Diminea\u0163\u0103, \u00eenc\u0103 o dat\u0103. Pe nea\u015fteptate deschide ochii \u015fi se uit\u0103 de jur \u00eemprejur. Salonul este \u00eenc\u0103 luminat de un fel de \u00eentuneric transparent, ale c\u0103rui particule negre abia se mai v\u0103d din c\u00e2teva \u00een c\u00e2teva clipiri. Lumina matinal\u0103 continu\u0103 s\u0103 fie, de\u015fi a\u015fa, nocturn\u0103, tot mai pu\u0163in, iar \u00eentunericul nop\u0163ii se \u00eempr\u0103\u015ftie tot mai mult \u00een noua diminea\u0163\u0103. Deschide ochii c\u00e2t de larg poate \u015fi r\u0103m\u00e2ne descurajat de ce vede. Aceea\u015fi egalitate sup\u0103r\u0103toare. Acela\u015fi gol plin cu de toate. Vrea s\u0103 deschid\u0103 ochii \u015fi mai larg, dar nu poate mai mult. Orbitele oculare nu au o circumferin\u0163\u0103 mai mare dec\u00e2t cea tipic uman\u0103. Este prizonierul speciei c\u0103reia \u00eei apar\u0163ine \u015fi a c\u0103zut definitiv \u00een capcana egalit\u0103\u0163ii timpului pe care indivizii speciei de care \u0163ine, biologic, \u00eel tr\u0103iesc. Vrea s\u0103 urle \u015fi ar putea s\u0103 o fac\u0103 fiindc\u0103 cercul bucal are o circumferin\u0163\u0103 mai mare dec\u00e2t cel ocular, dar \u00een ultimul moment un arc de cerc din fiin\u0163a sa \u00eel opre\u015fte. \u015ei, se g\u00e2nde\u015fte, pe bun\u0103 dreptate. Nu vreau s\u0103 deranjez \u015fi ultimele impulsuri ale nop\u0163ii. Nu vreau ca diminea\u0163a s\u0103 vin\u0103 mai repede ca de obicei. Nu am de g\u00e2nd s\u0103 o chem, c\u00e2nd, dac\u0103 nu o gr\u0103besc prin vreun gest necugetat, \u00eentunericul nop\u0163ii ar putea s\u0103 mai st\u0103ruie \u00een mijlocul dimine\u0163ii \u015fi astfel s\u0103 \u00eei perturbe, fie \u015fi numai pentru c\u00e2teva clipe, egalitatea terifiant\u0103. S\u0103 mai fie pu\u0163in \u00eentuneric, chiar dac\u0103 lumina dimine\u0163ii \u00eel \u00eenghite pe nesim\u0163ite. De fapt, contrazice firea lucrurilor, nu chiar pe nesim\u0163ite fiindc\u0103 eu v\u0103d cum \u00eentunericul se lumineaz\u0103 \u015fi dac\u0103 pot s\u0103 v\u0103d acest proces temporal, chimic \u015fi cromatic, \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 \u00eel pot \u015fi sim\u0163i \u015fi, dac\u0103 \u00eel pot \u015fi sim\u0163i, nu se deruleaz\u0103 pe nesim\u0163ite. \u00cen fine, p\u00e2n\u0103 casc\u0103 de c\u00e2teva ori \u015fi p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00ee\u015fi \u00eentinde to\u0163i mu\u015fchii din corp diminea\u0163a este deplin\u0103 \u015fi nicio pat\u0103 de \u00eentuneric pe lumina ei nu se mai vede.<\/p>\n
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Bun\u0103 diminea\u0163a, \u00eentuneric, \u00eencearc\u0103 s\u0103 \u00ee\u015fi aduc\u0103 aminte \u015fi, melancolic, se uit\u0103 la ferestre s\u0103 vad\u0103 dac\u0103 nu au perdele sau cortine. Ar fi vrut s\u0103 mimeze \u00eentunericul nop\u0163ii bloc\u00e2nd lumina dimine\u0163ii s\u0103 intre prin ferestrele prea mari pentru un salon at\u00e2t de mic, se g\u00e2ndea el, dar nu v\u0103zu nimic \u00een afar\u0103 de geamurile perfect sp\u0103late \u015fi transparente. Ar fi vrut s\u0103 \u00eel recreeze \u00eentr-un mediu artificial, ai c\u0103rui pere\u0163i ar fi fost f\u0103cu\u0163i dintr-o perdea foarte groas\u0103 \u015fi des urzit\u0103. Nu a reu\u015fit \u00een niciun fel s\u0103 men\u0163in\u0103 \u00eentunericul nop\u0163ii l\u00e2ng\u0103 el. Diminea\u0163a era prea real\u0103 \u015fi pretutindeni vizibil\u0103 ca s\u0103 mai poat\u0103 fi transformat\u0103 \u00een simbol al nop\u0163ii.<\/p>\n
Era vremea s\u0103 se scoale din pat \u015fi s\u0103 fac\u0103 ceva. Orice, numai s\u0103 nu mai petreac\u0103 zile \u00een \u015fir \u00eentins pe spate alc\u0103tuind \u00een minte realit\u0103\u0163i contrare realit\u0103\u0163ii \u015fi imposibil de reprodus ca realit\u0103\u0163i \u00een realitatea omniprezent\u0103. Avea nevoie de ac\u0163iune. Trebuia s\u0103 umple realitatea nu cu tot felul de realit\u0103\u0163i mimate, ci cu propriile lui fapte zilnice. Avea obliga\u0163ia s\u0103 lase \u00eentunericul \u00een noapte \u015fi diminea\u0163a \u00een zi. S\u0103 nu se mai joace cu realit\u0103\u0163ile pe care realitatea \u00eens\u0103\u015fi nu le poate confunda niciodat\u0103. Era musai s\u0103 devin\u0103 real \u015fi s\u0103 termine cu realit\u0103\u0163ile sale. Realitatea \u00een care tr\u0103ia era suficient\u0103, chiar dac\u0103 nu \u00eei apar\u0163inea.<\/p>\n
A vrut s\u0103 vad\u0103 dac\u0103 \u00ee\u015fi mai poate trezi cerul la stele. A \u00eenchis ochii \u015fi i-a ad\u00e2ncit c\u00e2t a putut de mult \u00een orbite. C\u00e2nd a \u00eenceput s\u0103 \u00eel doar\u0103, cu toate c\u0103 durerea era ceea ce avea nevoie pentru iluminarea stelar\u0103, a renun\u0163at \u015fi a deschis ochii l\u0103s\u00e2ndu-\u015fi mu\u015fchii faciali s\u0103 se relaxeze dup\u0103 asediul prelungit asupra globilor oculari. A r\u0103suflat u\u015furat c\u00e2nd a dat peste durere \u00een ad\u00e2ncul ochilor s\u0103i, dar s-a \u00eentristat pe dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd \u015fi-a dat seama c\u0103 nu mai este aceea\u015fi durere superioar\u0103 care \u00eel \u00een\u0163epase sub frunte. Durerea \u00ee\u015fi schimbase registrul nervos \u015fi nu mai producea \u00een el altceva dec\u00e2t durere grosier\u0103. P\u00e2n\u0103 \u015fi durerea \u00eei p\u0103r\u0103sise realit\u0103\u0163ile \u015fi se mutase definitiv \u00een realitatea stupefiant de egal\u0103 a \u00eentregii lui vie\u0163i prezente.<\/p>\n
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Diminea\u0163\u0103, \u00eenc\u0103 o dat\u0103. Pe nea\u015fteptate deschide ochii \u015fi se uit\u0103 de jur \u00eemprejur. Salonul este \u00eenc\u0103 luminat de un fel de \u00eentuneric transparent, ale c\u0103rui particule negre abia se mai v\u0103d din c\u00e2teva \u00een c\u00e2teva clipiri. Lumina matinal\u0103 continu\u0103 s\u0103 fie, de\u015fi a\u015fa, nocturn\u0103, tot mai pu\u0163in, iar \u00eentunericul nop\u0163ii se \u00eempr\u0103\u015ftie tot mai […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[6,4,5],"class_list":["post-962","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-romanul-online","tag-literatura-virtuala-exclusiv-antuma","tag-patrick-calinescu","tag-roman-online"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6DakB-fw","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/962","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=962"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/962\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1562,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/962\/revisions\/1562"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=962"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=962"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=962"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}