0163i de foame. Ea se uita la el, de l\u00e2ng\u0103 chenarul trupului s\u0103u, ca \u015fi cum nimic altceva nu ar mai interesa-o, iar el \u00een consecin\u0163\u0103 sim\u0163i un fior de responsabilitate st\u00e2rnindu-i pe sub piele imperativul c\u0103 trebuie s\u0103 o for\u0163eze \u00een vreun fel s\u0103 m\u0103n\u00e2nce. \u00cens\u0103, de\u015fi \u015ftia ce trebuie s\u0103 fac\u0103 fiindc\u0103 fuiorul responsabilit\u0103\u0163ii d\u0103dea s\u0103 \u00eei rup\u0103 pielea, nu alta, pe la col\u0163urile z\u00e2mbetelor, nu \u015ftia \u015fi cum s\u0103 o conving\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103n\u00e2nce. Se \u00eemplinise b\u0103rbatul ei numai p\u00e2n\u0103 la prima jum\u0103tate, iar a doua a\u015ftepta \u015fi ea s\u0103 se \u00eemplineasc\u0103 \u00een b\u0103rbatul din el pe care ea avea de g\u00e2nd s\u0103 \u015fi-l \u00eensu\u015feasc\u0103. S\u0103 \u00eei spun\u0103, pur \u015fi simplu, s\u0103 ia ceva \u00een gur\u0103, \u00ee\u015fi d\u0103duse seama c\u0103 nu e de ajuns. Trebuia s\u0103 fac\u0103 mai mult pentru a o convinge c\u0103 e necesar s\u0103 m\u0103n\u00e2nce \u015fi ea ceva. Se fr\u0103m\u00e2nta \u00een el \u015fi, de la un moment dat, fr\u0103m\u00e2nt\u0103rile, singure, \u00eenlocuir\u0103 solu\u0163ia perfect\u0103 care ar fi trebuit s\u0103 \u00eei treac\u0103 prin cap. \u00cei spuse, \u00een criz\u0103 de timp matinal, c\u0103 i-ar pl\u0103cea s\u0103 \u00eei povesteasc\u0103 toat\u0103 via\u0163a, p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een punctul spitaliz\u0103rii sau c\u00e2t mai mult din ea p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een acel punct, dac\u0103 o intereseaz\u0103, \u015fi ar fi mai mult dec\u00e2t bucuros s\u0103 \u00eenceap\u0103 s\u0103 i-o povesteasc\u0103 c\u00e2t va m\u00e2nca ceva, a\u015fa ca un divertisment, mai ad\u0103ug\u0103 el \u00een speran\u0163a c\u0103 ultima sa idee va fi exact ce ar putea s\u0103 o conving\u0103 s\u0103 ia \u015fi ea cina deja aproape mai deloc matinal\u0103. Ea ascult\u0103 cu aten\u0163ie propunerea lui \u015fi, din felul \u00een care o primi, lui \u00eei crescur\u0103 speran\u0163ele c\u0103 a\u015fa o va putea face s\u0103 \u00eembuce ceva. O \u00eentreb\u0103 \u00eencrez\u0103tor ce p\u0103rere are despre propunerea pe care i-a f\u0103cut-o \u015fi dac\u0103 i-ar pl\u0103cea s\u0103 \u00eel asculte tr\u0103nc\u0103nind verzi stelare despre via\u0163a lui exact a\u015fa cum ea a fost p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd s\u0103 fi ajuns \u00een spital s\u0103 o cunoasc\u0103, iar ea p\u0103rea s\u0103 fie din ce \u00een ce mai predispus\u0103 s\u0103 se hr\u0103neasc\u0103 din substan\u0163a lui biografic\u0103 \u015fi chiar s\u0103 \u00eei plac\u0103 ce ar fi auzit \u00een timpul cinei extrem de \u00eent\u00e2rziat matinale, dar, pe m\u0103sur\u0103 ce ideea de a-l cunoa\u015fte mai bine, deocamdat\u0103 din propria lui perspectiv\u0103, cre\u015ftea \u00een ea din ce \u00een ce mai la dimensiunile dorin\u0163ei, ceva imprevizibil avu loc \u015fi \u00eei retrase brusc degetele \u00eempr\u0103\u015ftiate pe toat\u0103 suprafa\u0163a palmelor sale \u00een pumnii ei abandona\u0163i pe mas\u0103. El \u00ee\u015fi d\u0103du seama instantaneu c\u0103 ceva se \u00eent\u00e2mplase cu ea, dar nu putea s\u0103 \u015fi ghiceasc\u0103 ce anume. De aceea o \u015fi \u00eentreb\u0103, chiar dac\u0103 se dovedea astfel a fi f\u0103r\u0103 tact, ce se \u00eent\u00e2mplase de nu mai voia s\u0103 m\u0103n\u00e2nce \u00een compania vie\u0163ii sale, iar ea \u00eei spuse c\u0103 ar fi, negre\u015fit, minunat s\u0103 \u00eel cunoasc\u0103 din numai c\u00e2teva \u00eenghi\u0163ituri mult mai bine dec\u00e2t ar fi sperat vreodat\u0103, la care el o \u00eentrerupse frontal s\u0103 \u00eei spun\u0103 c\u0103 are dreptate dar, continu\u0103 ea peste \u00eentreruperea lui frontal\u0103, i se f\u0103cuse dintr-o dat\u0103 at\u00e2t de team\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eel cunoasc\u0103, \u00eenc\u00e2t parc\u0103 nici nu \u00eei mai ardea s\u0103 m\u0103n\u00e2nce, cu toate c\u0103 cina lor matinal\u0103 nu mai avea mult p\u00e2n\u0103 s\u0103 se descompun\u0103 de tot \u00een pr\u00e2nzul \u00een ajunul c\u0103ruia pacien\u0163ii spitalului nu mai aveau mult s\u0103 se afle. El nu mai pricepea nimic \u015fi \u00een consecin\u0163\u0103 o \u00eentreb\u0103 uimit de ce ar putea s\u0103 \u00eei fie team\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eel cunoasc\u0103 mai bine, c\u00e2nd ea chiar \u00ee\u015fi dorea acest lucru. \u015ei, o \u00eentreb\u0103 imediat dup\u0103 aceea, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 mai a\u015ftepte nici s\u0103 respire \u00eentre \u00eentreb\u0103ri, dac\u0103 nu se \u00een\u015felase \u00een privin\u0163a ei fiindc\u0103 tot ce f\u0103cuse ea pentru el cel pu\u0163in p\u0103rea s\u0103 \u00eei indice c\u0103 o intereseaz\u0103 persoana lui. Ea \u00eei z\u00e2mbi c\u00e2t de \u00eengust fu \u00een stare c\u0103 o intereseaz\u0103 totul despre el, \u015fi \u00eenc\u0103 foarte mult, dar c\u0103, deocamdat\u0103, teama de a nu a afla prea multe despre el o bloca \u00eentr-o re\u0163inere inconfortabil\u0103, recunoscu ea desc\u0103tu\u015f\u00e2ndu-se din \u00eengustimea z\u00e2mbetului precedent, ceea ce el nu putea s\u0103 \u00een\u0163eleag\u0103 nici at\u00e2t. \u015ei o \u00eentreb\u0103, \u00eencurajat de z\u00e2mbetul ei actual, care se l\u0103sa din ce \u00een ce mai mult \u00een \u00eentret\u0103ierea buzelor, cum e posibil s\u0103 \u00ee\u015fi doreasc\u0103 at\u00e2t de mult ceva de care \u00eei e fric\u0103 \u015fi care, \u00een acela\u015fi timp, o face s\u0103 \u015fi z\u00e2mbeasc\u0103. \u015ei dup\u0103 ce o \u00eentreb\u0103 astfel, \u00eei spuse, recunosc\u00e2nd, c\u0103 el nu poate s\u0103 priceap\u0103 cum e posibil ca ea s\u0103 aib\u0103 trei st\u0103ri de spirit simultane \u015fi totu\u015fi at\u00e2t de diferite una de alta, iar ea \u00ee\u015fi \u00eengust\u0103 privirea \u00eenc\u0103 o dat\u0103 \u00een momentul \u00een care \u00eei spuse c\u0103, dac\u0103 lui i se pare ciudat c\u0103 ea poate s\u0103 simt\u0103 trei lucruri diferite \u00een acela\u015fi timp, \u015fi ei i se pare straniu, \u00een consecin\u0163\u0103, ca el s\u0103 poat\u0103 m\u00e2nca simultan trei etaje de pr\u0103jitur\u0103. Savantul din el se revolt\u0103 auzind o astfel de compara\u0163ie absolut ilogic\u0103 \u015fi b\u0103tu cu putere \u00een por\u0163ile cerului s\u0103u organic fiindc\u0103 voia s\u0103 cad\u0103 din el \u015fi s\u0103 \u00eei spun\u0103 c\u0103 ea chiar sim\u0163ise trei lucruri diferite, \u00een acela\u015fi timp, dar el m\u00e2ncase etajele acelei pr\u0103jituri pe r\u00e2nd, ceea ce \u00eenseamn\u0103, ar mai fi vrut savantul din el s\u0103 spun\u0103, c\u0103 nu putea s\u0103 compare adev\u0103rata simultaneitate a sentimentelor ei contrarii cu gradarea uniform\u0103 a ingurgit\u0103rilor lui. Exact a\u015fa s-ar fi exprimat \u015fi el, dar nu o f\u0103cu \u00eentocmai astfel \u015fi se mul\u0163umi s\u0103 \u00eei spun\u0103 doar c\u0103 el nu ar fi niciodat\u0103 \u00een stare s\u0103 m\u0103n\u00e2nce cele trei etaje ale pr\u0103jiturii dintr-o singur\u0103 \u00eenghi\u0163itur\u0103, chiar dac\u0103 i-ar cre\u015fte gura \u00een m\u0103rime, pe c\u00e2nd ea poate, \u015fi i-a \u015fi dovedit-o, s\u0103 simt\u0103 trei lucruri opuse dintr-o singur\u0103 b\u0103taie de inim\u0103, ceea ce \u00eei face compara\u0163ia, de\u015fi pornit\u0103 dintr-un z\u00e2mbet at\u00e2t de lat \u00een marginile sale \u00een permanent\u0103 expansiune, fals\u0103, dar, complet\u0103 el c\u00e2nd v\u0103zu c\u0103 pe ea o deranjeaz\u0103 acest cuv\u00e2nt prea logic, nu e nimic pentru c\u0103 \u015fi lucrurile false au partea loc adev\u0103rat\u0103, iar ea \u00eel \u00eentrerupse tot frontal \u00eentreb\u00e2ndu-l care ar fi ea, iar el \u00eei r\u0103spunse c\u0103 se refer\u0103, desigur, la cele trei etaje de pr\u0103jitur\u0103, absolut delicioase, iar ea, prinz\u00e2ndu-se de glum\u0103 \u015fi apreciind-o, d\u00e2ndu-\u015fi poate \u015fi seama c\u0103 nu f\u0103cuse cea mai bun\u0103 compara\u0163ie \u00eentre sentimentele ei contradictorii \u015fi etajele liniare ale pr\u0103jiturii, z\u00e2mbi cu \u00een\u0163elegere \u015fi se d\u0103du b\u0103tut\u0103, zic\u00e2ndu-i c\u0103 i-ar pl\u0103cea s\u0103 \u015ftie mai multe despre el \u00een timp ce va lua \u015fi ea jum\u0103tatea lor de cin\u0103 matinal\u0103. Dar, \u00eel \u00eentreb\u0103 oarecum \u00eengrijorat\u0103, dac\u0103 mai e posibil s\u0103 serveasc\u0103 din cina lor matinal\u0103 la o or\u0103 pe care nu o mai crede foarte potrivit\u0103 pentru a\u015fa ceva. El citi pentru a treia oar\u0103 timpul de pe cadranul ceasului s\u0103u mecanic \u015fi ajunse la concluzia c\u0103 se mai poate \u00eenc\u0103, cu toate c\u0103 nu prea foarte mult. Ea \u015fi zbur\u0103 c\u0103tre buc\u0103t\u0103ria din spatele filigranelor de faian\u0163\u0103 ale cantinei \u015fi, cum plec\u0103, a\u015fa se \u015fi \u00eentoarse, cu bra\u0163ele \u00eenc\u0103rcate de bucate plus o pr\u0103jitur\u0103, \u015fi ea, de trei etaje, pe care avea de g\u00e2nd s\u0103 o savureze \u00een momentul \u00een care via\u0163a lui putea s\u0103 ia o \u00eentors\u0103tur\u0103 nu exact le fel de dulce ca nivelele ei perfect comestibile. Le a\u015fez\u0103 pe toate pe mas\u0103 \u015fi ea intr\u0103 din nou \u00een fragmentul ei de banc\u0103, iar el o privi \u00eenc\u00e2ntat preg\u0103tindu-se s\u0103 \u00eei \u0163in\u0103 vie\u0163ii sale companie \u015fi el, \u00een schimb, p\u0103r\u0163ii ei de cin\u0103 matinal\u0103. Lucrurile p\u0103reau s\u0103 intre \u00een normal, dar poate c\u0103 nu era \u00eentocmai a\u015fa. Ea \u00eencepu s\u0103 m\u0103n\u00e2nce melancolic, iar el s\u0103 o priveasc\u0103 mestec\u00e2nd impermeabil la via\u0163a lui. \u00ce\u015fi d\u0103du seama c\u0103 degeaba \u00eei va povesti \u00eentreaga lui via\u0163\u0103 \u015fi ajunse la concluzia c\u0103 va fi \u00een zadar s\u0103 \u00eei spun\u0103 totul, c\u00e2t timp oric\u00e2t de multe detalii i-ar da, ea tot nu va reu\u015fi s\u0103 \u00eel cunoasc\u0103 mai bine. \u00ce\u015fi spuse c\u0103, pentru a-i \u015fti cu adev\u0103rat via\u0163a, ar trebui s\u0103 \u015fi-o tr\u0103iasc\u0103 pe a ei al\u0103turi de a lui \u015fi abia dup\u0103 aceea s\u0103 poat\u0103 s\u0103 spun\u0103 c\u0103 i-o cunoa\u015fte c\u00e2t de c\u00e2t. \u015ei \u00ee\u015fi mai spuse c\u0103 nu era suficient ca el s\u0103 \u00ee\u015fi povesteasc\u0103 via\u0163a \u015fi ea numai s\u0103 i-o asculte, iar aceast\u0103 descoperire pe care o f\u0103cu \u00eentre dou\u0103 dintre cele trei etaje ale pr\u0103jiturii, fiindc\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 la urm\u0103 ea alese s\u0103 m\u0103n\u00e2nce pr\u0103jitura \u00eent\u00e2i, \u00eel indispuse \u015fi \u00eel oftic\u0103 din nou. Ea observ\u0103 schimbarea prin care el \u00eenc\u0103 trecea \u015fi \u00eel \u00eentreb\u0103, de\u015fi \u015ftia despre ce e vorba, ce se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 cu el. \u00cel privi \u015fi mai \u00eengust dec\u00e2t \u00eenainte, astfel \u00eenc\u00e2t s\u0103 \u00eei poat\u0103 sec\u0163iona doar chipul bosumflat, iar el, \u00een decupajul ochilor ei, d\u0103du din umeri c\u0103 nu i s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat nimic \u015fi c\u0103 e doar pu\u0163in obosit \u015fi c\u0103 ar vrea s\u0103 se retrag\u0103 s\u0103 doarm\u0103 un pic, dar ea \u00eel \u00eentreb\u0103 cum poate s\u0103 o lase singur\u0103, \u00een mijlocul jum\u0103t\u0103\u0163ii ei de cin\u0103 matinal\u0103, dup\u0103 c\u00e2te f\u0103cuse s\u0103 o conving\u0103 s\u0103 o aib\u0103, iar el, ne\u015ftiind ce s\u0103 mai spun\u0103, d\u0103du din umeri \u00eenc\u0103 o dat\u0103 \u015fi, cu umerii pr\u0103bu\u015fi\u0163i \u00een oftic\u0103, se ridic\u0103 din fragmentul lui de banc\u0103 \u015fi poate c\u0103 \u015fi plec\u0103 s\u0103 se culce p\u00e2n\u0103 la ora externabilit\u0103\u0163ii sale, dar ea nu mai afl\u0103 dac\u0103 el chiar a\u015fa \u015fi f\u0103cu pentru c\u0103 nu mai era de cur\u00e2nd \u00een tur\u0103.<\/p>\n
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Nici chiar ziua externabilit\u0103\u0163ii sale nu putea s\u0103 aib\u0103 dou\u0103 cine. O luase deja pe cea matinal\u0103 c\u00e2nd \u00eenc\u0103 noaptea nu intrase cu totul \u00een zi \u015fi probabil c\u0103 i-ar fi imposibil s\u0103 o serveasc\u0103 \u015fi pe cea de sear\u0103 oric\u00e2t de foame i s-ar face. Ea \u00eel hr\u0103nise foarte bine \u015fi era mai mult […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[6,4,5],"class_list":["post-72","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-romanul-online","tag-literatura-virtuala-exclusiv-antuma","tag-patrick-calinescu","tag-roman-online"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6DakB-1a","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/72","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=72"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/72\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1602,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/72\/revisions\/1602"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=72"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=72"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=72"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}