{"id":7412,"date":"2011-09-08T21:25:30","date_gmt":"2011-09-08T19:25:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=7412"},"modified":"2011-09-08T21:25:30","modified_gmt":"2011-09-08T19:25:30","slug":"five-longing-notes-on-a-counter-note","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=7412","title":{"rendered":"Five Longing Notes on a Counter-note"},"content":{"rendered":"

A poetic game in five stages.<\/em><\/p>\n

by Ioana Jucan<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Hand-Made<\/p>\n

 
\nLying
\nin your own hands
\nat the time that was riper than ever before and again
\nwas not the situation
\nentirely.
\n 
\nAll along
\nwere you planning on
\nmaking the step to move forward and beyond
\nthat coming together for the first time
\nwith that that was supposed to happen.
\n 
\nReachable
\nwith the empty hand
\nbegan to become the impression of being here and somewhere else
\naltogether not home
\nnot home all together.
\n 
\nHanded down
\nfrom generation to generation
\nof those who enact by those who enlist
\nyour remaining
\nopen-handed
\nstands no reserves.
\n 
\n <\/p>\n

Longings<\/p>\n

 
\nFor how long?
\nI have been hoping you\u2019ll come
\nFor as long as I\u2019ve been saying it
\n 
\nI have been
\nLonging all the time
\nPining for a sign
\nLeaning against
\nThe long edge
\nOf the old door.
\n 
\nA long time
\nThe light
\nStayed on.
\n 
\nBefore long
\nTime grew
\nOut of joint
\nSwitched out
\nThe hinges
\nIn the house
\nI grew tired
\nNever seemed
\nTo be rusting.
\n 
\nYou are coming
\nAre you not
\nPlaying. Hearing. Rattling.
\n 
\nI cringed
\nYou did not
\nCall.
\nI called
\nYou did not
\nWrite.
\nI wrote
\nYou did not
\nText.
\nBack
\nWhere
\nI began to hope.
\n 
\nLong-drawn out discussions never followed
\nLong-distance calls were never made
\nLong-playing records never got listened to
\n 
\nThe odds
\nWere long
\nBefore I
\nCut you
\nOff.
\nThe list
\nGrew longer
\nAnd longer
\nBefore you
\nGot crossed off.
\nThe longest
\nYou could
\nTake you
\nTook. Longing
\nThe door opened. You went off. On and off.
\n 
\nStop
\nWatch
\nSo long!
\n 
\n <\/p>\n

Replying<\/p>\n

 
\n Immaterial page: four lines, a name
\nhit             \t\t\t\t\t loading
\n off off it goes: send sent
\n 
\nPlay back the news
\nMake the link anew
\nLet the ongoing line
\nRemake love in time.
\n 
\nFold the expectations one
\non top of another:
\non surfaces of desires
\nexquisite and twisted away.
\nTwist the whole way
\nthrough old piled letters:
\nthrough a pretended grin
\nexquisite and twisted away.
\n 
\nUntil it begins crumbling
\nTumbling line over line.
\n 
\n <\/p>\n

\nFaces on Sunday<\/p>\n

 
\nPeople are sleeping. People are always sleeping.
\n– Pippins peeping through the looking glass
\nBitten by the peep of dawn
\nWhen they peep their heads through the door.
\n 
\nA smiling mouth smiles only in a human face \u2013
\nTurning the lips into lines and the cheeks into apples
\nInto circles
\nMoving, staring into the sun
\nUntil the day gets lost.
\n 
\nPeople are talking. People are always talking.
\n– Asking and replying with their mouths
\nFull of words
\nLonging, making signs with their hands
\nWhen they are feeling misunderstood.
\n 
\nA smiling mouth smiles only in a human face \u2013
\nMaking it look like a sundial
\nA hand-made sundial
\nTurning its hands, staring into the sun
\nUntil it becomes obsolete.
\n 
\nFinally, it\u2019s time for a break.
\n 
\n <\/p>\n

Tea break<\/p>\n

 
\nThe day was begun with a tea
\nfollowed
\nby a tea break \u2013
\na cup break
\nmeant to wake
\nthe entire house up.
\n 
\nIt brings. Luck. Make it. Stop. The alarm. Clock.
\n 
\nBreakfast was made available
\nplentiful
\nlike props on a stage \u2013
\nat an early stage
\nof cherished
\ndevelopment.
\n 
\nAlmost fallen. Off. The edge. Of. The table.
\n 
\nThe rest was spent in no time
\nfollowed by tomorrow
\ntimid but melting \u2013
\nmelting into oblivion
\nas only clocks
\nare known to melt.
\n 
\nIt remains. Unclear. Why tomorrows. Come. Much faster. Than. The days. Before. In spite. Of. The theatrical. Beginning. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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