{"id":9635,"date":"2013-03-30T23:55:56","date_gmt":"2013-03-30T21:55:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=9635"},"modified":"2013-04-02T17:03:34","modified_gmt":"2013-04-02T15:03:34","slug":"as-if-through-the-mirrors-mirror-despair-disbelief-hate","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=9635","title":{"rendered":"As if through the mirror&#8217;s mirror: despair, disbelief, hate"},"content":{"rendered":"<p align=right>by \u015etefan Bolea<br \/>\ntranslation from Romanian by Camelia-Aura Barbu [MTTLC student]<br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/egophobia.ro\/?p=9634\">click aici<\/a> pentru versiunea rom\u00e2n\u0103\n<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p align=justify>\n&nbsp;<br \/>\n1.\u00a0\u00a0 Hope is a lie. You hope for something you <i>know<\/i> you will never have. What\u2019s more, it is a subspecies of fear. \u201cDon\u2019t hope and don\u2019t be afraid\u201d= When you hope, you are afraid. You hope for something that you don\u2019t deserve. If you deserved it, it would come from your action itself, not from your untamed wish. \u201eLosing all hope is freedom\u201d. Losing all hope is death. Better dead than weak! Why be upset when you can do? So be hope-less! Despair is the black hole on the flag of humiliation.<!--more--><\/p>\n<p>2.\u00a0\u00a0 If you are gullible, you will have many disappointments. It is absurd to believe what is absurd. Understand that you can\u2019t believe in order to understand. If scepticism is a sort of passive nihilism, disTrust has an active shade, which enjoys the most destroying beliefs. I believe in my own distrust. \u201cIf he believes, he doesn\u2019t believe. If he doesn\u2019t believe, he believes.\u201d Of Stavrogin only the ambiguity remains: the character is his own demon, gnome or buffoon. Stavrogin was the shadow \u2013 you have to be the super-shadow! Until disbelief will attack itself, like the snake Ouroboros, to finish its mission to obliterate all beliefs!<\/p>\n<p>3.\u00a0\u00a0 Hatred stronger than love, as one of Umberto Eco\u2019s characters thought. Could it be the opposite of <i>agape<\/i> \u2013 abhorrence, hatred of the superior ones, close to indifference? Hatred, criminal desire (Sartre). \u201cI hate you to death\u201d. Hatred, black magic. Hatred, attachment to the past (Ion Vianu). What is the secret of hatred? Love? Madness? Tenacity? Crime? Unknowingness? Hope is a lie. Faith is a lie. Love is a lie. Hatred is the lie of a lie, so, psychologically (not logically) speaking, a special untruth. A personal untruth. \u201cMy tunnel\u201d.<\/p>\n<p>4.\u00a0\u00a0 I am not Satan (to answer Sartre\u2019s <i>Baudelaire<\/i>), I am against Satan, as I am against God. The difference between Satan and I is equivalent to the difference between Jesus and Paul. Rather Satan is the symbol of today\u2019s church that wants money and worldly power. The church despises those who live in the world of ideas. For the church \u201cdead are the deads\u201d. God has been killed by priests as well.<\/p>\n<p>5.\u00a0\u00a0 I am a party with only one member, a religion with only one believer, an orchestra with a double instrument: a chainsaw playing a harp.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>by \u015etefan Bolea translation from Romanian by Camelia-Aura Barbu [MTTLC student] click aici pentru versiunea rom\u00e2n\u0103 &nbsp; &nbsp; 1.\u00a0\u00a0 Hope is a lie. You hope for something you know you will never have. What\u2019s more, it is a subspecies of fear. \u201cDon\u2019t hope and don\u2019t be afraid\u201d= When you hope, you are afraid. 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