de Patrick C\u0103linescu
\ntraducere din englez\u0103 de Silvia Bratu<\/b><\/p>\n
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\nNumele fetei era Loodick. \u00centotdeauna a fost de p\u0103rere c\u0103 numele ei nu e foarte feminin. Dar trecerea timpului, pe care via\u0163a a \u00eentip\u0103rit-o \u00eenc\u0103 de la na\u015ftere \u00een fiin\u0163a ei, a obligat-o,\u00a0 de o manier\u0103 sumbr\u0103, s\u0103 uite de acest lucru \u015fi s\u0103-\u015fi vad\u0103 de anii pe care-i mai avea \u00eenc\u0103 de tr\u0103it dup\u0103 ceasul biologic.<\/p>\n
Actualmente, Loodick e m\u0103ritat\u0103 cu un b\u0103rbat pe care nu-l iube\u015fte \u015fi pe care nici n-a \u00eencercat s\u0103-l iubeasc\u0103 de c\u00e2nd, for\u0163at\u0103 de \u00eemprejur\u0103ri, i-a devenit so\u0163ie.<\/p>\n
\u00cen momentul de fa\u0163\u0103, cei doi trec printr-o faz\u0103 greu de definit. Ea se r\u0103ste\u015fte la el \u00een timp ce treb\u0103luie\u015fte prin cas\u0103, \u00een clasicul stil caracteristic puritanelor. El se r\u0103ste\u015fte la ea scurt, \u00een expectativ\u0103, \u00een timp ce leneve\u015fte \u00een fotoliul lui de so\u0163, pref\u0103c\u00e2ndu-se c\u0103 studiaz\u0103 edi\u0163ia din ziua precedent\u0103 a ziarului local \u2013 pare-se un cotidian bizar, tip\u0103rit cu unicul scop de a-l ajuta pe el s\u0103-\u015fi \u00eendeplineasc\u0103 \u00een continuare rolul atribuit \u00een mod tradi\u0163ional masculului dominant al comunit\u0103\u0163ii.<\/p>\n
La modul general, Loodick ar putea fi considerat\u0103 o persoan\u0103 care nu se distinge prin nimic special. Se mai poate spune despre ea \u2013 tot la modul general – c\u0103 este o t\u00e2n\u0103r\u0103 a c\u0103rei \u00eenf\u0103\u0163i\u015fare denot\u0103 simetrie. F\u0103r\u0103 deficien\u0163e fizice, f\u0103r\u0103 anomalii genetice, f\u0103r\u0103 elemente care, la vederea siluetei sale bine propor\u0163ionate, s\u0103 lezeze retina din punct de vedere estetic. Ochii ei, \u00eens\u0103, nu se prea \u00eencadrau \u00een propor\u0163iile uzuale \u015fi nici gura nu se prea potrivea cu fanteziile adolescentine ale consortului (prin aceea c\u0103 nu p\u0103rea a fi, dup\u0103 standardele b\u0103rbatului obi\u015fnuit, deloc feminin\u0103); iar unul dintre bra\u0163ele ei, mai pu\u0163in palma, \u015fi un picior, cu excep\u0163ia labei acestuia, reprezentau o u\u015foar\u0103 deviere de la imaginea echilibrat\u0103 caracteristic\u0103 unei femme id\u00e9ale<\/i>. \u00cen rest, totul \u2013 dup\u0103 c\u00e2te s-ar putea presupune \u2013 era \u00een bun\u0103 r\u00e2nduial\u0103; exact \u00een r\u00e2nduiala pe care i-ar atribui-o, \u00een sens hormonal, un reprezentant al sexului masculin.<\/p>\n
Prin compara\u0163ie, descrierea so\u0163ului ei nu prezint\u0103 niciun fel de importan\u0163\u0103. El nu e dec\u00e2t b\u0103rbatul lui Loodick.<\/p>\n
La modul cum se deap\u0103n\u0103 acum via\u0163a lor, \u00een perspectiva anilor pe care \u00eei mai au \u00eenc\u0103 de tr\u0103it, cei doi sunt \u2013 \u00een faza greu de definit \u00een care se afl\u0103 \u2013 un cuplu absolut banal. Banalitatea i-a cuprins \u00eentr-o m\u0103sur\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 de m\u0103sur\u0103 \u2013 care \u00ee\u015fi afl\u0103, totu\u015fi, m\u0103sura \u00een ceea ce se cheam\u0103 exces \u00een m\u0103surarea incomensurabilului \u2013 ajung\u00e2nd p\u00e2n\u0103 la esen\u0163a \u00eens\u0103\u015fi a banalului, ceea ce, \u00een mod paradoxal, e o adev\u0103rat\u0103 realizare.<\/p>\n
– Tu\u2026, zice b\u0103rbatul lui Loodick, ne\u015ftiind ce altceva s\u0103 spun\u0103.<\/p>\n
–\u00a0 Tu\u2026, zice femeia b\u0103rbatului lui Loodick \u2013 Loodick \u00eens\u0103\u015fi \u2013 ne\u015ftiind ce altceva s\u0103 mai adauge la ceea ce deja a spus.<\/p>\n
– Te ur\u0103sc\u2026, spune cu \u00eenfl\u0103c\u0103rare b\u0103rbatul femeii b\u0103rbatului lui Loodick \u2013 \u00eensu\u015fi b\u0103rbatul lui Loodick.<\/p>\n
– \u015ei eu te ur\u0103sc\u2026, zice Loodick, f\u0103r\u0103 ca glasul ei s\u0103 denote vreo urm\u0103 de \u00eenfl\u0103c\u0103rare \u00een plus.<\/p>\n
– Atunci de ce ai acceptat s\u0103 te m\u0103ri\u0163i cu mine? \u00eentreab\u0103 simplu b\u0103rbatul lui Loodick.<\/p>\n
– Dar tu de ce ai acceptat faptul c\u0103 am fost de acord s\u0103 m\u0103 m\u0103rit cu tine? continu\u0103 Loodick \u015firul \u00eentreb\u0103rilor.<\/p>\n
– Credeam c\u0103 m\u0103 iube\u015fti\u2026, r\u0103spunde simplu b\u0103rbatul lui Loodick.<\/p>\n
– Iar eu credeam c\u0103 \u0163i-ai dori s\u0103 m\u0103 iube\u015fti necondi\u0163ionat\u2026, r\u0103spunde simplu Loodick.<\/p>\n
– Iubirea trebuie s\u0103 fie reciproc\u0103\u2026, sus\u0163ine b\u0103rbatul lui Loodick.<\/p>\n
– Iubirea n-are nevoie de reciprocitate pentru a fi ceea ce este, adic\u0103 iubire, \u00eel contrazice Loodick cu asprime \u00een glas.<\/p>\n
– Dar iubirea\u2026, zice b\u0103rbatul lui Loodick, \u00eencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103 se opun\u0103 spuselor ei.<\/p>\n
– Dar iubirea n-are nevoie s\u0103 se pun\u0103 \u00een locul celui iubit, pentru a fi ceea ce n-a \u00eencetat niciodat\u0103 s\u0103 fie, \u015fi anume iubire\u2026, spune Loodick, aproape rezum\u00e2nd cele discutate.<\/p>\n
– Dar iubirea\u2026, spune b\u0103rbatul lui Loodick, tot \u00eencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103-\u015fi sus\u0163in\u0103 p\u0103rerea.<\/p>\n
– Iubirea nu are caracter transcendental; numai cel iubit are dorin\u0163a nebuneasc\u0103, absurd\u0103, zadarnic\u0103 de a proiecta acest caracter transcendental asupra propriilor sim\u0163\u0103minte, ce nu sunt altceva dec\u00e2t iubire \u2013 care nu poate sim\u0163i ceea ce \u00een final va proiecta asupra celui iubit\u2026, spune Loodick, \u00een cele din urm\u0103 rezum\u00e2nd \u00eentreaga discu\u0163ie.<\/p>\n
La auzul unei asemenea apostazii sentimentale \u015fi sesiz\u00e2nd at\u00e2ta r\u0103ceal\u0103 \u015fi lips\u0103 de sensibilitate din partea consoartei sale, b\u0103rbatul lui Loodick se cufund\u0103 \u00een fotoliul s\u0103u de so\u0163 cu \u015fov\u0103itoare elocven\u0163\u0103 \u015fi cu elocventa lips\u0103 de \u015fov\u0103ial\u0103 a celui care ia \u00een calcul un viitor f\u0103r\u0103 de consoart\u0103.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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